It depend on the situation if someone ask me what i wish for i either said for a good life are go to heaven. -talking to myself and answering it myself
Listening this while accepting the fact someone you love dearly is planning on breaking up with you hits different. I loved her with all my heart. She knew I had problems with texting and hate getting on calls with people as I find them draining, and sometimes I drop off the face of the earth for a day or three. It was a long distance relationship. A lot of the times I would use a VR headset to talk to her. I wont be able to get on it for 4 months due to personal reasons, and its barely even been 2 or 3 weeks. She talked to someone im close with about breaking up with me. She doesnt want to do it yet, cause she doesnt feel ready for it and that there might be a way to fix it, but I feel as if shes just leading me on. It hurts so much knowing its coming, but not knowing when. She knows so much about me, and I know so much about her. She said we'd always be together, but I guess always isnt forever.
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 23 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germany's privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but I can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on RU-vid which is extremely lacking and rare to find Thankfully some time last year, Germany finally lifted those privacy laws for Google Maps Street view and i finally got to see my home again for the first time since we all left way back in 2001. I will be honest. I've never cried so much in such a long time. It was harrowingly different everywhere i looked around Osnabruck but I could also see things that haven't changed at all. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a daughter now, born Bonfire Night in 2022. Can't believe it's almost been 2 years with her already. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
@@p3xo Kind of aha. Growing up is like a double edged sword. Honestly becoming a parent has been the best thing to ever happen to me. But. I can't lie. I do miss being a kid so so much.
1 of my cats passed away and one other cat just ran off and we haven't seen her in weeks. All I feel is emptiness. One of them had beautiful blue eyes and the other one was always with my mom when she was singing and she'd like to "sing" along with her. So many memories and so much fun. Then, they're gone. And you have to grieve and move on. All I do is grieve and I don't try moving on. Endlessly hoping my blue-eyed girl comes home. Emma and Emily are their names. Emma is the singing cat and Emily has the blue eyes. Emma is dead. We posted pictures of Emily on Facebook to see if anyone can find her. Losing one cat hurts, but two? We have 2 other cats and one looks like she's about to go too. They're both pretty old. God, this fcking sucks...
I found this today … my producer sampled the beginning . I knew this was sad, what I wrote is sad. it hurts to hear but when I’m already hurting …. It feels great
This isn’t any about anyone, I’m happily in a relationship but I just be remembering when old coquette & twilight was rebranding on TikTok & it was so good, life was good. I miss when I first discovered it n it became my whole personality. I wanted to move to Oregon because of the aesthetic 😔 but yeah
This song is probably what it feels like when you lose your innocence or get hurt badly for the first time. Cause this song gives me that exact feeling
