I'm an aspiring filmmaker, game enthusiast and overall pop culture nerd. I create trans related videos, mainly ones documenting my experiences and perspective to provide insight that hopefully helps others who are questioning or struggling.
Please feel free to reach out on my social media listed below to ask any questions or if you just need someone to talk to. I am absolutely here for you.
@@RachelLouiseSwann Aww thank you so much ☺️ I'm still around and have been wanting to get back to making videos for awhile. But I've been going through a lot. It's a long story. I plan on doing an update regarding that and getting back into the swing of things shortly after. I have a lot of ideas and look forward to creating videos again to make a positive impact. Again, thank you so much for your comment, it means a lot to me 💚
Hi I'm just running into your video we are about the same time frame of transitioning . I'm at 3 years as of last month October I think you might be the same 3 years I don't know maybe 4? I wanted to ask you if that's not personal. Are you on the injections or are you on the pill? I started my transition on the pills I was on 6 mg of estrogen a day and 200 mg of spironolactin. I have or had more of an issue with muscle too much muscle development because I studied dance through my childhood and even though the pills have helped me a lot I've noticed when my breasts grew beautifully within six or seven months on only 6 mg of estrogen in some cases some trans women don't even grow breasts on the pill but I was very lucky to develop breasts that look like real breast and not little girl titties. And I've noticed also I'm on the pills the hair growth in my body decreased or slow down I don't have to shave as often my legs Etc my chest I don't have to shave at all it's like the hair on my chest completely stopped which I'm happy about I still have some problem areas that I have to use waxing to take care of on my own. I recently started taking the injection and I've been on the injections for almost a year now I started taking them in 2022 January and I'm hoping for even better results on the injections that's why I'm asking about your dosage because or if you're on injections because I think you're process is going very well. I have an issue with not being able to lose weight easily having a big boned frame also being tall at 5 ft 11 keeps me from being in that passable lifestyle that I wish I had and I think you look very passable so that's another reason why I was curious of what your doses your dosage Maybe in order to maybe help myself. My primary caregiver put me on estradiol valerate100 mg 5 ml bottle and I'm not sure if that's the correct dosage . I don't know because this is new to me the injections are a new experience so I'm not sure if the dosage I'm on will help me get the results I'm looking for. My primary caregiver has some experience with trans women but he still learning on his own and he's always asking for a second opinion from other doctors and I'm just feeling that he's holding me back on my true potential because of his fear of not knowing much about the medication himself. He prescribed to me to take the injection every other week but I take it once a week without telling him because I don't feel like every other week is going to give me any results and most girls are on the injections they take them once a week. I don't understand why he would do every other week which I find really ridiculous and I've already discussed with him to if my dosage is correct will I get the results I'm looking for? and he didn't really have much to say on the subject. So pretty much I'm looking for I don't know advice on injection dosages is that a high dosage to give me good results or are you on the pills I am not sure I'm sorry if my question is so long and all over the place but I'm still learning about the injections.
Always my pleasure 😊 Wish my health and schedule was better so uploads can be more consistent but I always enjoy making these videos to continue to help how I can.
I do have several friends in the community but I'm not sure if they'd like me sharing their names and info. I mostly met others through social media such as Twitter, finding groups and topics and connecting with new people that way. I'm not really sure if there are other creators like myself with open DM's to better communicate with viewers, but there's has to be some out there who are open to questions or messages. Just gotta find them. Sorry if that's not a helpful answer, hope your transition has been going well.
This gave me strong Monty Python vibes and I dig it, quite humorous. Comedy has changed a lot over time but I still appreciate and enjoy absurdist humor such as this. Thank you for sharing.
I am a 73 year old Transwoman. Started when I was about 20 years old. I wish you a smooth and wonderful transition. I only really have 1 comment... don't be so obsessed with your hair. Everything will be as it is meant to be. Aggain good luck to you with the new life you have chosen.
Awww thank you. I've certainly grown out of that concern in recent time. My happiness and overall expression reflects that's I suppose, but I really appreciate you taking the time to share some kind and helpful words. Thank you 😊
I really had a feeling you werent doing well ever since you werent around, this feels like a nightmare and I cannot imagine how you cope with the distress you must have been through, we can only hope for better days.
I appreciate the concern but I’m okay. Just taking my time getting well, living life and working on videos and other projects. I’ve been coping with my disorder fairly well, taking it a day at a time. Thank you.
Hey Max, you might not remember me because I haven't been there for a while, but I came back with a gift for you cos I couldn't stop thinking about you lately, do you have any e-mail box i could send to?
Hello, I do remember you, always appreciated your kind words. It's good to hear from you, I hope you've been well. That is very sweet of you 😊 I'm not sure what to say. If you'd like to send me something you are more than welcome to via my DMs on Instagram, @maxinecarney47. I may make a business email in the near future to open up a new avenue for communication and whatnot though I'm not sure when I'll do that. Anyway, thank you for reaching out, always a pleasure and I look forward to seeing your gift. Feel free to reach out whenever you'd like someone to talk to and I'll be there as best I can.
Well how else was I supposed to hide the bite mark?... Real talk though, I actually got it to cover my self harm scars. Many years ago I was in a bad place and had these on and off moods where I'd hurt myself as punishment for my actions. I was very self loathing at the time, but I've since gotten better. As my way of moving forward and having a more positive reminder on my wrist I got a tattoo. I specifically chose Ellie's because of my love for her and games series as a whole. But in a fitting way like her I have it to conceal something from the past I'd rather not discuss. I plan on getting many, many more tattoos down the road as a way of expressing myself, but this first one will always be special for the aforementioned reasoning.
@@MaxCarney47 wow that’s incredible. Thanks for sharing this with me. As I was just joking it’s pretty cool that tattoo was used for an empowerment reason and a way to move forward.
@@4mAALIKcHIN4 Happy to. My past is what it is and I've since more than moved forward to being a much happier person. So I'll continue to share my experiences in the hope that it may help others.
Indeed, and once again I am disappointed to not be a ginger. But this face is still a good one, now if you'll excuse me I'm craving fish fingers and custard.
Thank you, that'd certainly be interesting and I'd definitely do it. My favorite is a tie between 9,10 and 11. They all are very interesting in their own rights though I do have specific reasoning for why I like each. 9 especially as he was not only my gateway to the series but his personality and energy is what hooked me. So for now I'd perhaps say him.
Hi - I’m a trans woman in her early 50s who is 66 days into her transition. As I pack up my belongings and prepare to move into the next chapter of my life, I have been listening to your monthly HRT updates. I listened to months one through six and then started skipping to the next milestone videos. Thank you for rigorously, thoughtfully, and compassionately documenting your experiences for those of us who are following in your footsteps.
Oh my thank you so much much. It's mean a lot to know the videos have had a such positive impact on you. Here's to your journey as you move into that next aforementioned chapter.
Thank you, it's been a journey thus far. Congrats on one month, you've got quite a journey ahead yourself. Here's hoping your second month has been going well.
Hi Max I hear you regarding the choice in career paths, I took the money path and succeeded now I am trying to break into the arts that I neglected. I hope you have success however you choose and all your transitions are smooth.
Thank you, that means a lot. I'll certainly do my best. Kudos to your success and here's hoping your journey into the arts is an insightful and fruitful one.
You look dashing in this black Tshirt , Now I would love to prefer to call you .. Maxi , Ms. Maxi . lol Well, first of all give you a hug and want to tell you, Keep smiling. You must peruse the further education, We must learn something which we want and with the help of that education we can make miracles in our future, When i finished college , I had not any skill with me, I had passed with 49% in college in 2006 and I never got job because of the law percentage, and I was worried about my life that what would I do in future, I wandered 5 years to know what I want to do in my life, and finally when i was tired, my daddy told me that I must do something I like which I have within me, he said you can teach well , after then I started to learn english online, from internet and within 4 years i made a course of english grammar for ESL student, now i teach them at their home, I had resolved that I will never do job for any Indian, I think the most important thing in our life is that that what is the way , what is the work we like to do, if we have that answer then we must start to work on that even if people discourage us, leave the world behind and keep doing your work. A transgender has the same brain that man have. Talent has nothing to do with a gender, A transgender can learn physics and can send a rocket to Pluto, Always love yourself and live the life with the passion that other people are forced to accept your existence and thought. Give you a big hug and do wink. Go ahead with your all passion toward the task you have decided.
I relate so much to this. I'm not out yet but have been taking small social transition steps (shaving, growing hair out, etc.) and have started HRT. I'm hoping I can ease not only myself into the coming out process but others as well so they're not so shocked and I'm not so anxious when it finally happens.
Those initial baby steps are a good place to start. Always start with places and people you feel safe with. Then when you're ready, tell who you have to tell. But always do what you're most comfortable with. Though I can say that depending on where you live you'd be surprised by how many people are very respectful and supportive of the community. if you're comfortable it's perfectly fine to be completely transparent with the people around you, just be upfront and that's that. The majority if not all will likely be respectful and never bring attention to it afterwards. That's actually what I did at my job and sure everyone knows but I'm still treated kindly like everyone else there. Just food for thought, again it's ultimately about what you're most comfortable with.
I'm only about three weeks into HRT and I've had someone notice some weight loss in my face. I don't know if it's due to HRT, I'd be surprised if it was and I did just get over being sick, or the fact that I shaved off the very long beard I had for over 2 years. I have changed my diet to include more healthy foods and walk a little faster than usual at work to get a little more exercise. On the extra plus side my blood pressure has gone down quite a bit.
That's wonderful. Yeah weight loss and fat redistribution is something that happens early, though subtly. But healthier living definitely does help with that aspect of the process, in my experience at least. I find that along with weight loss as a result of heathier living in tandem with the fat redistribution due to the hormones has feminized my body quite noticably but still subtly. But again, that's just my experience.
I'm about three weeks on HRT. For me, I haven't really noticed any mental changes except that I experience euphoria when I take my pills. The biggest mental change was when I finally accepted myself. I still get depressed when I think about coming out though.
That's amazing, you've got a long journey ahead but it'll be a good one. As for the changes those do vary person to person, while someone may experience more immediate changes mentally or physically, these might not occur so quickly for others. What I personally feel matters is just being content with yourself, especially as those changes begin to happen. Also, don't let coming out bring down your spirits. You're being your genuine self and that's something to always be happy about.
You got little weight which looks good and your chest has started to pop up and you getting skinny every month. Give you a friendly hug and take care you. xoxo
Surprisingly I actually got an extension. Pharmacy called the other day to tell me I have refills available. My endocrinologist had the foresight and I am grateful for that.
@@joemaloney1019 So I've seen. I'll be sure to give special thanks to my endocrinologist during my next appointment. Thanks to you as well, I appreciate your concern.
I will have been on HRT for three years in July and totally related to what you are going through. There are so many more of us that are realizing and learning how to be ourselves. Stay strong, your friend in Antigua Guatemala. Lots of love, Nomi 💖
Aw thank you Nomi ❤️ I very much appreciate that. We're all certainly in this together as we find and become ourselves so its good to be there for each other however we can. May you also stay strong with lots of love to you as well.
