i’m praying someone replies. does anybody know what happened to “i love me” or where i can find it??? it’s my favorite song osrs and i haven’t been able to find it anywhere:/
I tried telling a friend about it. We had been discussing some heavy stuff and I told her about one time I needed my mum. I was at my fathers for his weekend and my mother had told me "anytime you need to come home, call me and I'll come get you. I don't care when you can always call me." I took her literally on that. It had been a long day and I had gotten in trouble while we were at the shops. When I'm in trouble he grips the back of my neck so hard I feel things shift in my neck and I knew I was in trouble after I dropped the bottle of coke. We got home, the rest of the day played out and my big brother was down in the lounge room with our father when I went to my room. I grabbed my phone and I called her like she said I could. And she told me it was only one more day and I'd be home after school on monday. That she couldn't pick me up because it was 9 at night. She said anytime she'd come get me she fucking promised and I was trapped. My father came down and I hung up and kicked the phone under the couch in my room but I kicked it too far, he saw it on the other side and he saw the last call I made. He came right up to me and pinned me against the wall before flipping me and slamming my face against the wall. He was furious. He grinded up against me and told me that what I could feel, would be tearing up my insides and I would be lucky to walk out of his house on monday. I told my friend all of this and she goes 'that's kinda hot not gonna lie. Like that's bad it happened to you but like.. you know what I mean?' I .... in some twisted way I get what she meant but that was the wrong thing to say like what the fuck why would you say that to me? what the fuck? I can't tell her stuff like that anymore and I just don't have those conversations with her anymore. She's a pretty good friend in nearly every other aspect but that was just... wrong.
My bf threw a tantrum because of my trauma response, he was too rough with me. He told me I couldn’t have full control over sex and that’s not fair. He knows I’m a survivor. Safe to say it’s over. I CANT STOP WHENEVER I PLEASE I DO NOT OWE YOU MY BODY
He was my bf he kept asking me for a year over and over if i wanted to "do it" i kept telling him no then one morning after he had spent the night he told me to come see him in the backroom of my house i thought "hey yeah lets just hangout" i went back there he started feeliing up on my chest and forced me down on the couch and tried to get me to touch him i clenched my hands shut and tried to pull my hand out his grip i fought it didnt matter he had an iron grip around my wrist and forced my hand open then when that wasnt enough he tried to put it in my mouth i clenched my jaw shut and shook my head no he still didnt listen afterwards i told him i needed to go to the bathroom he let me up i ran to the livingroom and curled up with my knees to my chest sitting by my mom while she was still sleeping i was 14 1/2 and this was only one occasion
Listening to this song after my friend recommended it to me saying "You may relate" actually tore my heart apart cause she knows how much I love lit=stening to music that I relate to and she knows the story so she knows I'd relate after going through what I went through this song made me realize that i'm not alone going through these comments makes me think I have people who may support me I love bj and her music but this song especially hit me hard
I was 18 first guy I thought I was madly in love with. After breaking up with me he called me to work things out and I drove 3 hours to pick him up for him to tell me let’s go to the neighboorhood hangout spot by the river to talk and all the while lured me into a field 2 miles from my car and proceeded to take my clothes off and I stopped him and said I don’t wanna do this I’ll regret it. He forced his hands down my leggings and said I won’t regret this proceeded to rip my leggings off I tripped over a log cut my leg and he still forced my himself on top of me. And I froze and silent tears fell. Time stood still. When he was done. I gathered what clothes I could tied my sweatshirt around my waste to cover the rips another hoodie to cover to marks on me neck and the hair missing from my head. I drive him home and nothing was said. The moment he stepped out all he could say was this is what you wanted wasn’t it. Closure right. I sped off and never saw him again nor talked about what happened . I cried the whole 3 hours home. I never said anything because he was my boyfriend at one time. I loved him I thought. I didn’t say “no” when it happened. There can be so many circumstances but it took me growing older and working through the trauma and many hours of counseling to understand it wasn’t my fault I didn’t ask for it and I didn’t deserve what he did to me. But like this beautiful badass woman says karma is real and so are we!
He was my brother….i was 4, he was 8..we were home alone and he said ‘do you want to play a game?’ I was 5 and he was 9, we had been sent to our room for fighting.. I was 6 he was 10..I was in his room watching movies with him..I had barely realized it wasn’t normal so I begged him to stop…he wouldn’t. I was 7 he was 11, I had just been caught watching porn on my phone bc I was curious, he snuck into my room while I was grounded I was 8, he was 12..we were at our cousins house sharing a bed because there was no more room anywhere else I was 9, he was 13..he snuck into my bed.. I was 10, he was 14…this was the last year it happened…he snuck into my bed again
My girlfriend brought me on to this song a year ago. And I still like to revisit it every now and then. It's so powerful and she can relate to this, as many of these commenters have.
He was my favorite uncle and I was 6 he did it so many times from the time I turned 6 until I was 7 and now I can’t handle physical touch. My boyfriend understands and he’s been slowly working with me to help me with it. I still freeze up sometimes when he touches me and the flashbacks are really hard to come back from but im getting better. I’m turning 15 this year and I feel like for the first time since I was 6 I’ll be okay..
This girl is so courageous. This takes so much strength and grace and heartbreak to even admit to yourself you’ve been raped.. let alone speak it outloud to others. In a world that’s constantly gaslighting women and shaming women who get raped, constantly shaming Anyone who gets raped. You are not alone, you are not lying, you are not trippin, you are not crazy, you are not dirty, you are not worthless, you are not to blame! And you never deserved this pain. But you can take that pain and turn it into something that may help others relate or help heal them. Even tho it’s hard. And in the process help heal yourslef. Like this beautiful women did. I pray that each person who’ listens to this song finds so much healing, and happiness, you are so strong. And loved. I hope you all find peace. #metoo
This hits so fucking hard right now 😭I wanted to kill MY self bc I thought it was my fault n now I am sh again n idk what to do anymore I am scared 😭😭😭no one gets me n y I didn't say no he kept asking me n I finally gave in so he said it wasn't sa so idkkkk
I was six he was 13 when this happened until I turn 14 it stopped but it was my own fucking brother he wouldn’t stop touching me or trying to penetrate me I always used to say no an try to push him off an kinda started crying when I got older when I was younger I just let it happen an stayed quiet I feel like it’s my fault it happen because I didn’t say anything I still didn’t say anything I have to fucking live with this everyday my brother fucked me up in my head an my innocents now I can’t trust a man or feel comfortable around guys
8 year old me didn’t deserve this, it was my sisters boyfriend at the time and with that she didn’t believe me i still remember everything that happened that night and im 16 now.
is it considered SA if we were both drunk... and i told him i didnt want to do it way before we got drunk. and then he proceeds to tell me that he didn't do anything? and then he "forgets" get got me plan b in the morning. im so confused am i just overthinking this? was i asking for it? i told him that i didnt want to do anything more than once... he has a gf too.... i told a couple of people i trusted ab it and they went ahead and made rumors ab me, saying the nastiest crap. and my own (now ex bf) said that it was my fault. i trusted the guy, ive known him for 5 years.... was i in the wrong? should i have not hung out w him? was it my own fault.....
March 9, 2024 he SA me and laffed. I cried in the bathroom cleaning myself up while he begged me to come back. I told my parents and I was the one to blame. I cried in fear feeling like it was happening again. Constant nightmares, scared of boys. I’m scared.
I don't want to say oh it will get better, that sounds weak but from one survivor to another, its less that it gets better than it hurts less what feels like a gaping wound right now while it will always stay with you, will become more like a bruise sore to the touch but better than a bleeding wound. You just have to make it there. Your family is wrong you didn't ask for it, its not your fault <3
At 19, He kidnapped me, brutally beat and raped me. He locked in his apartment for 3 days while my family reported me missing. I escaped and told family what had happened and came up pregnant with his baby. No one believed me. 4 years later I have the most beautiful son that looks just like me. People claim to believe me now but I feel like deep down they really dont, so I keep all my feelings inside about the situation.
I can't remember if something happened but I feel like something has I know I had nightmares that felt so real like 7 times, but I just feel like something happened but I don't think anything did.. I'm not sure. I know for sure my exes had said stuff like "I'll just wait til you've passed out asleep", or "I'll just dunk your head in _____ to make you pass out" or that they were gonna drug me. It was scary, so glad I got out of there.
I was 3 when it first happened I didn't know why my Grandpa was touching me in my privates he told me it was love I was 11 when I told someone and it was after my father died. I was thirteen my favorite cousin touched me for three months and then died a year after and I still miss him. My father makes me change in front of him and makes me sit on his lap I'm 15 now and he still does it. I was having fun with my mom in the store and a man walked into the aisle and was staring at my butt. We walked two aisles down and he followed and continued to stare at my butt. We went to leave and turns out he had a family. I hate Walmarts now and I hate the clothes that I had on and they used to be my favorite.
