Its gone to the point where I feel uncomfortable or embarrassed when people comfort me...or even making myself feel happy around others..its all so weird
why was it always my fault,everything was my fault until now.i get tired too but why did they hate me?i tried my best to make everything fixed but it just got worse.why is it always me?
Hey.. wait.. Where are you going? No.. Come back.. You can't leave me like that... At least give me some warning.. I loved you. You were my favorite person. what will I do now that you're gone? I need you here.. Please come back. I miss you, S.
Sometimes, I want to do it. Just wanna die. I just don't have anyone to talk about my feelings, even if this "happy friend" who is always smiling and comforting others. I'm always making fun of my feelings because my family does, but my feelings are real. Remember, smiling and laughing with your friends or family doesn't mean you don't need to talk about your feelings. ♡ take care of yourself, because I care about you, and I will always do. So please don't do it.❤
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
what is that feeling. it feels so cold but burns so bright. am i alone. do i hate it. do i hate being alone or have i always wanted such privacy. i feel secure but no hands are holding me. no one can see me cry. does it all end up the same when ur alone.
On the path through the corn fields, late at night when the fireflies were kissing the skies with tender lips and soft, glittering bodies, I ran into a stray dog. I fed it scraps from my lunchbox, watching the skittish, trembling way it ate from my tiny hands. The terror in its eyes was a,most as overwhelming as the hope - the wounded pride of a broken animal waiting for a hand to caress without an aftertaste of pain. Of course, my mom punished me for giving away food I knew we couldn’t spare. It was a punishable offence to help the stray - it was wrong to love something if it deemed unlovable by someone else. Scars were enough reason to turn away a starving creature. Loving you is a desperate, tragic thing. You’re littered with more scars than I know how to deal with - all inflicted by a hand God never gave me. The bible says to forgive, the word of mouth says to reject. Is it holier to extend a hand to a stray or to punish it for wanting more than life decided it deserved? Is wanting to be loved a sin in and of itself? Does pathetic, trembling, slow-breathed desire equate to gluttony? You stumbled into my life a starving thing, seeking scraps I didn’t have to give. Who’s sin is it if I feed you pieces of myself to supplement your hunger? Yours for being hungry, or mine, for knowingly giving away what I can’t survive without? My hubris, your need. Your desperation, my saviour complex. Am I the portrait of a God, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune? Am I the portrait of a devil, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune? All of me blurs with all of you. Maybe feeding you is the sin of gluttony - maybe that’s how conjoined we’ve become, that feeding you is feeding me. That feeding you is stuffing myself overfull with my own flesh.
I just feel like at this point my personality isn't even mine it's just my way of simulating what everyone else wants me to be. My whole life it's never felt like I'm me I don't even know who I am and it bothers me. I feel like I should know by now but I don't I feel so lost and it hurts.
Is it me, or is the world losing its colors? Like, the longer we live, the more depressed we become... Although I tell myself that this feeling is fleeting, but deep down it just keeps coming back, I just feel empty now....
OI YOU- Yes you, I thought i'd tell you something..... I love your smile I love your laugh I love your personality I love your hair (or lack thereof) I love your insecurities I love your accomplishments I love your failures I love your eyes I love your beauty I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) I love the way you dance I love you on your happy days I love you on your sad days I love you on the days you feel lonely I love you on the days you feel helpless I love you on the days you feel like no one cares I love you on the days you feel forgotten I love you on the days you feel unmotivated I love you on the days you feel loved I love you on the days you feel sick I love you on the days you feel motivated I love you on the days you feel depressed I love you on the days you feel stresses I love you on the days you feel crazy I love you on the days you feel hopeful I love you on the days you feel cuddly I love you on the days you feel clingy I love you on the days you feel amazing I love you on the days you feel beautiful I love you on the days you feel like a failure I love you on the days you feel angry I love you on the days you feel aggressive I love you on the days you feel horrible I love you on the days you feel safe I love you on the days you feel unsafe I love you on the days you feel vulnerable I love you on the days you feel weird I love you on the days you feel ok I love you when you're healthy I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) I love your taste in music I love your taste in movies I love your taste in tv shows I love the way you move I love the way you act I love you when you cry I love you when you're kind I love you when you're mean I love you when you're alone I love you when you can't feel I love you when you feel too much I love you when you can't take life anymore I love you when you feel like it's too much I love you when you're asleep I love you when you have nightmares I love you when you have dreams I love how you believe I love you when you believe in yourself I love you when you don't believe in yourself I love you when you hate yourself I love you when you love yourself I love the way you think I love you problems I love your solutions I love how you support I love you when you're in pain I love you when you're hurt I love your promises I love your secrets I love your attitude I love you sass I love your creativity I love your voice (or lack thereof) I love you hand gestures I love your stories I love your wounds I love your scars I love your face I love your past I love your future I love your present I love your outfits I love your style I love your art I love your honesty I love you when you lie I love you when you're tired I love you when you're energetic I love how you look I love how you cook I love you when you're adventurous I love you when you're scared I love your imperfections I love your perfections I love you when you worry I love you when you talk (or communicate) I love your opinions I love you when you have a headache I love you when you have a stomach ache I love you when you help others I love you when you need help I love you when you're mature I love you when you're immature I love you in the hard times I love you in the easy times I love you when life is meh I love you when you're responsible I love you when you're irresponsible I love you when you fight I love you in your darkest moments I love you in your brightest moments I love your heart I love you in the day I love you in the night I love you at midnight I love you at 3 am I love you at all times I love you at your best I love you at your worst I love the little things you do I love all of you I love you when you're you I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (THIS ISNT MINE BUT PLEASE PASS IT AROUND :DD)
just scream cried to this and then contemplated life. made me apologize to a lot of people and also made me confront a lot of feelings I've been holding back and depressing. thank you so much for this, I really couldn't thank you more.
I can't achieve my dreams nor my happines but mayde I'll get lucky with this one wish. I need an online friend, someone that I could always talk to and someone that likes the same things as me. Maybe one day I could intoduce them to my culture and meet them. But only maybe and only when we really know each other. For now I just need to see that it's possible for me to achieve even this one thing. I know this text was long and you might not want to read it but if I'll really achieve it like this, it's totally worth it.
There is nothing wrong with my life. I got good parents, enough friends, nice brothers, good grades, a bed, food, some basic hygiene and an okay place to live at. There is nothing wrong with my life. There shouldn't be. I've got more than so many people out there who have nothing. But why do I feel like there is something that is missing, it's just a little.. something. It faintly itches the far back of my heart. Like a small and ever so thin leash. The leash isn't tight, it's loose and not really harsh, it's just keeping my heart away from .. something. Maybe it isn't happiness that I seek. It's just that something is amiss, maybe this is my "happy" state, maybe this is me being happy and maybe this is my happiness and how happy I can get. I have everything I need to be happy, but why..why am I not?
im gonna vent here, i opened up my yt to listen to music bc lately i feel like my bestfriends are ignoring me. it really hurts but idk how to bring it up to them and im scared im just overreacting. i feel like its a misunderstanding bc there was one time at school where they were trying to talk to me and i just didnt have any social battery and i also felt sick that day so i wasnt very verbal when the approached. this was where they started hanging out with just each other and yk i dont mind that, i just feel left out bc they talk abt it in our gc (theres only three of us there like they could just dm) and now i just,,, don't know what to do tbh. im sick of always being the replaceable friend in the trio, i wish i could feel tht they care about me the same way i do to them...
If it's upsetting you then it's not an overreaction, maybe talk to them about how you feel left out, or if your not comfortable with talking to them then maybe try making plans with them and if they ignore you then maybe it's best if you distance yourself from them, I'm sorry if you find anything I said rude, I just get how hard it is feeling left out and sometimes it's best to let them go, I hope this helps you :]
It's April 24th 2024 and right now it's 3:56 am, I'm on a call with the love of my life, crying, she's sleeping and doesn't know how I feel about the world, my mother told me I'm not normal, I scared her earlier with one of the dreams I had, I told her about it and now she's nervous, My sister hates me, I never see my father anymore, were tight with money, and my own mom wants to die, I've tried to hang myself but then thought about how it will effect everyone, my mom won't last a day without me watching my siblings while she goes drinking, I hate my life, I just want to be free, but no I'm stuck here struggling, punching walls, crying all night, journaling because I can't tell anyone anything.
I just need her. But its midnight. And I can't visit her. No, I can't sneak out. I'd feel to guilty. But I need her. Yes, you need her, but you can't have her right now. Why? Because its midnight. I need her. Right now. - 💙
20 and already run down by the workforce. I can't even drown my sorrows in the bottle yet, and im supposed to do this for 50 more years? I'd rather let my body rot from the inside out. but then again, I'm just tired right now. I'll be back at work in 11 hours. why does the world keep spinning while I wallow in a bed I don't even own working for a company thatd rather watch me die than have an ounce of compassion. waiting months on a psychiatrist waitlist only to mix up the appointment dates and wait even longer. it all feels fake
@@darainbowwolf Oh thanks for asking. im ok, nothing special or new. i hope you'll solve every problem you have, and its ok its not your problem😭 thanks again🫶🏿
