I get her very well , when my mom passed I also felt like this. I even went for therapy and told my therapist that “I’m confused because I don’t think I’m supposed to be feeling like this and seems as if I’m still waiting for this huge blow of pain and I’m scared how it’s gonna feel when it comes” I came to conclusion that it was God
"if you can't change your environment, you can improve it" - this episode is just what I needed 🙌 Also realised that some of these places exist in my life, but I have not spent enough time in them