Yeah this reminds me of those times I feel it, the days when I didn’t have my own console I used my cousins to play og Fortnite in 2017 and let’s not forget call of duty I wish I could’ve lived and stayed in my innocent years forever because everything is only getting more advanced, complicated, and painful. I try to act like the pain doesn’t hurt by not crying anymore but I still feel it deep inside only letting it out when I listen to music like this. Never even telling anyone other myself in my head bc I always knew but never how to fix it. I guess I wanna cry but all I think when I feel the urge to is, what good would that do anymore if it doesn’t truly take the pain away ever, I’d rather just never cry again. I’ll just leave this comment here to remind others that everyone carries different pain every person you’ll ever meet will have gone through something and if they haven’t yet they eventually will, so just remember this and keep it in mind.
My ocs last words.. (she didn’t die dw) (What am I doing here.. why is everything so cold.. it’s not funny anymore fox where are you?! (Fox is my bestie) WHERE ARE YOU?!!.. i think she’s gone what do I do what is this.. top hat? That’s her cosmetic.. I think she’s dead.. for good.. *sighs* ITS MY FAULT THAT I WENT IN THAT PORTAL I WISH SHE NEVER LOOKED FOR ME ILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN SHES GONE FOREVER AND I HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR WHY CANT SHE JUST COME BACK TO LIFE EVEN THO SHE WANTED TO DIE ANYWAYS I STILL LOVED HER SO MUCH!..)
For I was lost now I am found, for I was dead now I’m alive, for I was filled with fear and now I am filled with hope, I was a nobody and then I met someone who made me a somebody, who made me man, who made me a son, who made me worthy, and gave me redemption he was…Christ the Lord ✝️