2:49 "it looks good and feels great but looks at what its doing to you, but its ok look it feels. please please look at what its doing to you but you love how it feels" this part reminds me of me and my best friend, shes addicted to drugs and im a severe anorexic. we where on the phone sobbing to eachother because i was going to die from how little i ate and how thin i was, but i didnt care because i loved the results and how the hunger pain felt, i was addicted to the pain. I was crying because she got alcohol poisoning and shot up H, but she wouldnt stop because she hated her life while sober. we made a pact that if she stopped doing drugs id eat again and would have to send her pictures of the scale every thursday. if i weighed less than 95 pounds she could cheat and if she shot up i could cheat, too. our friendship ended when she told me about how she did H and thought about how i was gonna starve myself, but that she didnt care if i died. the last words i told her was that i loved her.
Damn, thats some heavy shit, but also eat, you kinda need it to live, life is beautiful, even through tears and insanity, and never forget, you are worth it, love yourself, you are beautiful whether you know it or not, and even though I don't know you, i love you, we all carry this burden of the war within, we have to acknowledge it before we can conquer ourself, our only enemy and also our only ally, yeah life is fucked up like that but at the same time wonderful. Hang in there 🙂
