This song feels like its about loving an addict “You needed me, but you needed drugs more” this song hits different its like you want to change do everything you can help this person but you cant and you always wonder. You stay for as long as you can you stay for eachother just watching everything happen and fall apart try to pick it up but it slips over again. You cant force anything.
She made the same mistake I always make with these lyrics. She said you saw my bones out with somebody new who looked like he would've bullied you in school lmao
Your hologram stumbled into my apartment Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus And I just watched it happen As the decade would play us for fools And you saw my bones out with somebody new Who seemed like he would've bullied you in school And you just watched it happen If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were' If you want to tear my world apart Just say you've always wondered You said some things that I can't unabsorb You turned me into an idea of sorts You needed me but you needed drugs more And I couldn't watch it happen I changed into goddesses, villains and fools Changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules All to outrun my desertion of you And you just watched it If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were' If you want to tear my world apart Just say you've always wondered If the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh Down that passage in time Back to the moment I crashed into you Like so many wrecks do Too impaired by my youth To know what to do So if I sell my apartment And you have some kids with an internet starlet Will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon like it never happened Could it be enough to just float in your orbit Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses Cooler in theory but not if you force it To be, it just didn't happen So if you want to break my cold, cold heart Say you loved me And if you want to tear my world apart Say you'll always wonder Cause I wonder Will I always Will I always wonder?
What this master of lyricism and composition encapsulates is that moment when you've already realized someone's true colors but are still clinging to them for dear life waiting on false hope that they'll become the person once again you first fell for....only for them to screw you over to an extent you could never imagine possible and having to float off into their own abyss; I've lived this and it destroys me 🤍🙌
As a Marcus, I can say without any doubt and bias, that THIS is her best song ever.....and when I heard the opening notes on the piano my heart absolutely shattered!
