2:03 Well, I walked into your dagger for the last time It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow Where you can't seem to hold me, can't seem to let me go So I can't find surrender, and I can't keep control You turn me inside out and then you want the outside in You spin me all around, then you ask me not to spin! You say you want to be alone! and you want children! You wanna be with me? you wanna be with him... You give me chills, I've had it with the drills I am nothing, you are nothing, we are nothing with the pills.
“I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man, I wanted to be the one that you could understand” reminds me too much of how I felt about my toxic best friend.
i don't know who else to tell so ima tell yall 😭. so me and my ex just got back tg but its been hard, like hes always at a friend's and i feel like i don't get enough attention but i get he's busy cuz he really is most of the time and i want him to live his life. but theres this girl he goes to school with that ive been jealous of ever since ive known her name. shes everything i wish i was. anyway him and his friend were tg and the girl texted him (i never knew they even had contact with eachother other than school and they live in the same county) and asked him to come to a lake nearby and his friend wanted to so they went. nothing happened that im aware of and it was a pretty big group of people (i was never informed of this until after the fact) they sm0ked tg and he hit smth of hers and ive had issues with overthinking ever since then the other day through the girl i figured out before me and him got tg they had smth. and i didnt care that much about them seeing each other its the fact that they were something and still had contact. he recently blocked her and im really glad but i still find myself being really and i mean really upset at myself because she asked me why he blocked her and i didnt explain it to her but she said something along the lines of how she would talk to him about her problems and he would help. now this is the thing that pushed me over the edge because me and him have trouble communicating our feelings and whenever i do open up he always says hes "tired of doing this every night" and i told him i do feel left out and feel like hes helping everyone else but me but he insists that im getting all of him. and i must admit i am a bit of an @ss sometimes but im not sure. im just tired of feeling like i mean nothing to the boy who i want to be the father of my kids.
i think i like this song so much because the singer’s voice sounds like desperate. or- idk how to describe it, but it’s like shaky and it reminds of how i sound after crying
“I thought that absence is silent and calm, if I could distinguish it’s halal (permissible) from haram (forbidden), and the day we parted away in daylight my dearest goodbye, I felt the universe when its darkness fell, my land sea and my cold breeze between mountains, my sky misses your clouds, clouds but without lightning and thunder, I found it hard to console him with a smile even.”
