It’s hard to tell people how I feel. I’m not very good at communicating, being silenced about my feeling when I was younger made it even more difficult to express my frustration, or my sadness. It’s difficult to explain how you know somebody is purposely outing you, because you can’t explain it in 6 words or less. It’s the little things I notice, that nobody does. When I try to explain to them, all I get are confused looks and uncaring stares. What do I get out of being somebody who doesn’t have a faucet to spill out? A pulp being mashed by others, and no juice to leak out from. I wish I can talk it out with someone without having to explain anything. Even if I did get condolences, they’d all just be the same thing, nothing eye opening or heart to heart. I don’t get it. I don’t get adults, I don’t get students. I hate everything. I’m so pent up I can’t fathom trying to even say anything. They wouldn’t get it.
Everytime i look into the sky I notice how so many things are working harder then me making life go as I sit idle by Im tired of preforming for everyone all the time aI wish I could blow my noggin in but I never will because those who consider me more then a joke will miss me I barely have family and wish I could let out everything I could but nothing will empty how hollow inside I feel i never wish this feeling on another person cus when your down in the dirt life keeps kicking i pray for those going through things they wish not to talk abt
i hate the fact im constantly helping others when i cant help my own self first. i hate how im telling them to eat after i starved myself for days, how im telling them to sleep when i didnt sleep for nights, how im asking them about every little scratch and if theyre okay and doing alright when theres blood and scars all over my body. i hate how i always look out for everyone, even those who hate me.
I feel hopeless rn. I’m tired. So tired. I feel so selfish. My friends are getting together with people they don’t know irl which is very dangerous, but they keep saying it’s okay because they know them. That doesn’t make it right. But then again, who am I to tell them otherwise? I’m a worthless pest on this planet. What do I know? They’re probably right. I’m not in charge of their life.
It been a struggle and I'm just skimming by enough to just go day by day moment by moment and I'm just so tired and just don't enjoy anything or want anything I'm just feeling like I'm under pressure so the time and i feel like I'm drowning
@@Lois-333 no, you're not (late). I've been having trouble with my mental health, and considered ending it multiple times, even attempted. For now, I haven't made a plan, but the feeling of desperation to disappear is constant. Thank you for the kind words, even if you're a complete stranger who doesn't know me. The fact you decided to stop, even if for only a few seconds, to write comforting words is nice, even if they don't hit deep. I hope you don't have to deal with any stuff similar to this, it's really painful, it's torment. Sometimes you're at your room alone and a simple thought brings back all the bad memories and pain, and the anguish to disappear, the hopelessness, it all comes too. It's miserable, you want to shout, cry and break, but you can't, you won't let yourself do it. Anyways, if you're reading this, thank you again. Hope you have a nice day, and someday find someone who'll listen to you the same way you listen to others. Sorry for bad English, it's not my native language.
Came here not in the worst moment, but in a complicated one... I am lucky. I had suicidal thoughts too, but I am lucky, because I have access to psychological help, and it is getting better. I am 17. I already lost a lot, and probably lose even more. I feel shitty. I feel bad daily, and my traumas are not going away in the nearest future. Still, I am trying. I feel pain every day, but keep trying. One day I am gonna be okay. And then I will help people to get to this point too. I have no idea how to cope with everything that is coming. Future seems dark, but... I am gonna do this. Hugs to everyone. I wanted to do that a couple of months ago to... And I am here. People do care. Just not everyone
My grandma was buried to day, Oh lord please cure my sadness for you whom took her from me. Its your will i know but, Give my mental health clarity for the chaos around me is ............
I know..... i'm selfish by putting a fake smile in front of people everyday that they did not know what i'm going through everynight. But still trying to do better for the sake of others
I failed my family, I feel like I don't matter. The words they keep telling me affects me but I act like I don't care. I really wish that i could feel genuine happiness whenever someone compliments me but I can't. I'm honestly so tired I can't keep acting anymore, I feel burnt out. I feel so pressured and stressed out, people always having high expectations. I blame myself for it cuz i'm not really that smart or good lol. But no matter what i'll never commit (i hope lololo)
"Your afraid to die, and yet you still wanna disappear, you wanna end your suffering, your not okay and yet you still hold on, your still holding on, you can get through it, dont try to die, dont be suicidal, you still have comfort..by these strangers..❤" -someone whos half depressed
I can't anymore, Lord takes over my duties, this mind of mine cant handles these duties. Lord gives me Strength to make me get up from bed each passing day of your will. Don't leave me alone lord for I can't do anything without you Heavenly Father.
@Louise3901 I just hit my personal rock bottom rn. Today was the burial of my Grandma that I deeply cared. And all the stress and responsibilities are on me, I have to make a video tomorow, I have 8 examinations on Sept 19 and 20, I haven't studied, my Adhd destroys it, I'm just tired from everything. Every time I hit momments like this, The Lords Door seems to be shut. But I still need to push on and strive for what I can do. Sorry if that vent was unnecessary I just have mo people to talk about my mental health. God bless <3.
I don't know if anyone else who needs to hear this, but, *Its okay to give up.* I wish someone could tell me that Its okay to give up. I'm tired of fighting every single day of my life. So to anyone out there. *Its okay to give up.*
Giving up is always easier than pushing on, Giving up only results with no progress or the stopping of it. Dont give up on life The Father thats in heaven gave you a purpose.
It’s not okay to give up You’d be leaving behind everyone who cares about you My girlfriend tried to kill herself… the scariest few days of my life. She almost had a fatal overdose. And despite that, she’s still going. But you should not go and tell people it’s okay to give up, when frankly that just makes it easier to want to give up! It’s not okay to try and kill yourself, okay? It’s not okay. Talk to a therapist, get help. Don’t just die. Please…
@@zerii7476 At this point, I don’t know what I could do to change your mind. You might not be listening. But just know that there are those you’ll meet that will make life worthwhile if you don’t go through with this. Even if you think you’re completely alone, hell even if you are completely alone right now it doesn’t change the fact you have the chance to stop being alone as long as you’re on this earth. Whether it’s in the form of a friend, or a lover… You’ll find at least one person that will stay with you through all the pain. Even if you don’t believe it right now. I firmly believe that everyone has to find their own purposes in life, carve their own path. It may not have meaning right now, but that’s because you just haven’t found it yet. It’s not over…
Why am I not allowed too be sad? Why can I feel feelings? Why must I only feel "happy happy happy" 24/7? Whats the point in emotions, if emotions are taboo?
@@CyborgLuv you’re right. People who are “happy” are simply liars. You can feel happy, but it’s just another illusion. The pursuit of contentedness is a wild goose chase, so instead of trying to be happy, just try to live.
Anyone thinking they wanna just get rid of social media forever and live in a small village or in nature and enjoy yourself to the fullest watching the stars from above and enjoying life
Dear person reading this, The world is better with you in it, and don't let anyone else even if it's yourself, tell that it is. I'm proud of you of trying so hard even when life beats you up, you still try again the next day. I hope you can find peace, never give up 🫂
honestly guys... why the fuck are we here, are we all just really fucking depressed and need stuff to listen to, or we just listeneing cause its good music? either way I hope yall are doing good, if not, then talk to a family member or someone you trust about it. and if you just want good music, then listen to KoRn's "KoRn" album, or their "Life is peachy" album, both are very good.
Absoluetly no idea but i dont think we really need a reason. I like the idea we are just simply exist and we decide if want meaning or not. There so much we can do, act, smell, touch, expeience its Absolutley astounding and that s=doesnt even give it justice saying that.
I hope you are doing okay and everything is getting better. I know it hurts now, but you have valid emotions and feelings you need to let them out or risk tearing yourself apart from the inside out. You deserve the care and affection you want. You deserve to be heard when you speak, and I bet you have the loveliest, and the most beautiful things to say. Not only that but you have some of the wisest words of wisdom. I was suffering from dysmorphia and ed. Bullying in my school and domestic abuse in my house made it worse. My dad cheated on my mom and blamed her for being "not enough." I dropped school and fell into a strong depression and dissociation. I isolated myself for almost 3 years, it hurt me badly. I didn't know what to do or how to approach it. But I stayed silent about it for so many years, when I finally broke I had to be hospitalized. So talk to someone, please. You're important. You're not the only one who feels lost. You're not alone. You don't have to be like anyone. You deserve someone who will love you, and will miss you for who you are.
Since everyone else is, why not. Also, I use my fair share of nono words. I don't feel terrible about myself or what I do. It's just the fucking people who I'm forced to fucking live with. For instance, my sister is always saying how much she hates me and doesn't want me in her life. Even as someone who doesn't take insults deep most of the time, I can't help but let this one get to me because she is supposed to look up to me. I'm her big brother, and I'm supposed to be the best goddamn thing since sliced bread to her. But no. Even when I feel like we might be healing, she says something that gets to me. Again, I usually brush off insults, but the right thing from the right person cuts deeper than a knife. I feel like she views me as subhuman or something, just because I like niche things. I frankly don't even have a good guess to why she does. And my brother, he's just aggressive. He would much rather get into a yelloff than be civil. I try to help him and play calmer, but he always tells me to shut up. I'm honestly tempted to tell him to go fuck himself because he just has no shits to give about what I have to say. And frankly, my mother is the only I feel like I can actually have a conversation with. My father notices when things go wrong, but not when they are right. I just can't help but feel guilt around him too. Not all the time, but just when there was something that he gets ticked off about that I didn't notice. I've tried to say good job, I've tried to be nice, and I get the same result. Idk what to do. I feel like as the oldest son, I need to be the one to fix this mess. But fixing is near damn impossible when you don't have someone helping you. I just need to be away from them, and they need to be away from each other. I feel like I'm the only one who cares about the other members of the family. Thanks for reading.
bro I can not thank you enough for this playlist, this has all the meme songs that I know, like young, me and the birds (I love the sisyphus meme) and snowfall, please make more vent playlists with sad meme songs, I am here for it, I will just yoink and save this playlist when I need sad songs for my memes, thank you!thank you!thank you!thank you!
Dawg the first time i heard this and then it played me and the birds i chuckled. Memes will impact different songs and prob differentiate their meinings
I don’t think anyone will see this but this is gonna be a long vent and if anyone does read all of this thanks you so much for listening. So it’s been almost 4 years now of wanting to kms. I’ve been depressed, miserable and suicidal but the only reason why I’m here now is bc I’m deathly afraid of pain and I’m a coward. My dad is extremely strict and puts so much pressure and stress on me. My mom who is the peacemaker died when I was a preteen. I feel like my dad is verbally abusive and it’s made me become soft spoken and quiet. He can’t hear very well so he thinks I’m being quiet on purpose and I get into even more trouble. His words really hurt me but he acts like nothing happened. He also expects a 4.0 GPA from me nothing lower and he makes me take many hard classes. Rn I’m taking 5 ap classes and it’s gonna stress me tf out. I don’t even know if I want this or what I want to do in the future but I don’t really have a say in this. On top of school my dad says my chores are my top priority which gives me very limited time to do my hw. All of this stresses me out and makes me want to cry sm. I get yelled at if I don’t do a chore perfectly enough and my dad always assumes bad things about me. I’ve been called by my dad and siblings manipulative, petty, brat, dramatic, and most of all immature. My friends don’t even bother hanging out with me bc it’s so difficult to plan hangouts when my dad wants to know every detail 2 weeks before we hang out. The only happiness I’ve been able to find is here on RU-vid. Ytubers like kubzscouts, coryxkenshin, markiplier, jacksepticeye, and gloom have kept me happy and sane. But even enjoying yt came to an end bc my dad became more strict on my phone so now I can’t even watch yt for that long. And since yt was my only happiness I feel even more depressed and suicidal. I may sound obsessed but my phone is my only happiness and without it my life feels more like hell. I’m always being controlled by my dad even tho I’m almost an adult. I can’t even have my drivers license yet bc of him. And I feel like it’s still going to continue like this when I become an adult. I have no chance of leaving everything behind and move out when I’m an adult bc my dad pays my hospital bills bc of my blood disorder and he’s going to pay for my college which he chooses. I feel like i should have never gotten adopted and just died in the orphanage due to my blood disorder. I don’t want to exist anymore I’m barely clinging on rn…
No dont end it. God has a plan for you. A fruitful path to somewhere. A place he will guide you. But when you destroy the temple (your body) You destroy the lords plan for you. ik i may texted this with Grammar errors and words smh but God bless you <3.
