It will always be December for me, no matter how many months filled with joy or victories I have. I will always have and have had a December, a month of failures, disappointments, unfulfilled promises, and abandoned goals. It is a period of tough and sad days. However, I will fight hard to make my December different and glorious.
Something I wrote based off of this titled Pouring Rain: It's killing me. The sunless sky, the overcast, this hell, this empty place, this nightmare and it's always December here in my head. I see myself sink farther unable to run away from this. It's suffocating me. All I see is black and white, all I see is that I can't escape, the reason why I want to live is harder and harder to remember. It's a nightmare I can never explain and I tried so hard to be brave... It's always so cold here... It's always pouring rain and sometimes even snow when it's at its worst. In my head it's always winter, mid December. So cold, it suffocates me and I'd rather sleep because being awake hurts more. Don't you see the seasons aren't changing. Don't you see the seasons aren't changing here in my head. I've run so far yet still can't escape it. No one sees and it's killing me. I'm only free from it all when I finally fall asleep. No one sees and it's killing me. I tried so hard to be brave. I can't outrun this cold in my head. I can't escape from what's inside my own mind, my own head. I can't escape what's inside no matter how much I run or how hard I try... It's pouring rain...
No don't give up :( i am so sorry that you felt this way and it sure been hard for you. But if you give up it only gets worse so keep going and i promise you one day it will be better.Maybe it helps if you talk to someone.Hope you will be happy♥
I was in a toxic relationship with my best friend from childhood she was my first kiss and my first love She broke up with me then she decided to damage me even more by shattering my Heart. (NGL I'm Happy Without You In My Life.)
@@LovellKirito im okie yea :D, had problems with my pc and went through some stuff so i haven't been uploading 😅😅 you can always contact me on my discord - suicnt
