And..I never used to compare myself with other..boys..men..not much more than sometimes couple moments..I believed in myself and that was my heart and what I've seen..And I've never known for word confident ...I was mindful and shy..sometimes brave or not enough but that was the matter of strategy..time and place..I was always what I am..more than confident..What could make me feeling diferrent..?nothing..And I never thought about 'success'..just feeling..loving or wishing somebody I tried to get what I needed or gift away what I got..And I never played dirty perfidy games trying to reach what I needed get to know some Lady..And I was ready to step away.. and say I'm sorry..take another chance..or help somebody..doing what I couldnt reach..And I've known..what I might missed or somebody..And I felt better sometimes to have no 'success'.. with very beautiful woman than to break couple rules I bred..Its happening now..love me or leave me.. And I never regret what I missed..I missed at least 1000 beautiful possible affairs..women..because I was what I am..so I could feel ..regret so many times being a fool..but I never did..and it helped me going higher..and getting to know more compatible persons..more beautiful..and precious..And I never thought about myself like I'm rich..poor or 'inappropriate'..because havingthis or not having that.I knew the rules but I didnt give a fuck in generally if I was not wealthy right there then or now...And I've always known to beware of the world that used to put material things over spiritual...with fully respect of material ..status.And all that brought me always greatest 'success' anyhow anywhere..and when I needed.I felt completely like the man in 26..27..spending boring summer with three young girls..my girlfriends..some evenings..thinking what would be interesting for me after all I passed by then..what else I needed or what I should've done .. Even now..I feel my heart beats the same rhytam..sometimes when I get that feeling...but theres noone around but couple lovely pair of legs and low leveled..not 'branded'...women.And I'm not anymore a missionary man..even it's impossible sometimes..and I feel there is always a way to meet somebody..And I still got the secret...great recipe ..how will I seduce you...🤩
