Visited him for three days. Couldn’t help but fake a smile while looking out of the train window at him, patiently waiting for the train to move. Tried so hard not to cry, and I guess I succeeded… until the train finally left. Then I cried the whole ride back home. I miss him, but he was never really mine.
Note: I listen to this music for a friend of mine that I lost today and I committed suicide because my life without my friend who was with me all my life has no meaning.
This song always reminds me of my father, in Every time he let me down and abandoned me and every time he treated me in the worst way, I was always a burden to him. He ruined my life and made me like a freak without a soul.
There is something whenever the song kicks off at 0:55 and 1:49 that just brings back memories. I feel like every beat in that part is a memory flashing through my mind like pictures being flipped through quickly. It really makes me reflect and look back at my memories. However, It doesn’t make me upset those moments are over, but rather happiness that those moments happened.
