Well, everything has been bothering me, I don’t think I’m good enough and I stress when I study, my mum just says it’s what it takes, she doesn’t know that I cry to my sleep everyday, idk what to do anymore, I feel alone and emotional everyday, bored 24/7 and unmotivated, I have so much stuff the world doesn’t understand, I don’t want to go to new schools and make new friends, and I just want more exposure to the outsides, I was raised to be embarrassed when I do smth publicly. I also suffer with OCD, not making it worse, and I spit out blood nearly everyday, and it was because of pressure and stress, I can’t socialise very well, and I put on a happy outer shell to not worry my friends and family, I also can’t share my inner feelings from being socially awkward, and I can’t seem to talk to anyone that I don’t know, and my mum doesn’t know any of that, only thinking Im a smart, nice and happy daughter,I’m prolly gonna delete this later, and this got _deep_ so, thank you for spending your time on me reading this. It makes me feel a lot better
