It’s that feeling you get when you are trying your absolute best to be happy but life and shitty people keep getting in the way. Overtime you slowly reach your breaking point but you know better than to do anything irrational, further increasing your suffering. Where do you put that anger and hatred when you know you shouldn’t do anything stupid?
I hope everyone here is doing okay these days. Please be safe and know that people care about you, even if it may not feel like it at times. If you are feeling troubled, maybe professional help is the answer, or talking to a trusted friend about what you are going through. Wish you all the best.