I can directly attribute my anxiety, depression, codependency tendencies, fear of abandonment to the way my dad treated me my whole life and still continues to treat me. I will always hold some form of resentment towards him. I’ve completely given up on the hope that he can change. He will never change, but I know I can be better than him.
Can't believe that this was 6 years ago. I was watching this and this heavily inspired myself to make films. I made quite a few and editing videos was a wild ride. I just graduated college and sadly didn't pursue a filmmaking degree. Chose practicality over passion. To everyone, life isn't fair. We may grow-up and face reality but you might end up "Finding You" along the way. Maybe in the near future I could make videos again :). Thank you for inspiring me @TheGRIMFILM <3
My mom hits me with her heels and shit and she keeps insulting me telling me that I am the one that is tearing our family apart and all. I guess being Indian means I have to go through this sheet. She is always physically abusing me which is normal in India and scolds me for not doing well in school instead of helping me do what I really wanna do which is animation and 3d modelling. I feel like ending it all, but I don't have the guts to do it. Everything was fine before I entered 8th grade. We got along very well and made jokes with each other l and I told her everything, but now I don't even tell her if I really need help because I can't trust her to keep it to herself. Nights are the only time I feel good because I am by myself with a book and my dog beside me. My father is so much better, sure he gets angry but he understands and we still get along perfectly fine.
I don't say I hate my father but I always get judged or harsh by him. I keep getting on my thoughts like he is judging me or forcing me to do things but I was wrong the whole time not knowing the truth was my dad is trying to help me at all times. People out there may or may not have a father but hating a father by judging or harsh is not about all these. Fathers out there are trying to help you out and care about you and your own future. The only thing you hate about your own father is what they did are the bad things like abusive, drinking habit or does not even care about you well they only care about themselves. So if yall have a father and your father keep saying all these things is not they are pushing you, they are here to help you. It's easy to hate your own father but they have step in to help
I desperately hope that one of malay metalcore group can come out with this kind of song for next Hari Raya,even though will against Malay culture and mainstream.
