i feel so dead inside of me that I feel so trapped in my own daydreaming because that’s the only way I can escape from reality. been betrayed so many times that I’ve totally lost my soul and happiness I don’t see people as people no more.everyday forced to wake up but I don’t want to no more does it really get better? I’ve tried for 19 years why do people keep failing me why God why ? I regret expecting but myself for being so kind .
the whole reason why i’m crying, is because of school. The amount of things i need to do. Homework, study, get good grades, be a good student, be kind, be nice, forgive everyone, don’t be rude,this and that. It’s really stressing me about. Like today, i had a math test and i’m rlly good and math, but after discussing the answers with everyone else, they all had different answers and i wanted to break down right there and then. I hate going to school and i basically have no trust worthy friends.
Hello to whoever is reading this. Ive attempted 3 times, and I'd like to give advice to never attempt. In my situation, nobody cried or cared. Everyone told me I was an attention seeker. The doctors would only ever give me medication, never therapy. I decided one day to make Everyone regret being a$$holes to me, and here I am today. Im in 8th grade and I'm planning on becoming an author. Ive loved literature since I was a little kid and I think my story would at least help 1 person. Ive attempted, self-harmed and much more. Ive been through every form of abuse. Ive had a horrible childhood, but I made it through. But I didn't come out of that fight without any harm. I know how you feel cause I've been there. You may not see it now, but it will get better. I promise you it will get better. I dont know you, but you're worth, you have a value in life, you're not a burden, nobody is better off without you, people do care about you, people do love you. You are beautiful, you're not a failure, you're not a mistake, you're not a psychopath. You are a human being. Those who made you feel like this are bad people to be around. And I hope they soon realise that they need to change. I dont know what more to write. But you are worth. I hope you have a nice day, buddy. I love you/p<3
Im so mad my mom yelled at me because i was bored Also suck it up matches what she said after yelling at me i started crying cuz she yelled at me and made me mad then she said “STOP CRYING I DONT WANNA DEAL WITH WINEING ON THE FIRST DAY FOR SUMMER” witch just made me madder so i went to my room😡
he broke my heart, and ive hated him and regected his advances to get back together, all my friends hate him and ive sworn, that id never get back with him. but now he likes someone else, and i think im falling. i hate myself now, what should i do?
I mean am trying my best to make you proud calling me lazy won't do anything I've tried so many times but i don't know why do I always be the failure they never understood my problem if i tell them am having stress, depression , anxiety, my mental health isn't good but what they will say is that you are just a kid don't act like a adult like do I not have feelings I always question myself WHYY!! am like this Whyyy jst why when they made fun of my insecurity thinking it's fun but it's not I literally cry every night thinking why God made me like this I also wannabe like others smart, beautiful, confident why can't I be like them whyyyyy?????
We’re did you go ? I missed you you helped me a lot I have sui3idal thoughts and depression my brother left to go to the Air Force I cried every day/night and then my other brother is now the only one here I love him but he works out and he’s stronger then me he makes me clean and if I don’t listen he forces me too and a couple days ago my friend let’s just call her R she texted me saying tell your bf to stop being a b1tch and I said ummm and R said ya he called me Emo for no f-ing reason so i called him and he was with his friend and I told him to not do the and him and his friend said it was not him and to was his friend and I texted her saying it’s not him it’s your ex and she said you believe your bf then your friend from 2 years- fast forward she try to bring mine best friend and school Said that I was being b-ch and then R said my mom said I have to be your friend ! That’s the only reason why I am! {now im in the crying and then my brother comes in yelling at me When MOM CALLS YOU YOU GO He grabs my arm and throws me to my room and I say sorry mom then I feel like I’m about to break I’m body shaking I go to my bed to stop my self I cry and cry my self to sleep and a little more days go bye I feel like it my fault {I will tell the rest later}❤
i miss her i wish she could know how much i have gave her my time and efforts i wish she know how much i love her how much i could go for her if i could give her my happinnes and she takes mine i would do it whoever is reading thos please pray for me so she could love me back i just love her than anything in this world if i have the moon i would give it to her i would kill my self so she could survive i would take her sadnnes and live it for her i could sufffer instead of her if i only could
@@Bilou-Otaku oh... Well, I don't know what to tell you bro. At least you're friends with her and that's always nice! 😊 I don't know what you should do... Maybe just give her hints?... Again... 🥲
Idk why I cry so much he told me the other day not to take things so seriously but it’s kind of hard when it’s terrible I just want to feel loved why can I feel it :(???
i wanna dissapear i hate it im not human i cant havr friends i will never have a bff nobody will ever kill the whole world wants me dead im not a real human its only pity nobodys my friend and the friends that i thought i could trust turned out to be horrible not to me but to the real me which i must hide my parents suck my mom has some sort of victim complex she once told me yelling at me was her therapy and shes called me a physco when i had mental breakdowns as a teen and i have had tp beg for comfort i can no longer cry my dad is noce to me but if he found the real me he:d beat me to death then thhrow me onto the street he sucks trumps cock like a lolipop and i hate myself i make the worse mistakes i male everything akwar d i hate how i speak it always is to loud ending me up in triuble i hate me i want to be human have a bffsleepovers hangouts with people im not constantly on edge around i understand if you agree with me i shoukd not exist i hate how im not human i want to be human call me dazai cause im no longer human i have nothing specail about me everyones better at math, reading, writting, drawling, typing, wports, breathong, talking, crying, living. I hate how im selfish i get mad at minor things like food i hate food why do i eat i wish i wouldnt eat mabye my body would feel slightly better i wish it had tits i had ass i hat my lower half please i wish people didnt hate me everyone around me hates me or pitys me i hate how i have to act teird so the teachers cant tell cause i hate thier asses stop acting like you are ok with my existence i blured thier photos not teachers but a persons photo where they toxic it was my fault probaly i wish i could have been friends im destained to lonleyness forever im unlovable my parents suck my so called friends suck or just annoyed by me i wish to be happy but the pain fels good i need to be human wheres my bestfriend why must i be pityed and hated im so selfish for being upsate at my own mistakes i make to many mistakes i wish i could be normal girl i wish i was liked by people who arent horrible to me or others i wish i was allowed happiness i hatemyself everythings my problem awkerness happens its me its me
THE ANXIATY THE SADNESS JESUS CAN FIX It, I have felt these feeling for years but I asked Jesus into my heart and I have been made clean I’m happy peacfull ❤
My dumbass realized my word genuinely fell apart 🥰 TW: Mentions of mental health issues, don't read if you have any form of trigger Bro I'm legit a whole ass child and in the span of 3 months I have gained so many new skills 🥰 I'm literally so talented with my depression, suicidal tendencies and thoughts, self harm, anorexia, inability to exist 🤩 I'm so sigma
He was the one interested first..and I was the one ignoring because I didn’t want to fall in love with him.. but now I’m the one begging for his attention and time.. and he’s the one ignoring me for no reason.
School ends in, like, 13 days. That would be a good thing, but I'd have to say goodbye to three of my current best friends. They've been my grounding place, and the only people that's made more safe. Now I'm going to middle school, a place where I'll know no one, except for two other people. I won't feel safe anywhere now. And just to rub salt in the wound, everything would get so much more hard. Assignments increasing, homework increasing, everything increasing. And I already can't handle it all. If I could die, I would right now. Floating in space with all of my comfort characters and ocs sounds much more fun than whatever hell I'm in now. But I can't even do that. So many of my favorite games, tv channels, and shows are still aren't fully complete, and I need to see the rest of the story. I am slowly going insane.
Friend admitted to my other friend that she ignores me every time I text the gc in purpose. Brought her boyfriend and his friends into the friend group (they’re super nice btw) but hangs out with them more than me despite us being friends for 6 years. Ignores me every chance she gets. I literally left for a whole lunch period and came back and she didn’t even notice I was gone. About a month ago I relapsed in sh in the school bathrooms and had to go to the phyc ward she didn’t notice for 2 days.
So my best friend since childhood, we went to he same school and our friendship is like siblings but recently he said he had feelings for someone and my friends thought it was me so they asked if I liked him I said I only saw him as a friend and wouldn’t like to ruin it But recently he’s been distant and I feel so bad now, what should I do.
just had the saddest day of my life first i got in a fight at school then school told me i have to do the year once again then my mom saw me cutting myself without me knowing she was standing right beside me and now she checks on me every 30 mins
I feel that the safest part all these albums are the people who are broken/ breaking trying to to cheer us up. Juts listen to the music feel the connection understand u don’t need to fake it anymore.
