It’s bigger than me always have been 🔋 😊 hopefully 🤞🏽 my day goes good exactly how it’s going now hopefully 🤞🏽 I get more jawns later so I can relax 🔋 later and be comfortable and chilling
[Intro] Damn I'd risk it all for you And when a nigga get jammed, I'ma call for you Yeah, yeah Imma have to call your shit (DJ on the beat so it's a banger) Von [Verse 1] You know how it go (Go) When we in the streets (Streets) I'm with my partners got my chopper like I'm NLE (NLE) I'm out on bond, gang member with three felonies (Three felonies) Might go to jail, if I need you, would you be there for me? (Be there for me) The police thirsty too (Damn) They just surround the block (The block) Louie saw 'em comin' (Damn) He told BJ, and Top (Ayy, watch out) It was too late, I'm got (On God) They snatch my chain, my watch (Chain, my watch) They threw me in thе car (The car) Now can you hold me down? [Pre-Chorus] A nigga always in the street, I'm playin' foul (Playin' foul) I bе up on trial (Up on trial) Locked up for a while (For a while) I don't know if I'ma make it, I don't know if I'ma drown I just know if I get locked up, I can count on you to ride [Chorus] Would you ride? Would you ride? Would you ride for me? Would you ride? Now would you ride? Could you ride for real? You gon' ride, you gon' ride, pick a side Don't you lie, come on ride, don't you lie to me Come on ride [Verse 2] I got court tomorrow (Damn) She say she gon' come (She gon' come) I'm on trial, what I'm facin' a nigga murder one (Murder one) She held it down, lately yeah, when I was on the run (On the run) Held my gun (DJ on the-) What? Who I love? Girl you the only one (You the only one) I'ma make you smile (Make you smile) Throw you some paper (Throw you some paper) Girl, just be patient when they done deliberatin' (Yeah) I'ma show you, you the greatest, all them other hoes be hatin' now I'm rich and they can't take it, I'm just happy that we made it (Von) Fuck it, I'd risk it all for you (I'd risk it all for you) When a nigga get jammed, I'ma call for you (I'ma call for you) All these hoes lovin’ with who I am, I won't fall for it (No, I won't fall for it) For a bitch like you, I'd give it all to her (I'd give all to her) [Pre-Chorus] 'Cause a nigga always in the street, I'm playin' foul (Playin' foul) I be up on trial (Up on trial) Locked up for a while (For a while) I don't know if I'ma make it, I don't know if I'ma drown I just know if I get locked up, I can count on you to ride [Chorus] Would you ride? Would you ride? Would you ride for me? Would you ride? Now would you ride? Could you ride for real? You gon' ride, you gon' ride, pick a side Don't you lie, come on ride, don't you lie to me Come on ride (DJ on the beat so it's a banger)
I’m annoyed but kids going be kids I be going through the most but I never fold never 👎 quit and will never quit I know better days coming my mf legs 🦵 🪫hurt I don’t have time for nonsense I’m annoyed some stuff is common sense I jus wanna 🔋 and chill with my shawty man Dayumm 😔 it’s simple I don’t ask for much
I need my battery recharged 🔋 I was chilling and ain’t feel no anger all day 😤 😡 👿 I’m just trying relax with my shawty man and be energized refresh 🔋 with all smiles and not have my energy 🪫 and miserable that shit ain’t cool smh 😑 a battle nobody fights silently but me but ✌️ bout to shower and chill until it’s time to see my future 💍 wife hopefully I’m recharged 🔋 and nothing but happiness and smiles and ready to clean and enjoy my couple hours out my box 📦
I’m happy asf right now and broke asf right happiness outweighs money anyday in my book the richest mfs in the world 🌎 are miserable and not happy with they life or themselves money puts a target on your back and comes with ppl that think they automatically owed something from you because you grinded to put your family and kids and yourself in that position and your talents help acquire wealth that you could never fathom to think of or wrap your mind around and breaks the property in your family I can’t wait till I become rich so I can give back to my community my family retire my parents set my siblings up for life and give my kids a life they would never forget and put my kids and nephews all through college and build stuff for the kids around my city that can make an allow more job opportunities and give everyone hope I wish I had enough money to do all that my bucket list would be complete and my goals in life would be met I just wanna give back to the less fortunate and buy myself some shoes since mine got sold or given away by homegirl I only wear crocs all day everday because it’s the only shoe that’s an everyday shoe that I have left 15 pairs of Jordan’s gone by homegirl that I still till this day have no idea what happen to them it’s sad but that’s the reality of life and the ppl you come across some ppl snakes 🐍 and full of evil and bad intentions just dressed up sent by the devil in disguise to knock you off your focus or ruin you life your faith in GOD had to outweigh your faith in man and faith in ppl in this world who intentions are nothing but evil And bad I came across a lot of well dressed snakes 🐍 and evil minded ppl who showed me a side of them that I put my trust in and gave my 💔 and my last dollar to my name to because of how they came and presented themselves in disguise to me and I was chasing lust and not looking for real genuine ppl with pure hearts ❤️ you always pay for all the things you did wrong to ppl intentionally or unintentionally
I’m going be the best dad and son to my parents and brother to my siblings that I have ever been I put that on everything I love this is a new stronger happier more confident more focused and unselfish Trevon the person I should of been
I’m so happy and motivated right now in my life to prove to myself that I’m better and mentally stronger and more motivated than I have ever been I’m glad I hit rock bottom and I’m Glad GOD humbled me I was cocky arrogant a liar I use to be a thief I use to duck my kids I use to put girls before my kids I use to give my kids the bare minimum but would ball out and spend 💰 a bag on a female I was a sucka bitch ass nigga I can’t believe I use to be that way that shit disgusting and cowardly but that’s my past I’m a better man father and freind now and my future is bright shit feels good man smh 😑 nobody really know the foul shit I did in my past but GOD and right now I’m paying for the wrong I have down and like my mama ❤️ say you reap what you sew I was sewing bad seeds and I was putting bad energy out into the world I’m glad I got knocked off my high horse and humbled because I wouldn’t have grown as a man as a father as a son and as a person if I didn’t hit rock bottom sometimes rock bottom is the best thing that could happen to somebody like the person I use to be ali finally got the reality check that I needed the reality check that’s making me the man GOD called me to be and the son my parents can be proud of I wish mfs stop thinking I’m crazy I’m just healing ❤️🩹 everyone heals they own way it’s sad I can’t express myself because I’ll be looked down on or frowned upon or called crazy I’m raise my sons the right way and let them know it’s ok to show emotion and it’s ok to cry and it’s ok to express yourself real men cry real men call they wrongs out when they wrong and real men better themselves society got black men thinking they have to be hard or a gangsta 24/7 living with that mindset will have you in jail dead or by yourself I refuse to be another statistic I’m glad to be emotionally vulnerable and can be man enough to let my Tears out and strong enough to talk about my dark past if I can do it and change so can other ppl I’m a living testimony 🤷🏽♂️ I’m learning and growing in a way GOD is allowing me to see the growth and in a way only i understand him everyone relationship with GOD is different I gotta vent on here because I can’t go to the ppl I know and vent I’m be looked at as crazy as a drug addict and as somebody who just talking to talk so until I get my therapist I’m keep venting on here it’s helping me heal ❤️🩹 and address my traumas head one and not hold them in and let that anger build up that’s not mentally healthy or emotionally healthy it can damage you and destroy you and make your heart cold and your mind dark I refuse to live my life like that because I’m too worried about what ppl say about me and think about me I could careless I’m healing ❤️🩹 and changing into the man GOD called me to be and the Man GOD placed on this earth 🌍 to serve a purpose while I’m on this earth I listen to what my mom be saying I know she think I don’t but I be listening 👂 when she say GOD didn’t make me to be that way he wants me to be this way and I got my dad a perfect role model to look up to and he showing me how to be a real man and a real father and a real and good and loving husband the way he treats my mom i don’t say much I sit back and watch ppl and say to myself he really a real one and practices what he preaches or I say I would never be like him 🤷🏽♂️ I know how to look up to and who to look past it’s the gift of de sermon that I have been blessed with the spiritually ppl that’s locked in with GOD see the change in me and the ppl thats worldly and who’s not spiritually connected think im crazy if only ppl knew about the gift i have been given by GOD 🙏 I’m blessed I did some fucked up shit I did shit that I really shouldn’t still be alive but I’m the chosen one ☝️ and I have to live like I’m the chosen one but 🤫 enough talking I gotta stay focused like my parents told me I talk to much and i know I blocked a lot of my blessings because of my big mouth but I’m learning and that’s going to change asap starting today on everything I ❤️ that’s a promise I’m making with GOD and myself ti stop talking myself out of my blessing and learning to shut my mouth and observe and make my movements in silence slowly but surely I’m learning 🙏 I’m blessed and not stressed I’m alive and not in a grave I’m free and not locked 🔐 away GOD has spared me and showed me mercy because he knew the potential I have before I even seen it in myself my past has molded me into the son my parents can be proud of and the father that my kids can brag about and the husband that I’m soon to be ✌️ I’m out fr this time not more venting just actions and less talking im prove a lot of ppl wrong 🤷🏽♂️ with GO guiding me every step of the way and my circle ⭕️ and the ppl I care about and surround my self with showing me support and unconditional love I finally know my purpose in life it’s bigger than me it’s to change other ppls lives for the better who has suffered like me and who’s going through the dark storm I went through that isn’t strong enough to speak out and not strong enough to fight back and push through and be mentally tough against the attacks of the enemy i see stuff way different then I use to see it only GOD knows and I will never tell nobody because they going assume I’m crazy or on drugs no GOd is aligning my life and placing the ppl In my life that’s going to reap the fruits of my labor with me and enjoy the rewards and blessings ima receive for being obedient and following the things GOD is telling me to do I use to run and deny the fact that I’m a chosen one and I have a calling on my life that can change everyone life around me if I just be obedient and stay focused only GOD understands me in a way nobody else can if it means losing some freinds along my journey then I’m willing to do that in order to reach the destination that GOD has set out for me to reach and fulfill the calling on my life that he has placed on me I’m not perfect but I’m better than I never been and h filled with happinesses that I didn’t know existed and unconditional love ❤️ that I been missing the devil tried to trick my mind but as my mama ❤️ say BUT GOD like Ms Kim said in be the one to bring my family together and end the proverty and generational curses that run in my family and to do that you have to be mentally and spiritually prepared GOD don’t bless mess and he dosent like Luke warm ppl but one day at a time like I taking it is better than living the same sinful life I use to live and lying to my parents and love ones and kids like I use to I’m sorry that I was that much of a coward and scared to face reality and man up and be a real dad that I was lying my way through life and lying to the ppl I loved and the ppl who deserved nothing but the truth and the best version of myself that I can offer I repent and will never turn my back on my family kids lived ones ever again or sit and lie to they face ✌️ I just had to get that off my chest now watch me become the successful man and retire my parents and set my family up with generational wealth like I have been called to do 🤫 🤐 my mouth is closed and my mind is clear now I got that off my chest my past will no longer control what my future has in store for me I asked for forgiveness and I repented now I’m moving forward I’m lose some ppl but the blessings ima gain is much bigger than ppl I’m lose not everyone can go to the top with you GOD won’t bless mess some ppl you hang around will hinder your blessing and block what he has I. Store for you if they can’t understand wish them luck and show them love but GOD will move on to the next person if you don’t change and show him you want what he has in store for you ✌️ ok out 🙏 I will never even like this again on here because I’m in the season of shutting my mouth and taking less and be faithful and obedient more so I won’t miss out on blessings that can change my life my family life my kids life and my future wife life 💍 my horse blinders are finally off and my eyes are Finally open I see things different and I see through the lies and I see the true intentions that ppl have that I use to call my friend ✌️
Smurk 🗣️ 🏆 ❤️🩹 talking real pain talk on this song one of the best rappers who everyday ppl like me can relate to all his lyrics hit me deep because I can relate to some of his songs the voice 🏆 ❤️🩹 motivating the trenches and niggas like me to be better and do better and be a better father/ man overall keep putting that heat 🎙️ 🔥 out smurk the streets need it 💯 speaking from experience
I vent things on here on RU-vid that I don’t feel comfortable telling my parents not because I’m scared because I don’t want them to look at me differently or for them to be disappointed in me they both raised me well it’s my turn to make my decision for myself and show them that everything they taught me I still apply to my life as a grown man they the ones encouraged me to get married never seen them argue or fight never seen my dad raise his hand at my mom shit like that I’ll never forget now I got Ashley I wanna get married follow my parents footsteps always said to myself I wanna find a girl like my mom her love for my dad is unconditional and genuine and vice versa my dad loves my mom unconditionally but I done venting don’t want nobody on here think I’m weird jus venting because this my only place I have that I feel safe sharing things without being judge or looked at weird by the ppl around me but 🤫 🤐 I’m done venting back to business I’m focused and more happy and motivated than I ever been something happen over the years to my mental I noticed it but I’m get it address and get it fixed and my therapist and medication when my insurance card come I’m blessed 😇 🙏 and thankful that I’m still walking GOD had bigger plans for me when the devil 😈 was in my ear making me feel like I wasn’t needed or that I mattered and that I be better off gone those thoughts no longer exist im motivated im prove the devil wrong and show him that GOD has the final say I don’t need a program I don’t need to be placed in a crazy hospital I need to be exactly where ima at surrounded by my family and surrounded by the ppl who loves me and know that I’m going to be successful and my storm soon shall pass I love my life right now broke and all more than I ever did in the past I was hurt 😔 lied to 💔 cheated on used mentally abused and emotionally abused and of course the abuser isn’t going to see any wrong they did that’s just how it go so I took matter into my own hands I don’t have no hate grudges or anything towards Maliah but maliah and GOD know what and how she treated me wasn’t right I almost took my life because of the things I had don to me and the hurt she caused me and she’ll never know 🤐 🤫 but my new future wife Ashley going to show her how good of a man I am and how I should be treated Ite ✌️ I got a long fun day ahead of me and I’m going to enjoy every last bit of it and keep a smile on my face today and anger out my heart 💯 ❤️🩹 🤷🏽♂️ I’m healing and surrounded by the ppl that I need and the ppl that I love the most ⭕️ my circle is better and tighter than it’s ever been it’s no haters in there that I know of just ppl who genuinely care about tre I’m blessed 🙏 motivated and happy and ready to prove the doubters wrong I’m not crazy I just woke up and opened my eyes and I’m strong enough now to speak out about my past traumas and obstacles I overcame that nobody new about money don’t make you a man money don’t build character money changes you into a beast and a monster and a selfish person who is arrogant because they think money can buy happiness find yourself and your purpose first and you’ll be happy I’m speaking from experience trust me 💯 ✌️ thank you GoD for all the things you have bought me through and for the ppl you got me surrounded by in my life right now and my future wife you sent to me in at dark time in my life I’m forever blessed and grateful And no ppl I’m not crazy I’m mentally damaged from my past traumas only a few understand healing is a process that can take as many years as you need it to only you as a person can feel when your fully healed I have a loyal motivating girl by my side my strong 👑 she only one who can calm me down when those anger feelings hit 💯 and my parents and my kids but real shit I’m done venting ✌️ I’m enjoying and loving life for anybody who is feeling the way I use to feel don’t give up it’s hope and yiure important and you matter in this world 🌎 trust my word for it just surround yourself with the right ppl and be honest snd truthful with yourself and keep yiur faith strong in GOD he never disappoints you ✌️ stay blessed and stay hate free love ❤️ conquers all hate and a smile 😊 is the best thing to keep on your face 💯
It’s no love ❤️ in this world 🌎 like your child’s love when the world turn they back on you you’re kids going smile 😊 at you like they never seen you before my kids a big part of my life changes I made and a big reason why I stopped living so foul and reckless they only got me they grandparents and they aunts and uncles and I won’t leave them or let them down my purpose on this earth 🌍 is bigger than me it’s to make ppl around me life better and put smiles in they face and to show them that if I can dig myself with the help of GOD out of depression suicidal thoughts hopelessness then so can they GOD said he had bigger plans for me I’ll never think about no suicide again I’m embarrassed to talk about it but that’s why you can’t be in a relationship with everyone my past relationship when I was contemplating suicide had me feeling not loved had me feeling like I wasn’t worth anything I was getting cheated on and seen it with my own eyes my own “freinds” was having conversations with the girl who i thought 💭 “ was my gf” the girl who I though “loved” me I gave 10000 percent in my last relationship and all I got back was 0 percent that shit hurts but my new girl is a 1000 times better I wouldn’t trade my new girl for nobody not even Beyoncé 😂 rs ashely is so special to me she makes me feel important she makes me feel like I matter I have no hate or grudges against Maliah but when she see me and my new girl it’s going eat her up inside because Maliah knew I was a good dude but GOD had me go through hell with Maliah to prepare me for Ashley Dayumm Ashley so special to me she gave me hope when I had none left I didn’t wanna leave my kids in that apartment when I moved out but it was time for me to go I dam near lost my life and myself trying to please somebody who didn’t give a fuck about me but I’m strong enough today to talk about it smile through and I never told my parents because they would think I’m crazy no your son was hurt 😔 💔 yiur son was used and abused and your son was giving his all to a girl “Maliah” who was having a relationship with a dike in Baltimore and I was giving her money and everything not know I was getting played as soon as she stepped foot out that car I have trauma and PTSD from my past life and the things I endured and battled silently over and over I felt like 🙊 like my voice ain’t matter then when I seen my dad cry and leave the room that time I came to my parents house with Chubb and my son kayden kayden was a infant I knew it was time for change he seen something his son didn’t he seen his son tired and beat up and just giving up on his self I never seen my dad cry like that in front of me some shit I will never forget but that shit is all used for motivation I no longer contemplate suicide because I matter im needed and I important my girl I have now remind me everyday it’s going feel like I’m losing because I’m starting all over but it’s going be worth it my dad is my role model he don’t complain and works 2 jobs with no meniscus on his knee my mom cooks cleans ride everybody around all day and never complain so how can I I have a praying mother and a hustling father that I’m grateful for I’ll eventually retire my parents give my dad his rancher with his land and many more things for them they sacrificed so much for me and had many sleepless nights because of the things I was out in the streets doing but that’s the old me that old me no longer exist I’m better mentally stronger and happier now than I ever been the devil didn’t win GOD did 🙏
This how I’m feeling right now I will and promise that ima become a better dad I’m better than last year but I can do more I have high standards for myself I won’t let myself or my family or kids down ✌️
With this money I can finally provide for my kids it was tearing 💔 up inside watching them disappointed day in a day out because I couldn’t provide for them I said I would die ⚰️ 💀 broke before I break the law and be in the streets just to say I got money I have morals and principles I’m glad GOD sent me my future wife she special and she bought me outta depression and dark place that I was in that had me thinking I wouldn’t find love ❤️ again ❤️🩹 🏆 I can’t thank GOD enough for her my family my parents my siblings and my kids ima be a better dad I promise 🤞🏽😔
