Gender is fluid, there is no age to figure stuff out. Thank you for your honesty and the trust to talk about this. I came out young, and my gender has become an ever changing thing, but ive come to a point that, whatever it is its me :)), good luck with your journey :D
im very much a casual watcher of your content, and i am surprised and glad to see you express something i relate so closely to. i love being a lesbian and my female body doesn't bother me in the context of sex and relationships, but i war with it constantly when it comes to my gender expression. i have curvy legs and a chest that i cannot hide without a binder, as soon as puberty hit i would hide my chest however i could, leading to my developing terrible posture from hunching. it's funny how you can have this relationship that is so high and low with yourself, and i can never settle on a set state of comfort because of the fluidity. love your videos and hope to see more from you in the coming months :)
it felt really good and reassuring to listen to you talk about your experiences with gender in this video. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share this with us! wishing you all the best - figuring oneself out when everyone else thinks they already know who you are is tough, but I hope you allow yourself the patience and kindness to discover all the tiny facets that make up who you are :)
no matter how you feel we will alway support and cheer you on no matter how you identify, and if you are trans all the girlies will be more than happy to help if you want
I resonate with this a lot. It took me a long time to become comfortable with not knowing exactly what I am, but that’s okay. At first I thought I was gender fluid, then a demigirl, then ???, then fully trans. I identify currently as nonbinary, but I’ve never been able to determine if I should include myself in the trans umbrella because I have, in fact, partially medically transitioned with top surgery? (And SO happy about it!) I said I was trans at first when I got top surgery, but it felt like an insult to trans people since I didn’t do HRT (even though I’m technically medically ineligible for HRT). I realize that’s probably a silly way to think, but nonbinary felt right for me. But even figuring out I was nonbinary took freaking forever 😅 I didn’t get top surgery until last year when I was 31, for age reference. And as for sexuality, I’ve always been attracted to other gender queer folks, though, so I knew I was…something. And actually my friends would question my sexuality and gender even though I’d never mentioned my thoughts about it with them many many years before I even presented remotely masc. So…I think I just put out a gender queer energy. I think the transition journey is a bit different for people who didn’t grow up with this information at their fingertips, probably like you as well, but I’m so glad you are able to start figuring out this for yourself now💞 no matter what you land on, you’re not stuck with it if it doesn’t feel right later.
I haven’t seen the whole video yet, but I love you no matter what. As long as you find your joy, that’s the main thing. It took until a year or so ago before I realized that I was genderqueer (and I’m in my mid-30s!). I knew that I didn’t really feel like I “fit” into a perfect little gender box, but the words to describe and express it didn’t really exist when I was growing up. But this isn’t about me; it’s about you. And whatever makes you happy and makes you feel good and makes you feel at peace in your own skin, then I’m happy for you too. And I know it can be stressful and exhausting when exploring your own identity, so try to give yourself some grace and don’t ever forget that you are loved and you are important and you matter 💜💜💜
I was born female but of late ive been feeling more masculine. I really like when my friends call me manly or tell me they like my veiny hands ect. But i still like to look feminine its just that i also like to look masculine lots. I dont know what this means.. if anyone knows please help me out, becuse idk 😅 Also Cam, i love that you feel comfortable talking to us about this❤ we are always here to support you and listen, we are all very proud of you❤
it means you like being masculine and feminine. as far as being trans goes you can ask yourself tester questions to see how you feel. for the social side of gender, think about how you feel about being called by masc/femme titles like mrs. or sir. ask yourself if you’d rather be an aunt or an uncle or inbetween, what sort of parent you want to be, what kind of pronouns you like, etc. one clue for me was that i was absolutely devastated as a kid when i found out i had to be the mom and couldn’t be the dad when i grew up the other side to gender is the physical side. do you want to actually be male, or are you just enjoying the butch female vibe? if you could choose which parts you had and how masc/femme your body naturally was, what would you choose? it’s ok to test out shit and see how it feels. move towards whatever is honest and sincere. dont put too much pressure on yourself to figure it out
thank you for sharing this! i am non-binary/transmasc and my partner is transfemme - she recently realised she's a trans woman after identifying as non-binary for a few years. what i love about being genderqueer is that it is so fluid and can change so much, like, we have the power to define who we are and that's pretty cool! it was lovely to hear where you're at <3
I figured out I am genderqueer three years ago, and now I feel so much more comfortable with myself, but your video made me remember how I felt in the beginings of figuring it out, how I'd look back at stuff from my childhood and find hints and clues, and how much I longed to be seen for who I am by the rest of the world. Gender is so complexe and even after all these years I haven't found a definite answer or like label that fits perfectly with how I feel, and it's okay for me. I'm so happy you're taking the time to get to know yourself better, it really is a beautiful journey <3
I truly relate to your story. I discovered I was Genderfluid about 4 years ago when I started dressing more like a boy, wearing masculine cosplays and I so badly wanted a binder and to just feel so masc (and being plus size this is pretty difficult lol). I even felt this way when I was a preteen, staring at myself in the mirror and thinking "why was I born a girl? Why couldn't I have been born a boy? I wish I was a boy." So I totally relate to your story!! And the cutting on the hair is the opposite for me, I cut my hair short like yours is now and I was in love with myself again!! Thank you for sharing your story. We are listening. We hear you. 🩷
hi Cam :) I'm not someone who comments often, but this feel like the type of video where discussing as much as possible is important, and I went through somewhat similar but opposite experience. I'm genderfluid (but born afab) and have labelled and presented as such for a little over two years now, and the way I figured it out was in pretty much the same way you did (I cut my hair really short), but I had the opposite reaction; I felt so much more like a person. I had always been somewhat out of place in terms of gender, but I didn't realize that there were other options than just "boy" and "girl", but then I saw myself with short hair, and my facial features are pretty androgynous, so I saw a completely different person, and I liked them a whole lot more. In that period of time, I was ina pretty bad place mentally, and I thought I was just a cis bisexual girl going through a breakdown, cutting all my hair off, but doing so made me realize there was something else that was off. after this, the chain of events that followed led me to find out that I am genderfluid and my sexuality is a little complicated. I usually just call myself queer to avoid confusion, but I'm still a little lost due to the fact that I know I fall somewhere on the ace spectrum, but also wOmen? idk, it's complicated, i've ended up kind of doing a mix of not caring, going with the flow, and giving up, in terms of my sexuality. whatever happens, happens, and if everyone involved is aware and happy, it's fine. but my gender was also something that (like it did for you) made me redefine my sexuality, and doing so made me get to a much better spot, mentally :) sorry this was so long, i ramble a lot, but if it has the potential to help make someone feel less alone, i don't think the word count matters much. love you Cam! hope you find what you're looking for and feel better <33
I'm really proud of you, Cam. Take your time figuring it out, there's no deadline. At the end of the day, you're living your life for YOU, and we're all so happy that you're still here 💖 I personally identify as bi, and recently I've come to terms with being aromantic. It's a relief to feel like you know who you are, and I applaud you digging deep and working on yourself. Labels definitely aren't for everyone, but I do like feeling like I can better explain myself (if I had to) with said labels. (: Looking forward to seeing how your journey goes! You're loved and supported!! 🏳🌈
I had such a similar experience. When I was younger, I cut my very long hair and each year, I felt more comfortable with cutting It even shorter. Then, to test put new hairstyles, I let it grow out again and in the beginning it looked very androgynous. One day, my mother told me to go to the hairdresser and make her cut it very straight and neat, because it had grown out so messily. My hairdresser is a transwoman, who cut all my other experimental hairstyles and with whom I felt very comfortable talking about queerness.(I still do, but I don't go there very often nowadays, because I need to save my money). In the moment I told her to cut my, now shoulder-lenght hair in such a traditionally feminine way, I felt like my heart broke, because this wasn't what I wanted at all. I had grown to love the androgyny. That's, when I realised, I wanted to present masculine or androgynous sometimes. I wondered if I was trans, but it just never felt right to me. Transitioning was out of the question, it still is. I am just way to afraid of undergoing any physically altering procedures and also being a man forever was just not it for me. I still felt very feminine a lot of the time. I label myself genderfluid nowadays(my awakening was 5 or 6 years ago as I was still deep in puberty.) because this whole gender thing surprises me newly all of the time. At the moment, I have felt more feminine for a longer period of time and sometimes I get scared thinking I just made everything up, but as time goes on I am becoming more and more secure in just being who I am, being open to my gender changing from time to time and embracing different energies, as they come. Remember: Gender is a social construct and before you are anything, you are a human being with thoughts and emotions, who should do and say, what they feel comfortable with. This video comforted me a lot, because there is just not a lot of content for genderqueerness, especially not from content creators, who I have followed for such a long time as I have followed you. I do not watch your videos regularly, but when I do click on one, I feel a lot of comfort and happiness. Because I am not out to most of my family and mostly present traditionally feminine, I feel very seen by this video and your thoughts on your own genderqueerness. Thank you a lot, Cam! Also, love to everyone, who reads this!❤ English is not my first language. I am sorry if I have made any mistakes. If you notice any, please comment them, so I can do better next time.
Nice to see you again! I also identify with being genderfluid, as well as demiboy, which is part male and part nonbinary for me. Gender has been definitely a wild ride and I saw some childhood signs but never thought much about them as you mentioned. It wasn't until I sat down and had a discussion about it with someone that I thought I would finally critically evaluate it and realized how strange and fluid it was and how much more I related to feeling like boy and wanting to be seen as a boy rather than feminine or female, and I worried and gaslit myself for a while thinking this was all in my head and I was just cis but when I put on my first binder it definitely clicked that this was me, and I did not expect how happy I would be from putting a binder on, gender euphoria is awesome! Best wishes to you on your journey, it's definitely an exciting one!
We love you Cam, we’re proud you’re tapping into your identity, it’s a very healing experience. It can be extremely hard to figure these things out and it’s a difficult or even long process, so take your time and genuinely spend some good quality time with yourself, focus on becoming happy and loving yourself for who you are, you are perfect. I may not have had to deal with this but thank you for speaking up about this openly, a lot of others can relate and it could even be eye opening for the people here who also struggle with figuring out who they are.❤️❤️❤️
I also had this recent realization about my sexuality. I live in a country which is very homophobic and I am only out to my close friends and my brother. My parents don't know anything about my sexuality yet and if I tell them, I will also have to mentally prepare myself to get completely disowned by them. They might accept me but the chances are very slim. And because it was so hard for me to come to terms with my sexuality, I didn't even dare to think about gender. But deep down I knew, I just didn't want to accept it. I never felt comfortable with any label so I just started identifying as queer. I think the reason I didn't feel comfortable was because I was not comfortable with people assuming my gender. I recently dyed my hair red and everyone was complimenting me and my hair, and I did feel beautiful with my long red hair, almost like mermaid but soon my long started to feel like costume and I didn't want to dress overly feminine. I cut my hair very short and suddenly I felt like I look the way I feel. Now I don't feel pressure to dress in any particular or to do makeup. I feel free. I still wish to dress more masculine but I am not ready to buy more clothes. I am still figuring out everything. I still only use she/her pronouns. But cutting my hair was definitely a step in the right direction. So thank you Cam for making this video.
Thank you so much for your honesty and for sharing this with us.♡ As a genderqueer person that is struggling with figuring myself out, it is soo nice to hear stories like yours. To hear that there's a chance I can find happiness in my gender queerness and that it's okay to still be figuring things out. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish joy and all the best for your future, wherever it may lead you♡♡♡
