I still have my signed book, It's one of my favorite things because It truly shows how time hasn't changed. I literally almost got sent to the hospital for 2 weeks, Because I apparently walked around my apartment too much and my neighbors thought I was pacing, along with them thinking I was talking to myself. Guess what I was doing? Video chatting with headphones on. Somehow that is enough to almost get institutionalized, And I spent all day in ER. If my fiance hadn't been home at the time (he doesn't live with me) I would not have been let out, i would have gone to an institution and then they would decide if i would EVER be allowed to live alone again. Literally they did not believe anything I was saying. It's dehumanizing
A baycreact center or asylum? Don’t know what they told you haha but your alr even if you were admitted they let you out once they see your doing well they can’t keep you there for no cause there is a bit of stigma around it I stayed there for about two years and it was suffocating but I met the most interesting and sweet people there depending on where you live it can be different, they really can’t do anything if your not a danger to yourself or others or if you for better words lost your mind because don’t think it would be that different for sane people most of the staff there are there for a reason nowadays, because they went through something similar
What's dehumanising is actually being stuck in a closed mental asylum for almost a year where they can straight up give you one needle in the arm and tie you down to "calm you down" legally.
@@Soyichino No it mostly just depends on if it's an "open station" or a "closed ward". Open station = you can go whenever but if you get worse or "lost your mind" as you call it (stigmatized much?) they can easily send you to a closed ward = you can't leave. There's locks on every door and you have basically nothing (they search every part of your body don't even try.) and you basically are only allowed to sit in your empty white room and do absolutely nothing besides think about why you got here in the first place and how you can escape (spoiler: you can't.) every window is barred up and you get 15min a day of time on the outside clinic ground with at least one or two of the staff there, and that's if you're lucky. At the start you get none. You have to eat everything they put on your plate (to keep you "alive and healthy") and if you don't, you have to drink it in form of the most disgusting, sugary thick liquid ever. Also straight up tranquilizing you if you get "angry" and being completely legally able to tie you down for the whole night. (and even longer) I also wouldn't try to make friends with the other people there, one of them got obsessed with me and he wrote "I will burn you" circled in hearts on my walls in the middle of the night. I also had a roommate once (who was a literal r4p1st who stood TRIAL for it) and he tried to off himself in my room (with me next to him) by shoving the bendy metal part inside a ffp2 mask into his cephalic vein. The whole bed was covered in bloody sheets and blankets for 3 days. I will never go back there. That place gave me deeper trauma than I had before.
Oh my goodness!!! I just obtained a copy of your hardcover book earlier today (I own both the softcover version (bought recently - thank you so much!) and the hardcover from 2011 online) I’m so happy to be able to comment on these videos! You, your poetry, music, and writing have been such a cathartic and inspirational experience for me - I feel understood and heard for the first time by someone like me - thank you! Thank you so much, Emilie!! I want to join the S.S.S - is that possible without buying the EBook? I understand if not - I’m just really excited and really happy - I found you from an animatic to your song Nothing and I’m so happy I did! Thank you for opening the comments section <3