That was really helpful thank you , it was his trust and faith . I got absolutely destroyed and god taught me more in short time and I am at so peaceful and not a single bit of pain or anger or impatience I am in awe of god , because I know God had to teach me much and learn much and Everytime I got weak or tired God's words made all the different I leave on highway to where god sending me with nothing except few clothes and my book 🤣🤣and I don't even care who or what is at other end. I'm excited just knowing I'm leaving and god needs me not even put my hands on anything . My love for God is like no one will understand, I love praising talking about god and telling everyone about god and I see how by the end it was scaring people that I had nothing yet more relentless they attacked more happy I was and sung praised god and I just want be partnered up and get to work on God's kingdom , and unlike all those times in past , all I produced was useless because they just betray you But with god holy spirit leading I am so excited . Your right it's god they all need see