Anyone who comes back here and is needing a friend hop to my stream from a fellow x fan. You don’t have to suffer alone and I’ll be there to bear your soul. I stream on twitch and kick aftermidnight11.
Till this day this guy will always not only remain a fully conscious soul, but also a loving and caring deep human. His death still haunts us and confuses us. To the future enjoy this legend!
Im such in a horrible mental condition right now. I can only lay the whole day in bed. My suicidal thoughts are also so intense right now. I dont know what can help me.
Im such in a horrible mental condition right now. I can only lay the whole day in bed. My suicidal thoughts are also so intense right now. I dont know what can help me.
I’ve been there too my friend, just know you are not alone and the future will always outshine the harsh past you’ve been through. Only you can do it and no one will help you because it’s about and starts with you. All the stuff that makes you feel comfortably in a depression state of mind has to go, and I mean listening to sad music, laying in bed all day, battling your own thoughts, thinking of the past or dreading the future, all that type of negative stuff etc. You need to learn to live in the moment at all times possible. You can go to the gym or pick up an instrument like I did so you can let your emotions out because I’m sure you’re holding them in and don’t want them to. You can do this just believe in yourself and something higher. Also remember you live for you and no one else, never change for anyone except for yourself if it’ll make you better.
I lost my brother last year around the end of July. I blame myself for not stopping my ex from calling the police on him. We were arguing all day long and at one point I thought he pointed a gun at me because I seen a red dot laser go across the room from behind me. I've been so lost on what to think or how to move on, and some days I think it should've been me. I come back here from time to time as x, juice and other have helped me through it but idk how to be strong anymore.
Hurts me especially since I was listening to x before he got big, also lil peep, their songs helped me get through alot, growing up listening to them, I always wanted to meet them, I never expected them to be gone so soon but I’m extremely grateful I got to be apart of their journey, so much talent, but they’ll forever be in our hearts, if you see this please remind me, I hope you all get through any situation or doubts you may be in, your more powerful and beautiful than you think
In the summer of 2017 I met a Goddess, I'm 30 now & I've met a few truly amazing people in my 3 decades in this realm, but I've never met anyone like her. She did things i didn't know were possible. She possesed her own lexicon she was like an fckn Oracle. She was beyond remarkable.& She knew me from another life time. I saved her, She enlightened me. We fell in love. X used to facetime call her like every other week. They had an enormous level of mutual respect & reverence for each other, He told me personally he meant no disrespect when he called. I was like i get it bro. It truly was him just calling her for knowledge, which i totally understood. She was like no other being on the planet. He often came to her for spiritual guidance. 4 months before Jahseh transitioned in Feb 2018 he sent $300 to help us out after we caught a flat tire on the highway. When he died that shit crushed her. It was like she lost her son or little brother. I barely knew him besides that one time we talked but I will always cherish and remember him as a kind hearted soul. His music always reminds me of that magical time in my life. The time when i met a true Goddess. How much it changed me. How different life felt back then. I fckn miss you bro. You was so many damn years ahead your time ❤️
