my mother and father went through a divorce, and I don't feel sad that my mother and father arent together anymore. It affects my siblings but I'm the eldest, so it has minimal effect on me. However, I witness my dad being a father to me and all my siblings for the past 22 years, and he was an outstanding father. This song makes me visualize him in the small apartment he owns now, staring out the window in agony of his mistakes as a husband; being punished as a father. This truly feels like the curse of the eldest, bearing witness to the family's story from the beginning.
This song reminds me of VHS tapes of when I was little, on Christmas morning with my family happy and united. I miss the dad you once were papa. I wish you’d just chose me over the drugs and alcohol❤ goodnight daddy, I love you.
i am devoid of attention and in my mind is a lingering of a person that made me define my self worth. over the years i haven’t been feeling confident. neither looks or personality. i don’t think i miss her, i think i miss what could’ve been and how she made me feel. i miss feeling happy and content. i miss being confident. i haven’t experienced anything like that before and it was comforting to me telling me i was of worth. i fantasized and idealized this dynamic between us not staying true to myself and trying to feed into ideas of what or who i should be for myself and for her. this didn’t play out like i wanted to and she stepped out of my life. she didn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore and never communicated why. i never dared to reach out cause i didn’t feel worthy enough to ask for an explanation cause maybe it was all in my head. months went by and i had been crying every single night wondering what part of me made her turn away. i get that i wasn’t the perfect person but i did my best to meet your standards. i think you liked the idea of me and when you got to know me it wasn’t what you expected. i’m sorry for this
nough to make me feel some sense of self worth. i don’t think i miss her, i think i miss what could’ve been and how she made me feel. i miss feeling happy and content. i miss being confident. i haven’t experienced anything like that before and it was comforting to me telling me i was of worth. i fantasized and idealized this dynamic between us not staying true to myself and trying to feed into ideas of what or who i should be for myself and for her. this didn’t play out like i wanted to and she stepped out of my life. she didn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore and never communicated why. i never dared to reach out cause i didn’t feel worthy enough to ask for an explanation cause maybe it was all in my head. months went by and i had been crying every single night wondering what part of me made her turn away. i get that i wasn’t the perfect person but i did my best to meet your standards. i think you liked the idea of me and when you got to know me it wasn’t what you expected. i’m sorry for this
Sep/17/24 Im 15 my dad killed himself not too long ago in August.I’ve felt like a part of me has been missing ever since.I wish I could turn time back and that I could’ve realized how he was feeling but now all I can do is realize how much im just like him. This song has been one of the only things helping me stay relaxed throughout all of this. I love you dad I hope you’re at peace now wherever you are I can never be mad at you for this.
I had to put down my dog 2 weeks after school ended. It have been a couple months but I still miss her so so so much. I had her since I was 1 years old and she was a couples month old. Rip💔
last year on Christmas was just torture,it was lonely without my dad, just opening gifts. I didn’t even feel like there was anything filled with warmth inside them, my dad would fill the boxes with warmth, even if there wasn’t anything in them, I wouldn’t even care if I didn’t get any gifts, I would just want to hug him, and do stuff with him, I didn’t want him to leave, I should have said good night every night, thank u dad for all the gifts, I bet u were the one stealing Santa’s cookies, the one who wrapped the tree with toilet paper, and put the elf in funny places, I remember laughing so hard, I remember when u taught me how to fish how to drive a go cart, how to mow lawn when not even must adults knew how too, I miss you.
this is the only iteration of this song that sounds this good tbh. I listened to all other slowed instrumental and for some reason, they sound quieter. Like this actually reaches my soul as it plays. I wish it was shorter so I can put it in my playlist of good slowed songs but I just don’t want to settle for anything less
Lyrics here: I saw her in the rightest way Looking like anne Hathaway Laughing while she hit her pen and coughed and coughed Then she came up to my knees, Begging baby would u please do the things u said u'd do to me to me Oh won't u kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor And when u get a taste can u tell me what's my flavor I don't believe in God but I believe that ur my savior My mom says that she's worried but I'm covered in this favor And when were getting dirty I forget all that is wrong I sleep so I can see u Cause I hate to wait so long I sleep so I can see u And I hate to late so long She took my fingers to her mouth The kinda thing that makes u proud That nothing else has ever worked out worked out And lately i tried other things But nothing can capture this sting Of the venom she's gonna spit out right now Oh won't u kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor And when u get a taste can u tell me what's my flavor I don't believe in God but I believe that ur my savior I know that u've been worried but u're dripping in my flavor And when were getting dirty I forget all that is wrong I sleep so I can see u Cause I hate to wait so long I sleep so I can see u And I hate to late so long We can run away To the walls inside ur house I can be the cat Baby, u can be the mouse And we can laugh off things That we know nothing abt We can go forever Until u wanna sit it out (MY HANDS HURT😭-)
There was a point in time where i stopped being his little boy and became his son instead. He was my dad. But now hes just a father. We used to know each other like the sun knew the sky, but now its like we've never talked at all. I wish i could tell you i love you, but you love the me that i no longer am. But to that father in you that still cares, goodnight, dad, i love you.
This song reminds me of someone I loved since the first moment I saw his smile and his childlike happiness when we were dancing. I hope he is well and alive and not taking any dr*gs no more. Love you, K. ❤
