•24 y/o •mom, restaurant server, art student •family, friends, and art is my life •big on mental health, authenticity, and appreciating the little things
I sell art on redbubble and post my art on Instagram, links below 👇🏻
Hello! Random stranger here who watched your basic friendship bracelet knot tying video so I could help my daughter! Thanks for that! We are doing great now :) I checked your other videos to see if you had any other good vids, and you do, but I also saw this most recent one, so I watched it. My wife struggles with anxiety and depression and has most of her life. I've heard her say some of the exact things you say in your video and I just want to reassure you of something. I have no incentive to lie to you here, either, so please trust I am being sincere: You are the best mom, EVER, for your son. I promise you that. Every minute of yourself that you give him is the most valuable thing in the world to him and it doesn't matter if it's 2 minutes, or 20, or 2 hours, or 5 hours each day. Do the things you can, how you can, and that is enough. We can only do so much with the energy and mental bandwidth we have each day, and we don't all get the same to start with. You do you. You have to take care of yourself in order to take care of him and sometimes that means heading home sooner than you'd like, or not getting out some days at all. If he is with you, that is what counts. The important part is to remember that taking care of yourself is the right choice, each day, if it's what lets you "keep calm and carry on". This life IS hard, you said it, even when things are going pretty good it is still hard work all the time! It will always be hard, but it will get easier to manage the more you keep on doing the right things. Good job with your sobriety, keep it up! It is also hard, but so so so worth it. The "feeling better" with alcohol/drugs isn't real, it just numbs us so we don't actually feel at all, and the only way to maintain that (false) feeling is to use more, and you know that leads to ruin. You are very strong, and getting stronger every day. Keep up the great work!
@@Kathallinan I'm glad I clicked on your knot video then, and was curious enough to keep looking! Life/the universe is funny that way, eh? I needed to learn a proper backwards knot (I had the "backwards 4" part correct, but using wrong string lol) and you needed to hear that, so in a very odd but cosmically positive way we were able to help each other out a little, today! I hope you're doing well! You talking about your son and spending time with him while struggling with mental health things, at times, really touched me because my wife has said some of the exact same things, and she can be too hard on herself. Not saying you were/are, but it's way way way easier to be hard on ourselves than kind to ourselves. We seem to give all our patience and grace to other people, even when we need it desperately ourselves. So I just wanted to share that, above, in case you hadn't heard it lately! I'm sure you have support from your parents and sibs, but sometimes hearing something like that from an acquaintance or stranger makes it seem more real...like "This person isn't obligated or even connected to me, so why would they lie just to say something nice...they must actually mean it". Maybe I am just sentimental today, because my daughter is turning 8 tomorrow and I try to spend all the time I can with her, and it seems like the older she gets the faster and faster it happens. Seeing your little guy in the creek, at his age, was a nice reminder of all the simple little things we did when she was small, when everything was new and even simple things were wonderful adventures to her :) Cheers! Be well!
I took one look at your video and not only was the knot mystery cleared up for me because of your wonderful instruction, I subscribed, too! Thank you!!;❤️🤩
Aaa you're becoming my favorite youtuber, I love your content!! And it makes me so happy to see mothers taking care of themselves as well as their child. I work in childcare and meet a lot of stressed parents and I always try my best to remind them that making time for yourself and calm down is super important too. Easier said than done but here you're showing great tips on how to do that!!
Self care days are so needed!! A walk in nature is also one of my ways to show myself some love. So fun to see how you're spending these days! A question, I realized a while back you deleted your meditation video and other videos, do you ever plan on making something similar? :)
Yes ☺️ I deleted that because it I wasn’t proud of the quality of it! I will probably make more meditation videos it’s a huge part of my life. Would you be interested in guided meditations or just me talking about meditation 🤔
@@Kathallinan Oh okay, yes I get that. I myself am still getting into meditation so guided meditations are really useful! But videos about meditation are also interesting to watch so both😊
Yaas! Trying to teach my daughter how to make the bracelets and have some time together... this will definitely make this easier and not be too costly. Thank you !!!
love this song. It's with "Calling All Angels",NF's "The Search","Carry On" and "Today" by Ian Moore. Last but not least are "Another Day" and "Surrounded" by Dream Theater when I need a breathe for my soul when life is drowning me.
I’ve tried doing perspective drawings like that before and I cannot stress enough how difficult they are! But you did amazing???? Consider me impressed!!
I had a similar experience with nature lately. Sometimes it feels like mother nature is truly empathizing with you and providing its beauty to comfort you. Thanks for sharing your internal dialogue with those of us who aren't as brave to do so. You are genuine, kind and so insightful. 🥹
I do am very divided when it comes to algorithms. On the one hand they feed the fear and hate spiral our western society is in… but in the other without the yt algorithm I would have never found your video! Finding oneself, loving art and the emotions it triggers, figuring out how to be human in a "Leistungsgesellschaft" all that hit very close to home for me. I am going through somewhat of the same, even though you and I are probably very different kind of people I imagine. I used "Leistungsgesellschaft" because I feel like the English translation of "meritocracy" does not really fit in my opinion. A meritocracy should reward people based on what they have done for themselves and others. Our modern world does not. In German the word "Leistungsgesellschaft" is often with a in a negative connotation. Because it embodies the feeling of having to prove to other people that you have the right to be, well human. Or at least what Iike to call being human. I really do feel the part when you were talking about how you thought about if you film this and upload it or not and what the social pressure will do to your motivation. I have been thinking about the same with my creative work too. Even though some people might not call all of it creativity, but to me being creative is just about expressing emotions. When you talked about the lines and shapes - exactly that. I love your approach to life and the thoughts that you have. Please never become part of the Leistungsgesellschaft and always do art for yourself! We loose so much when we try to fit in. But I do feel the point about worrying how to finance oneself too. And I do not have an answer for me personally, yet. It is crushing to know that you might have to sacrifice parts of being yourself in order to try being yourself. I just want to be. Your video was exactly about that, at least to me viewing it on the other end of the world :) And for that I want to thank you! Knowing I am not alone with this and all these thoughts, is kinda comforting ^^ Keep doing this, you are amazing!
@@Kathallinan I hope so too, people actually being human instead of role-playing as actors in our Leistungsgesellschaft is what we need! I hope the algorithm will help us grow a community-network. Because if we reject any wish for fame, power or money and just try to be the truly happy version of ourselves, I think we can become kinda like a movement? Or something I don't know. But that's what I would call a lot of people deciding to be fully themselves in front of the camera. No mask, no worries, with all our scars and inner beauty. I'll start a channel of mine too I think. I have been playing around with that thought for a long time and even though I wrote a lot of creative stuff on reddit, I always shied away from siting in front of a camera even though I have been video editing since I was fourteen. Your video inspired me to possibly pursue that too. Not to make money, but just to put myself out there, truly how I am and talk about stuff I like, like art, beauty, sci-fi, science, language, journalism and basically anything that exists. I don't want to persuade anyone with my ideas and my feelings. I just want to talk about them and maybe people will do the same at some point. Humanity needs radical empathy. Although I don't know how I will finance myself. I will possibly work part time in my engineering job, I guess. But I know doing art like this will make me happy. And since I have already found out very recently that lying to oneself does not make one happy, I am kinda in "a fuck it let’s go for it" mood :D
your love for art and nature and authenticity is so inspiring and reminded me of my own love for those things (i've been in a funk ). i'm so glad you brought your camera to woods, i feel 10 times lighter and more myself after watching this 💜