Hello, internet land! My name is Morgan Solo, or you may know me by my old superhero alias, Cystik1. I spent 29 years preparing to die young due to an illness called Cystic Fibrosis, but at the end of 2019 a miracle medication came out that has almost completely reversed the condition. Now, I'm using this second chance to make a difference and try to spread some love, positivity, and the perspective on life I've gained from living half of my life holding hands with death. This channel is about building one another up and sharing our stories.
I just lost my best friend today. And I’m still in a loop of emotions over and over again. But watching this video and seeing that someone has thought the same things I have and is continuing on in life after that loss, really is helping me slowly accept the reality of this loss. Thank you for making this video, my love goes out to you and anyone else experiencing loss in whatever way that may be.
Watching your video reminded me of a time I started an IV on a heavily tattooed man in the ER. I was dizzy from trying to sort through the colors and designs, but was able to put in an #18 Jelco in this forearm for surgery.
20/10/2024. Managed to get my first truffles and i microdosed for a few weeks. Defo not a placebo. I was initially worried about taking too much but soon realised id have to eat a hell of a lot (10-20 grams) to go on a heroic journey. I found 1gram of fresh truffles a day was working perfectly for me. I used to get anxiety purely from over thinking. It would set my day off track. i would have that painful sickening feeling in my stomach (butterflies/anxiety) once that happened i would have to spend hours trying to coach my self back to a relaxed state. I can confirm truffles stopped this in its tracks nearly immediately. Rather than over think i just enjoy the now without much work needing to be applied. It hasnt changed who i am its brought the old me back. Like some comments also say ive started smiling again singing out load, spontanious jokes are back, the sky is always blue kinda of a feeling but whilst staying completely sober. Its a strange feeling being sober and feeling completely relieved at the same time. Psilosybin doesnt change you it reverts you back to the person you are seeking. Helped me curb my drinking (12 strong cans 500ml cider per day EVERYDAY for 3 years). I dont see an need for alcohol because i have my happiness back. If anyone is considering i recommend, youll see!!! Clarity is literally in the ground offered by mother nature. Incredible. All the best guys
Thanks so much for this video, Morgan. I have just lost a close friend of mine, someone whith whom we crossed many chapters of our lives in 25 years. It is my first loss and I was not ready for it. We planned to meet in a few days and he is gone unexpectedly, from a heart attack, so I also feel betrayed, as if he lied to me. At the same time it still feels like he is going to return from this "trip" sooner or later and is going to share his adventures and feelings... It's a strange feeling, when you want the world to stop from spinning, the events stop from happening, cause you can't share anything new with him, you have no way to get his opinion. I also feel I am now the only keeper of all those memories we shared. And this means they are going inevitably to fade and bleak ... And this is probably one of the causes of our depression - a helpless search of a way to preserve all that treasure.
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This is an amazing video! I’m currently on 5mg of Escitalopram and want to come off at some point. Can I micro dose whilst trying to come off the med? Thank you
The biggest issue now is people have been taking antidepressants for years, now they’re stuck, because getting off medication quickly is pure hell and usually not possible. But, if mushrooms aren’t helpful when weaning off medication, then people are forced to get off medication in a torturous way, simply so that they can use mushrooms. Therefore, I am still researching any way of using mushrooms DURING WEANING MEDICATION, to basically help with withdrawals, plus also maybe brain repair benefits (unless having any amount of SSRI in system prohibits that??) Any reply truly grateful.
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My best friend died 2 years from alcoholism at age 32. I'm still struggling with her death. I just came back to our hometown, and I can feel the grieve setting in. I am not the same person anymore, and I never will be. She took a piece of me with her.
I lost my best friend of 15+ years around Christmas this past year (2023) and it’s still hard. I was born with CF, 29, now, and always grew up thinking I would die before my friends, family, etc… but over the years, I slowly started seeing people I cared about pass, Robin Williams, my grandma, Mac Miller and then when my buddy, Ashton, went, I lost it. Cried for days straight and couldn’t keep myself together. I spiraled into the numbness for a while. I’m better now. Not spiraling, not numbing out as often. But I’m still in a state of “why?” And feel hung up on his death. Fingers crossed I can figure out how to adjust with this. Thanks Morgan, I used to follow you and stuff on IG, under holisticbrent and plant romance, been a while since I was on. Hope you’re doing well bro!
I have gallstones and I had an attack for two days and nights. It is an awful pain. Went on a special diet to see if it could help . Trying to keep from surgery because I am 76.
The pain from my gallstones was so intense, I was relieved when they said they were removing it, I’ve never looked back, simple, small amount of discomfort for a lifetime of relief!
My heart goes out to you ❤ I'm in Scotland and I'm on a waiting list to get m8nes taken out....I was in hospital for 9 days on 3 different kinds of antibiotics and I was very very ill my veins all collapsed I was in so much pain ( worse than child birth !! ) I got home after 9 days and they said the waiting list is 12 wks and that was in April 😮 I'm going to phone my surgeon 2moz and push to get this out of me as its the devil 👿 How can our body make us so ill ? Good luck and I hope u have a speedy recovery 🤞🙏🏻 xx 🏴
Withdrawals from Effexor is a living hell on top of mental illness. Just started Prozac but now I wish I would of waited and tried microdosing. I don’t like somnolence or feeling no emotions and have gone through trial and error with multiple psych meds. Depression is a horrible illness. I’m hopeful for the future with the promising effects of microdosing. Treatment resistant depression scares the hell out of me.
My gallbladder was removed in 2008. In 2020 Covid caused several gastro issues and it attacked my liver bc I didn’t have a gallbladder. Now I have BAM….worst thing ever and it is permanent. Only ppl without gallbladder gets it.
One of my middle school friends and crush at the time self deleted a little over a week ago, i dont know how to cope. She was such a sweet and genuine soul. The last thing she posted was "what if i wanna be with god", i know shes up there happy with him but i just miss her so much.
I’m surprised they didn’t take it out right away. I brought my father to the ER and they had him laying there in pain. I went to the nurses station and carried on and insisted his doctor get there right away and he did and he had the surgery if it wasn’t for me advocating for my father he would’ve laid suffering for her. Who knows how long
Don’t you love how a multimillion dollar hospital “runs” out of a common med? Wow no bed alarm, I hate those things. Last time I was in I got up to use the bathroom and in about three steps a. rey annoyed nurse came in and tactfully expressed her displeasure.
Something about this video feels fake. Like everything worked out too perfectly. He microdosed for just a month on .3 g, and the effects lasted 6-8 months? Not buying it.
I’ve been on ssri’s for 15 yrs, and it’s never made me feel numb or a “walking zombie” like some ppl claim. I wonder if these ppl have actually used ssri’s, or if they’re just repeating talking points they’ve heard?
Hi Morgan, I just stumbled onto this video, and you said a few things that struck home. I am 65 y/o in good health, but depression has followed me around my whole life, I can relate to a lot of what you said (ie waking up and wishing I had died in my sleep). I have tried antidepressants, but just as you say, they don't do much for me and I always quit. Sometimes they have worsened my depression. Now in my town I have found a source of mushrooms, and bought a bottle of low dose capsules, 150mg. I didn't follow any kind of regime at all, because I am so skeptical of anything ever working, and so far they haven't helped. This video has given me hope. Perhaps it is time once again to explore this option. Thanks.
Whew, ok, well 1G is 1000 milligrams, ha..you take 1G and you be slightly tripy..Norman microdose is 100 milligrams..300 and you start to feel somewhat trippy..to be fair people do get a sort of tolerance after a while and hell it may take someone 1G to feel anything...proceed with caution and have fun😊 ill stay between 300mg (.3G) to 500mg (.5G)..
If you want to find magic mushroom the local hippies in your community will know where you can get it. Microdosing psilocybin once a week got rid of anxiety and depression. It does make a huge difference. Started with 100 mg, then went up to 200mg. Also, it doesn’t show on any drug test. Try it, it will change your life!
Psilocybin mushrooms,DMT and LSD has been quite therapeutic for me. I was diagnosed with severe depression and mental health issues, not until a friend recommended golden teachers mushroom for spiritual and mental gratification. I’ve been well ever sincefor about 4 years now.
