TW: €D, S@, $H maybe family and financial issues. I've struggled with eating for awhile now whenever i look at food all i feel is disgust and whenever i eat i just wanna throw up even if it's my comfort food. My parents haven't noticed how badly my mental health is so I'm scared of telling them due to the fact my country doesn't validate mental health and calls whoever struggles with it crazy. I haven't really told my S@ experience to anyone so me saying it to strangers is weird.. but here it goes. Back in 2023 i had just gotten into my first relationship in January, they were 16 and i was 9, they had said they were looking for something serious and sexual but i didn't think anything of it. Not even a day after they had made me have e-$ex with them forcefully, i was practically crying behind the screen i didn't know how to stop them, sure this didn't happen irl but if it did then i don't know if i could've been saved from such a thing.. I've been struggling financially for almost a year now, my parents are in debt and we might be getting evicted.. i want to try helping but I'm only a child i can't help at all, my dad is trying to work while my mom is just trying to take care of us they might abuse me and my siblings sometimes but I'm still grateful for their hardwork and presence even if i don't tell them it often but i just really hope i can get through this shit I'm tired. I've also been struggling with $h for a year, i can't seem to stay sober whatsoever so any coping mechanisms or distractions on how to stop would be great, thank you for reading..
Oh love, this is horrible! Really! Just know you never deserved any of that! I hope you already broke up, try to download 'I am sober.' It's a free game that really helps me with my self-harm! I hope things are going to be better soon! Your perfect just how you are, good luck ml❤
Awhhh don't say that ur soo pretty blonde hair blue hair I wish I looked like u I'm faded out I'm more darkened not much ppl like me I wish I was over ppl like u I could kill myself just to look like u❤ I mean it
Omg....i'm so sorry...you shouldn't have to hurt yourself. Here's a tip. If you ever feel the need to hurt yourself at home. Grab a note book. And a pincel or pen. And scribble in it to get all your saddness or anger out. And if your in public. A good tip is to take 3 deep breaths. And if that doesn't work you can pop your fingers. If that doesn't work I don't know what will. But love you hope you'll get better soon❤
I love my mom alot. She has health issues that make her tired and have migraines all the time. I'm tired all the time cuz of my axienity when I try to sleep. My mom is a great mom, but alot of times she won't believe me if I tell her I have actual sleeping problems....gotta go clean because I wanna make her happy❤😊
Aww this is so cute. Maybe you should try to search help by friends or someone else. Maybe you should try to talk with her seriously about it. I hope you will get better soon!!
In short i'll tell a bit of my life 🙂 So it all started when i was on 2 years old with my mom,my elder brother and me we went to the field my mom was carring me on her back i was just happy but......there came the part we went to a old house there was a grandfather living there , he played with me and after reaching home i was sleeping and i couldn't breathe at all i was fant my mom took me to the hospital and i felt better ,my was discussing with my dad and the doctor my brother was just so scared bout me . This was the time when i could be almost saying bye to the world . * My mom told this to me * My brother's Almost dead The other one i was 7 years old we went to my uncle's house ,they had a dog which was very big and dangerous that dog was running towards us (my mom and my brother even me ) i was scared and terrifyed when the dog was going to jump on me my mom pulled me over and i was saved but my brother he was trying to open the door to go out but he was not fast enough and the dog bite my brother in his leg but he was lucky that the dog didn't bite very hardly he went to the doctor and the doctor said that "its ok the dog was injected so there is no infection " and gave my brother a medicine to put it on the bite .
When I watched this I said “my baby my baby no u shouldn’t do this” u really shouldn’t ya know I’m always here if u need to talk to someone Idm hearing u vent I’d love to hear u vent I watch loads of ur videos and love them (BUT DONT ASK WHY I CALLED U MY BABY)
Yo man I’m not asking for any attention but I just want to let everyone know that they are not alone A small story Let’s just say that I had a certain friend in Instagram who was the last person I would ever talk to again because he had done something so unforgivable I was a 15-16 year old girl and he was 17-18 and I was online SH and he asked for inappropriate stuff and pictures but I never asked for it and certainly not ready for a forced relationship he made me into. and I was just dumb not even seeing the signs and now I had been on victim list Let’s say that it went on for a few months and I was alone back then but until one day I was caught by my older sister who taught me a very valuable lesson that I never forget and from that moment I had never texted anyone but known ppl I had been traumatized by it and nowadays I try to cover up my body but its not easy especially if you are from a strict family 😅
This isn’t the most important thing tbh,but it really annoys me (more of a rant not a vent at all :) So I love reading,but as I’ve gotten older I really haven’t read much. Everything in the YA feels way too mature (you know what I mean) and I don’t really feel like the “little kids” books are good either because while some are good,I really just feel like it’s too immature. I’ve always been an advanced reader and I want to read more,but I’m tired of rereading the same books over and over.
I’m a 11 yr old kid who lives in the north eastern us :3 I never got to meet my father rlly. Since 0-1 I lived alone with my mother. 2-5 i lived at my grandparents and my mother. My grandmother and mother barely spent time w/ me bc they had work. My grandpa was the only person i rlly knew other then my father, my father would pick me up sometimes and take me to a nearby hair salon. One time i was on Facebook bc i was reading a magazine :3 i think it was Racheal Ray or smthn Irdk i was 3-4. At the age of 5 I moved. I moved with my new step-father. I had siblings. I was the second youngest. I had a new older step sister that had a 5 yr age gap (she was 10-11 during the time, her name is gonna be S) and a older step brother with a 1 yr age gap (he was 6-7 & named p.) I was really exited to have siblings. My step siblings had a half sister that was my age but her birthday was in December. So that would mean that she was a grade under me. A couple months later I went into a pre-k - 12 school. I joined the school at kindergarten/year 1 I met this kid called m. She was nice, we immediately became best friends.🤞In October my youngest half sister was born. (k) As normal my mother mostly spender her time with the house. My sister and I would go a couple houses across the street to play with our neighbors that went to our school in the summer. Everything was perfect. Kinda… my father had a dog named O :3 he was cute. My dad adopted a different breed dog called G <3 I loved her >< my step-grandparents lived next door so I would still have a connection with some grandparents. My real father still visited but less only becuase my mother. I always watched his phone in the car. That’s when I found out abt roblox! ^^ by cookie swirl c and itsfunneh >< they were my favorite! ^^ I downloaded it on his phone :p after when I moved my father would take me on thanksgiving to our state’s football game, that was my only reason I loved thanksgiving. My step-father would force me to eat. If we saw me waste food I would get in trouble. I stayed up countless nights trying to eat. I was very picky so I obviously toke a while. Past 12. My step-father would not care if I stayed up all night, only if I ate a whole plate. 1st grade comes and me and m is not in the same class. I was upset becuase I was only 6. We saw eachother on lunch and recess ^_^ one day around quarter 4 m leg to go on vacation, to Disney world. I was a little jelous but I didn’t care, just if I got to see her. I was sad becuase I didn’t see her for the rest of the year. (A couple of weeks) I got introduced to Gacha life and a lot of it around 2018-2019, in the summer my step-sister would play games with my step-brother, I would stay on my iPad and play Bach Alice and watch Gacha, I was a “depress Gacha Emo kid” that phase was from the end of the 2019 school year until it started again. In second grade covid hit. I would get whooped for a lot of things with my fathers belt, he didn’t go soft. We would go as hard as he did to my older siblings >< I was even more sad when I noticed online I was not in the same class as m AGAIN. I was sad but very smart! I met a boy named E and we played among us after online school :D I also met this girl named T and she was nice. That year wasn’t rlly eventful bc covid. In third grade I was in the same class as E, M, and T ^^ I was happy, T had a crush on E for about 2 years, I was so happy to see M again. One time I got covid, I thought I was dying bc I saw that covid could have a chance of dying. When I came back from having covid my teacher left, I was sad. The new teacher was nice until he left too. I had m last third grade teacher and he didn’t leave. Me and m was insepperable. Until 1 day she started to leave me out. I was upset bc after 1 and 1/2 years I didn’t see her and finally when I see her she leaves me out. I was sad but T was there. <3 one time I had it. One day at 9 AM at gym, m left me out again. I was over it, I ignored her. She was crying, (I mixed up ignoring with leaving out somehow.) the whole class kept yelling at me bc they loved her. T was the only 1 who didn’t yell and harass me, I kept running away from the whole class. The teacher didn’t do shit. Even when I hid in the stalls the girls would yell at me infront of it waiting for me to get out, I was already going though enough with 2 bullies ( K #2 and A. ) K#2 physically bullied me about my allergies and A was friends with me 1 day, and bullied me the other day, in and out. I was fucking tired and wanted to die, but I didn’t want to die bc S was always there. I also had another friend that was barely at school named H, she was sweet. At the field trip we got selected as just me and her w/ her mother, I was happy ^^ she left the next school year tho. At 4th grade I was walking up to my class for the first time. I saw M. In my mind I was stressing out bc I didn’t want drama. I also had A in my class too but he didn’t bully me as much bc he had a new friend called L. K#2 was in a different class with T. M met a new friend from their pre school called A#2. I was a little jealous bc they had a strong friendship right when they met after about 3 yrs. Every day I would become friends with m again, but everyday again at recess M would come with T, A#2, and another girl called A#3 would come up 2 me at the swings and say that they weren’t friends anymore. T looked away bc they forced her to come w/ them everyday, she didn’t mean it. I always acted like I didn’t care but riht when they walked away I teared up and went to the bathroom stall 2 cry silently. K#2 and A still bullied me. I was kinda popular in the school bc my siblings and other reasons, but I was more of the “well known kids” then popular. One time I was in math class with a girl named L#2 and a small friend from1st grade named R and A was bullying us again. One time he went to the bathroom and I told L#2 I wanted to k1ll A. She said do it. I obviously said no bc I didn’t want 2 go to jail. At the end A heard me. He was yelling at me and the teacher didn’t do shit. I was crying bc he threatened to call the principal on me. I was horrified about getting a call home bc I was scared of getting whooped or worse. The principal came in hearing the noise and I got my mother called. Thank god my mother didn’t tell my step father. She just talked 2 me while he was in the other room. I was crying because I didn’t want her to tell my step father. I was insecure about my allergies and my glasses, and braces. >< I would only seem “popular” when I had box braids in, it was like hair was the only way to be popular. I had a crush on a popular boy, I knew I could not date him bc he alr said he had a crush on a girl, I was happy for him! One time I was trying to cvt with a mechanical pencil, he laughed at me. I was crying so hard on the inside. I didn’t bleed. It just left white marks that would go way if had contact with water. I got bullied on roblox and one time this girl told me to off myself so I was even more sad. XD I tried to fit into trend but I was not allowed to have tik tok. Or had a phone. I made the best of it by searching tik tok trends on yt, I tried everything to look better, follow more trends, dances, everything. At the summer of 4th grade my mother found out about my father cheating on her, we moved into my aunt for the rest of the summer. In fifth grade I saw m again. We restarted being friends and acted like 3rd grade and 4th grade never happened. We became friends with a girl named G, Z, and A#4, they were Mexican, A#4 only spoke Spanish. We are also friends with this girl named B. One time G started talking about everyone about the group, only to me. I told them but Z confronted G and drama happened. One day B came up 2 Mr and said that G called her a slvt. We forgave G. Z and A#4 didn’t so they left us 4. G one time found out that B was talking about us. G told us to ignore her. M and G got in trouble and not me, I told them to call me in but they never did, I could have defended them. Them 3 got 1 strike and got their parents called. In February we moved out of my aunt’s house! We had an apartment of my, K, and my mother. One time I told my mother about the drama and my mother changed the whole story about the school and other things, that was the day I started to bottle up my emotions. I was still forced to eat. One day my mother talked to my grandmother about how my sister used to be overweight and now she is normal. Then she said how I was underweight and how now I was a little overweight. I felt insecure about my stomach and sometimes sucked it in to look skinnier. My friends would vent 2 me and I would always support and give tips. I always knew how to help ppl with mental problems, Even if I had a couple problems with them. One time I found out that I was moving schools, I was devastated. 50000 things were rushing over my head, what would I do? Would ppl like me? How do I tell my best friends? What else would I do without them?! How can I leave after *_-6 years.-_* of going there, just for me to leave?! And more. Them drama with B became more horrible. I … for the first time in class. I saw a some scissors. And I thought deeply. I was going through a lot of problems at home too. Going in and out of my step fathers and my mother. I had enough, I did it. I did 2 on my outer wrist, I didn’t go to deep bc I didn’t want to leave a noticeable mark, it was bleeding, I added a lot of hand sanitizer to make it burn even more. I told my friend about me moving schools and M was heart broken. She was crying. I tried so hard to stick with her and G. Making my grades go lower, my mother got mad at me and would sometimes yell at me for it, only bc my teachers didn’t want to grade my work. That’s how those years went, down the drain. This is so long 💀
I have a sucide thought friend she hasn eaten 7 days now i am so worried about here she even would kill herself in this moment she also cuts herself she make suicide videos im so scared if she is the next not alive I needed to get that of my mind thanks
I feel terrible when I see people with great drawing skills... I'm starting to feel like I need to do more, that I can't do it like that, and so on. But I still don’t want to feel bad every time I go to St. Petersburg to look at memes, but that’s how it is. Of course I watched the video about "Depends on the artists", but it only made me feel like shit. For the same reason - not my skills, not my level.
Aw it's okay dear. You will find a other talent you love!! I promise. Not everything depends on you. It depends on your talent. You have a other one I promise. Don't give up looking!! ❤
my school starts tmr and im so stressed and i hate my body and cover up and i dont have any friends i have anxity and i dont know what to do and i try to make friends by beaing nice i try to not get angry and i hid my anixty and i try to hide my anger issues and how i feel and i im not who i am in school bc i want to make friends and i lost my bff she left me and now im so stressed to go to school i just needed to get this off my chest
i feel so much better now after waht i typed and music helps with my anxiety sometimes btw sorry for the bad spelling im swedish and i try to get better with my english love yall<33
Your going through so much ml❤ keep the positive in!! You will get to a point that things will actually work out. I promise❤don't give the hope up and stay strong!! ❤❤
It will be okay❤ just try to help yourself. Here are tips -everytime you wake up think of 10 things you love about yourself, what your looking forward for tomorror and why you have to keep going. - make butterflies on your arm you sh. Image that those butterflies are you loved ones that want you to stop sh. You can't wash them off they have to go off naturally. And you have to keep drawing them if they help. Every time you sh again you kill the butterflies. -draw red lines on the part you actually wanne sh. It will maybe help you. - take all the things you sh with off your room. I hope this helps ml. Good luck❤
Hi, I’m not looking for pity or anything but I just wanted to share my story and experience with mental health:) TW: mentions of su1€1de, SH, family issues and psych wards. If any of these things is a trigger or makes you uncomfortable I’d recommend not to read the following. I am a 13 year old girl who lives in Canada. Since the age of 7 I have been struggling with my mental health, at the age of 9 I was diagnosed with depression, at the age of 10-11 anxiety. I had trouble with my home life, my mother would rarely be home and my father had anger issues and would tend to m@nhandle my brother and I. Both parents were neglectful of me. Up to that point it was fine but all my life my brother has been extremely violent and abusive towards me. In fourth grade I had confessed to one of my teachers that I had thoughts about ending my life. And she told me that I was just doing it for attention. This only became a problem when I was 11-12, I was bullied physically and sometimes emotionally by this one guy. He had told me that he wished I was de@d and that I should just end my life. He used to be one of my friends in fourth grade until he would do inappropriate/s3xual things to me and some other girls. When I was 11, I foolishly decided to forgive him and give him a second chance, but for some reason we fell out, he became violent and told me to off myself. This hurt immensely because he had become one of my closest friends. At some point he strangl3d me, I told the teacher but she said that it wasn’t his fault because he had ADHD. During that year, I tried to off myself twice (none of them landed me in the hospital and I didn’t tell anyone about it) and at the end of the school year I was in a really dark place, I called a hotline at like 2 am and my mother drove me to the hospital, since then we really tried to better our home situation. While at the hospital I stayed there two weeks and got diagnosed with clinical depression and PTSD, a week or two after I got out my parents decided to get divorced, almost exactly a year later I was in the mental hospital again, I had started SH when my parents told us about the divorce. Three or four mo the later I am awaiting a place in line for therapy. Canadian mental health services are quite good, from the age of 14, you can admit yourself into a phych ward if needed, if no parent is willing or able to take you, (in certain places idk if it’s everywhere) but a school staff can take you and get you checked in. While it’s still not the best, it is a lot better than things I’ve heard about other places:)
Oh dear, that's horrible. That's really really horrible. You’ve been through so damn much and still your standing. Your strong. Very strong and you have every right to he proud of that. Do you even realize how good you are doing? Your so incredible! Ofc it's not okay to turn to sh but I understand you totally. But dear please stop it. It helps for 5 seconds and then you suddenly need it again. It's a circle that won't stop if you don't try your best. I am very proud of you and you should be too. Success my dear. You will get out of that dark place. I know. I don't know how. But your strong enough to make it so show that ❤
Sometimes you should not be nice to every people you see, if you're too nice some of them might find you weak/too innocent and try to use this as a "chance" so act like yourself the way you like to be and maybe one day you will find a real friend, soo just be yourself and don't chance for people!
(Pin pls? 📌🙃) For all those who need it: (\_/) ( ^-^) /✓❤🥠 It'll be ok. Take a break all by youtself and ignore.❤❤ (I know that you'll say that you cant ignore, but please try, ok? 😸😽)
I don’t know if I am happy I mean I have a good life and family and friends I just don’t really feel happy… i don’t really feel anything ….. thank you for reading :)
You don't need to know how you feel. If you wanna change something you can change something. It will be okay on the end. Try to do nice activities. Something that makes you happy. You’ll figure it out. And no matter what,i an Proud of you❤
