That 3 seconds between heartbreaking news and the response from the recipient, the absolute perfect way to summarize this song. I can very much relate, this brings me back to a time I had to deliver such news, and watching the world of someone I once loved’s shattering before me. I only wish her the best at this point, neither of us were ready.
watching them live as they're singing this song is a surreal experience. i fear i'll never experience such overwhelmingly positive emotions again ahh lmfao
TW: depression, relaspe, mentions of wanting death, bullying, and Self harm this is the song i turn to when my emotions take over and i get intrusive thoughts, it helps, it helps me from running to a bridge and killing myself from past trauma. My mom used to hit me as a kid then shout at me, she even decided to shout at me after coming out to her as nonbinary. then last school year i was bullied by nearly everyone in school for being gay, i fell down a hole and I was depressed, i couldn't do my homework, i couldn't remind myself basic things to do, which is why i still have trouble with brushing my teeth and shit like that, all i would do was lay in bed, and write my feelings out through fanfiction and short stories before not being able to take it anymore and cutting. I transferred schools and everything seemed to be brighter, my thoughts weren't as bad and I had friends. until i got a flashback of sorts, and it made me fall back down again, and I started cutting again. that's when i fully got into glass animals, and started listening to their music, what used to be a probably dusty untouched song (heatwaves) in my itunes library turned into the full dreamland album, which i would listen to every single day. i am now a month clean from self harm, and glass animals and other bands and artists that i listen to (lovejoy, wilbur soot, etc) saved me. I still have urges, and things still get so bad that I want to pick up a blade again and shred my arm open, but music like this saved me, it drowns all my worries out as I skate to tokyo drifting and other side of paradise, then try to fall asleep to slowed down versions of heatwaves, domestic bliss, and dreamland. this band has saved my life.
Hey, you are already so strong for coming up this far! I'm so proud of you for trying to live a little bit longer! It would be a lie to say it's all going to be perfect after, but the truth is that you are going to heal, maybe slowly, but surely. Also, I'm so proud of you for using healthier ways to ease intrusive thoughts (they can be so awful) than hurting yourself again. It shows how strong you are, no matter what you may think of yourself. Songs are amazing for this, just like books and fanfictions because you can relate to them as long as you find the right one. How are you now? Are you managing to get better? No matter the answer, I'm sending you all the good vibes I can! And please remember that even if nobody hasn't already told you that, you're valid, just like your feelings! Keep going easy. We may be strangers on the internet, but I'm ready to bring all the help I can if you ever need it. I'm wishing you all the best in life, that you find happiness in it despite everything that happened.
