My name is Hayden, I am 26 years old. I made this channel to document my transition - to reach out to others, to build community, share, as well as keep track of my transition.
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Hey there friend! Scars are looking good today. I honestly stopped this routine a bit after this video was made as my scars have gone down in size and color. Been quite absent on social media as a part of self care, but I should absolutely do another update video on my scars :) Thanks for tuning in!
If they would just make the damned balls soft and realistic, it would be the best on the market, but it looks like a deformity and feels like a rock between your legs.
I can empathize with that. My old packer from NY Toy Collective is much softer, I eventually got the uncircumcised one and its a bit harder, to the point where I use my old one more. Sometimes wonder if they get soft over time though. But my friend, I hear ya and am with ya.
Hey thanks for watching! When I made this video, there was only one size, super cool they make two now! I just measured it and it looks like its more comparable to the large. Mine measured out to about 5 inches, which it looks like the large is roughly 5.25 inches.
Thanks for watching and I appreciate the importance of expressing concerns around allergic reactions. If someone is allergic to these ingredients, yes, it would be best to not do it and consult with a doctor on other methods. Personally, this has done wonders for me and I have not had complications due to it.
Impressive how you presented this. Those of you that choose to put yourself out there and be in the spotlight have a lot to deal with. All I can say to myself is that through our own transition it takes months , years and in my case decades to come to terms with who I am and what I am - as we choose to come out to others , they too need months , years and maybe decades - they too need the space to transition. I don’t push my family for validation ...my expectations in the world are low because expectations bring with it needless suffering. I live fully in the world with zero issues except with family and even that is very low key. Misgendering is difficult even with accidents and I find I have less tolerance for “ accidents “ especially since they would have never known had they not known the gender before I transitioned. Anyway ... Let people have their reality and they will either come to terms or not - but as much as we would like and desire complete acceptance, it’s just not realistic nor is it even fair. Everyone needs space to be who and what they are - not all humans are meant to coexist - not all in nature are meant to be allies and same in the human world. Thank you for your contribution to RU-vid ! Stay stable brother - you’re doing great!✌️
Found this channel yesterday. So glad you’re putting yourself out there with both logic and emotions . Very grounded and solid content. Congrats ! You look and sound great - wonderful energy ✌️
Sorry for the late response, just seeing this! Wisco friends! I don't entirely feel comfortable talking about chest size, but I was fairly small. My surgeon recommended a double mastectomy with nipple grafts and I am pleased with my chest today. Definitely worth looking into surgeons and getting their professional opinion! Thanks for tuning in!
This video makes me so happy, im personally a very confused person right now. I dont know if im trans or if im just nonbinary, and this helps a lot. Ive wanted a packer so much and its super helpful to have a video that points me in the right direction!!!
I recently found your videos, and I just wanted to let you know that you seem like a great person. It’s really a shame that you and your mother were treated so badly, by a member of your of family nonetheless.
Dude this was such an important video! I'm a trans guy, pre-t, so I still go through that.. thing... And I'm not kidding when I say that it hurts so bad I can't even think. Like the last time it happened I lied the whole day in bed barely able to move. And pain killers barely made it any better. Don't have any conditions (other than gender dysphoria), so I don't know why I go through so much agony. And this happens every single month. I think the dysphoria is making the pain worse somehow. I'm so fucking scared, because it's gonna come back in a month, and it's gonna be six days of pain, break downs and panic attacks. I'm asked my mom for birth control, but she's completely against it, so I literally have no way to deal with this.
Hey there! My apologies for the late response. I'm so glad you could relate to this video. So sorry to hear that you're dealing with that. It totally sucks. Especially being in a situation that you are currently in. Have you ever considered checking out a local Planned Parenthood? If I remember correctly, folks can get prescriptions for birth control without parental consent. Also, studies do show that birth control can help with cramping. In fact, I was on birth control for a brief moment. I wonder what it would look like if you talked to her about that aspect, without outing yourself? Birth control isn't always about sex, it can be used for a multitude of things. Which sometimes parents do not know that. Just a thought. But I know it sucks and my heart goes out to you. Best of luck with everything my friend.
Sorry some family shits on you... and thank you for talking about it to let others know they are not alone! Your a very lucky guy to have a mother like yours! Take care Hayden!
Keloid scars are a huge bummer. I'm honestly not sure other than just taking proper care of the scars after surgery (cleaning, bandages, scar treatment, no sun and heavy on the sunscreen) It would be worth bringing up to your doctor/surgeon and seeing if they have any suggestions. I wish you nothing but the best as you continue to move forward with your goals!
I feel exactly the same way; I'm so tired of being a joke, being discussed by every straight hetro person except trans people, proclaiming the only way to protect themselves from the evil perverted trans people is to humiliate and degrade us, make us invisible so they don't have to think about us anymore. You're totally right, it is overwhelming and exhausting. I've always thought I don't belong here and now I don't want to here at all. The amount of pseudo science bs about trans people is staggering. Everyone seems to be screaming for truth and freedom but only their version of it. Why don't they focus on their own shit and leave us alone. It wasn't too long ago, and too some extent today, that the black and gay communities were fighting for their freedom; here we are again and no one seems to notice the similarities. Infantile humans: Oh yes, I should have all the freedom I desire and the authority over others who frighten me...but those disgusting people over there, oh no no no, not them; see I deserve absolute freedom cus I'm right and good but they don't cus they're not like me, I don't understand them, so I don't like them.
This was so helpful I’m still trying to save money to get an STP I’ve been doing some research just figure out like what’s the best brand to go with and honestly you were very very helpful and full of knowledge so thank you
Hey! Thanks for tuning in! Both harnesses I have in this are used for packing and/or peeing standing up. It's not to say you couldn't use it for "fun time", however for me personally, they are too loose or don't fit right for that - if you purchased a smaller/tight fitting size, it could work. For the most part, with "fun" time, I use Rodeo underwear, they have a variety of styles and I've had good experiences with their products - not too tight, not too loose.
No diss to a fellow FTM, but this is an algorithm fail. For myself not depressed because Im FTM. Not depressed at all. Im annoyed by the unnecessary obstacles put in my way by trans ppl because my FTM journey very unique. From overcoming fibroids to accessing T and looking gender affirming surgeons specifically for FTM.
Hey there, thanks for watching and sharing your input. I am happy you do not suffer from depression. However, I do want to note, everyone's depression looks different, similar to people's transitions - no experience is identical, as you said, it is unique. Also, I want to be very clear in saying I do not suffer from depression because I am transgender. It is my brain, ever since I was a child, and sure, some hard lived experiences, but not because I am trans. My transition gives me life. And yes, the obstacles are a bummer, but I wouldn't change my life for anything. Every moment from starting t, to changing my name/pronouns, to surgery - all those are hard to go through, especially mustering through it with depression, but those are the moments I cherish and celebrate. Because ultimately, it's made me a patient, empathetic, and humble man today. But again, thanks for the input and I am truly happy that you are fortunate enough to not suffer from depression. For a more recent take and thought on depression/suicidality, check out my Suicide Awareness video - its more of an accurate representation of my life experience with depression. Best of luck to you my friend.
@@hmmoonshine90 I'm not suicidal despite ppl wanting myself to be due to their obsessive and incessant thinking that theyre entitled to my life. And when I refuse to allow that, then the mission is to ruin my life. I'm Single Proud Independent Dreadhead Dark Skin Hetero FTM, lives my life as a straight masculine man. I'm spiritual not religious and a targeted individual. Im running for President as an Independent. Not jewpendent.
@@supaswagg251 Hey man, thanks for sharing again! So great you are proud of the person you are, you should be. I apologize if I have stirred anything up within these comments, it was not my intention. I appreciate you sharing a little about yourself, continue to be you and be proud of the person you are. Best of luck to you.
congrats on 4 years!! i really really loved what you said about self-care. fitness as self-care is a lot more nuanced, in my opinion, than people make it out to be on social media. yes, fitness can be self-care for some people at certain points in their lives, but it’s definitely not the only kind. also really glad to hear you’ve been exploring more creative avenues, though i’m kind of artsy myself so i’m biased. do you think you’d ever make a video about being someone who has benefited from both fitness and creative endeavors as forms of self-care? i’m curious to hear how they are similar/different in how they allow you to practice self-compassion since they are sometimes (mistakenly) assumed to be entirely unrelated practices.
<3 Thanks for all those kind words. Funny you commented, you came across my mind the other day and I was going to reach out to you :) I absolutely love that idea for a video topic, self care and mental health is something that is so close to my heart - I've somehow managed to make a career out of advocating for that. I've gone through many waves of different avenues for self care, I'm a BFA graduate and honestly, I got so burnt out from art school that I didn't pick up a paintbrush for nearly 2 years after I graduated. But I'm relearning what I fell in love with when it comes to art. Relearning to do art for myself, not for a grade or for others, just purely expressing myself. It's been amazing and frustrating all at the same time! ;) I hope you are well. And hey man, thanks for always tuning in. You rock and I'm glad our paths have crossed. #thankful
hm.moonshine90 💜I get that. i went to school and majored in poetry and keep getting in funks where writing seems so foreign and distant. also, do you have Instagram? i privated all my RU-vid videos for the time being but am cool with commenting here or messaging on Instagram if that’s better. Plus I actually post there lol