Loved this one, well done you. For someone who lives in permanent fight, flight or freeze mode, I can relate. We are either Hunters or Gatherers and I have Hunters DNA, hence the fight or flight response. Having Adhd means I am a hunter living in society that has only been designed for Gatherers and why someone like me struggles to fit in and follow society's expectations and always singled out or in trouble. It is also why I have spent most of my life losing pieces of me, just so i can adapt and feel accepted, rather than accept myself for you i am and ask others to meet me half way. I may be different but not less! My brain isnt wired like everyone elses. I manage my emotional dysregulation with Meditation, listening to music and Hiking. I have also had to learn how to reconnect to my body as it will usually tell me what my mood is, before i realise. Learning that has helped me to manage my triggers. You are right about everything you have said. However, my interpretation of your reaction involving your brother is that he was vulnerable, and you were protecting him as you know what it feels like to be vulnerable and not have anyone stand up for you. Its common to have that reaction when you have lived your life on egg shells, you fight for the underdog, as at some point in your life, you were the underdog because of other peoples judgements. Of course, that is my interpretation and it might just be me projecting, so I could be completely wrong, no offence intended. Keep up the good work. Look forward to your next one. Stay real 👍😊
Your comments have been like therapy to me lately bro ✊ I appreciate you for that. We’re super similar in both experiences and comforts it sounds like. Crazy how life has brought us both here to this point 😂 In my personal experience it’s been hard to understand myself. I’ve had to recalibrate my own desires so much to fit the expectations of others that when I’m intrigued by a new opportunity or new direction it feels right to shoot it down and disqualify myself before I ever give myself a chance. Like you mentioned, the one clear advantage to this lifestyle has been how much closer it’s brought me to nature as well as my own spirituality. Mystic and esoteric research and interests too. I appreciate you for participating with me on this journey toward self realization! I’m glad I could be of equal service to you too by sharing my side of the coin. I’ll probably look into therapy at some point in the near future. My ultimate goal is to have genuine confidence, faith and belief in my own abilities as well as those of the man up above ⚖️ Again, I appreciate you!
Not that I want to put a label on it but you sound very similar to me and I was diagnosed with Adhd/Add. Difficulties with keeping a job but creative and lost. I struggled with procrastination, frustration, anger. I easily become triggered as i too was a perfectionist and had huge anxiety with failure. They were all signs and I just thought it was me, until my diagnosis. There were many other symptoms as well but too many to list! 😊 This may not be you and don't take offence that I've said, I am not trying to offend you, but what you have said resonates with me. It may be worth looking into, just in case there are other reasons why you struggle. I found an adhd coach and she was a great help. Maybe you need to up your you tube page. You are great to listen to and reaction videos are taking off. Ren has a lot of followers and seek out reactions to his song. You are creative and lets face it, you recognise talent as you were on the band wagon long before anyone else! Keep going mate and don't lose your dreams. ❤
I love your username 😂💪 Your message and assessment absolutely resonate with me as well! Every bit of it! I’m familiar with the ‘underlying’ issues you’re referring to as well! A few of them at least. My next upload will touch on this topic, it’s just taking me a bit of time to it! I’ve been procrastinating, actually 😂 I appreciate all of your kind words, I love giving our viewers and supporters the best experience possible. As far as ‘upping’ the RU-vid page, would you be interested in different kinds of content or where you mainly referring to reactions? Thank you! 🙏🏾
@@charliefrmdamoon Thank you, my username is how I feel daily! 😆 In regards to what you should upload, I think you should go with whatever your passion is in the moment. People will watch, as you keep it real. The reason that I bring up reaction podcasts and to Ren in particular, is because he is multitalented and has a huge following, His 'Renegade' fans follow everything of his, as he is the pied piper of music. Watching someone react to his music is addictive, especially watching 'Hi Ren' That reaction should only ever be recorded, trust me! Chinchilla, Sam, the big push are all great artists in their own right and people hunt down their recordings. The fans are loyal and openly subscribe to anyone supporting them. That will draw people to your content. The reactors are an amazing community and always shout out to each other. We must not forget, that you found Sam and then Ren before anyone else and reacted to their song. You clearly have a talent finding new artists and people will support any content you upload. You are great on camera and your subscribers like what you have to say, so keep saying it. Like I said, if you want to increase your following, a few Ren reactions to any of his collaborations or independent music will do that. You have to start with 'Hi Ren' as people love watching that reaction and being introduced to him and everything that he does. I would watch any content you put up regardless if it was a reaction or just you chatting about your highs and/or lows. I look forward to your next one and am sure you will get round to it soon. 💜
