No not at all, absolute shit man, I can’t take it anymore. I thought people were actually starting to care about me, especially her, but no “I’m sorry but I’m not really interested in pursuing anything more than a friendship”. My friends don’t even give a damn. It’s fucking crazy. I’m crying every night, going insane. Asking God why I deserve this, asking what I did. Nobody absolutely nobody. It’s always when life starts to feel better everything is JUST BACK TO BEFORE. I honestly don’t think 988 can help me. I love you guys, whoever you are, whenever you’re reading this.
Your voice puts sickness into my gut And I swallowed just a little too much I don’t know what I did wrong It’s not your fault, I just think I was in love You make every part of me small And short of breath, and two feet tall And I still don’t know what I did wrong It’s not your fault, I just think I was in love What was the day that you cease to think of me like that? I don’t know what I said but I’d like the chance to take it back I have been avoiding you, I guess Cause when we speak I forget, forget, forget And when it hits me it’s further into my chest You don’t want me, forget, forget, forget (Forget, forget, forget) My voice puts sickness into my gut And I can’t believe I missed it once I guess you did nothing wrong And I swear it wouldn’t have mattered so much None of this would be worth the fuss If I hadn’t been in love I just think I was in love