Hi, I’m David. Chemsex OG. Activist extraordinaire. Prolific creator of chemsex support content. Also (less prolific) but potent novelist & essayist.
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I tried chemsex back in 2016 because I was curious how it would be like. I was hooking up with this masseur who suggested the idea and it was an option available to us that time. I was curious and horny. It's human nature. It's my weakness. I didn't think it was at all due to me being stressed or having a lifetime history of being bullied I don't think my use was related to those. It was more because of my curiosity about the pursuit of that kind of sexual experience. It's definitely very different from the usual sex I was having before, it felt primal there's a heightened sense of craving for sex when I used it and I think I kind of enjoyed it but I didn't like it at the same time because the chemicals made me nauseated, and depressed and sick especially when crash followed afterwards. I would think of it as like you're using a substance that creates unusual high in your head for one short period and because of that you definitely have to suffer the crash/withdrawal. That's what the thing did to me.
I'm also a user and I do relate to feeling incredibly competent and sexy and just everything felt like sex everything looked like sex and everything smelled like sex it was sucks that when I did my eyebrows in the morning it was every time I glanced at myself in my full length mirror I had outfits too but there was a year that my dealer got locked up and I went the whole year without meth cold Turkey and I got fat as hell LOL bye I didn't know how to feel with this new 50 pound gain that I held on for about eight months I was 100 and 25 to 120 then 185 in 8 months . All I could do is eat that was my new drug and it was bad I gained so much weight so fast that I was so depressed I was wearing fat girl clothes I was calling myself disgusting couldn't even I just sat in my own disgust then Dealer got out and here I am today probably back at 1:30 125 pounds try that be as healthy as I can eat everyday sleep everyday it's not healthy and it's gonna kill me and I will get through this on my own cold Turkey is pretty **** after about three years on it and if I could do that that's a hell of a start but I still feel like a competent bad sexy **** now then I'm back on and lost the weight I feel like myself again I feel like my inner me my true self in the world they try to**** with me through my emotions I can block my emotions and be myself I could be more confident in being myself but I'm learning from this and I don't wanna use it forever gotta stay positive right
When I had taken it many years ago, it was the speed and the lack of sleep that got me aroused early the next morning. But then the comedown is depression, regret, hopelessness, etc.
I heard about David passing today. I’m devastated. I never met him, but I’m interviewing for a sexual health nurse job tomorrow because of him. He’ll never know how many people he helped and made better
Enormément de gays formatés qui vont se réveiller un jour et vont galéré pour trouver un compagnon non formatés du voudra d'eux , souvent les non formatés vont se souvenir comment ils se sont fait jeté par les gays clonés , et FRANCHEMENT l'avenir des gays CHEMSEX s'annoncent triste et horrible , ce n'est que le début , beaucoup vont se suicidé ou bien vont demander pardon pour leur agissements auprès des gays non formatés , mais bon , il ne s agit pas de demander pardon pour recommencer ensuite faut que cela vienne du coeur , et FRANCHEMENT L AVENIR DES GAYS FORMATES JEUNE ET MOINS JEUNE s annonce horrible
Vous avez tous remarquer que le regard de cet ANGLAIS est détruit , si il ne se suicide pas cela sera un miracle , énormément de gays se croient heureux car leur cerveau même si ils ne droguent plus est atrophié à vie et vous donnent des réponses apprises par coeur , du genre je suis heureux mais le regard les trahis , donc on se dit , ils le disent , donc oui ils sont heureux , mais en réalité c'est pas eux qui parlent , c'est que leur cerveau dit des phrases toute faites car pour eux parler à un NON DROGUER , c'est comme parler à un ennemis , les gays formatés non drogués voient les gays non formatés comme leur ennemis , alors sous l effet de la drogue , ils deviennent carrément parano , et mon CONSEIL AUX GAYS DEGAGER VOS AMIS GAYS DROGUER , ne fréquentez plus les gays formatés , PLEN DE GAYS A PARIS ont compris cela et ne fréquentent plus ces attardés mentaux
Les gays formatés par milieu gay sont considéré par les patrons de lieux de sexe gays comme des porte monnaies sur pattes et aussi comme des personnes souvent sous drogue , donc ils sont considéré comme de grosses merde , et les gays adeptes du chemsex croient qu'ils sont aimer , mais le jour ou ils arrêtent ces merdes , ils peuvent déprimé car ils se rendent compte qu'ils sont seul , et surtout qu'ils sont passé à côté de belle rencontre de gays jamais drogué , mais comme ils sont formatés comme des robots ils ne fréquente que des formatés et baisent en circuit fermé et n'en sortent pas car le formatage psychologique dans lequel ils sont tomber très jeune souvent ne leur permet pas de voir la lumière et la beauté de certaine personne jamais drogué , les DROGUER en soirée se reconnaissent entre eux , et quand l effet de la drogue retombe , ils voient que les mecs qu'ils sont dans leur lit ne leur plaisent pas du tout , mais sous effet de la coke ou autres ils les avaient vu beau , et voient les mecs sympa et cool et jamais droguer comme moche et pas intéressant pour eux , dans ces cas là , les jamais drogués ne peuvent pas les aidés , et ce qu'il faut savoir c'est que ces gays là ont leur cerveau abimé à vie , JE DIS BIEN A VIE , même si ils arrêtent ces merdes , leur cerveau sera à vie au ralenti et donc deviennent pas intéressant du tout , donc ces mecs là , vont chercher à se mettre en couple avec d anciens DROGUER COMME EUX car ils se reconnaissent entre eux ,mais le risque c'est de replonger
super vidéo , les gays qui baisent sous chemsex sont souvent parano à vie et deviennent jaloux maladif envers les gens bien dans leur peau , vous allez dire , certain sont jaloux maladif sans drogue , oui , par contre ceux qui prennent le chemsex sont pire , et sont comme ce mec , il parle comme un robot qui se persuade d'aller bien , en le répétant à chaque fois
I do know of a few people who have ended up in videos posted on PornHub. I've watched a few in some disbelief, because I would never have guessed any of them would allow such a thing in clear mind. But, they chose to play with these drugs, and their lives are obviously on downward spirals. Those videos are becoming more and more what it seems, is out of their control at those times. I wish them better, but, only they can change the route they're on.
This is very interesting topic and link to what i am currently working with Drug Prevention Program in Cambodia. Do you have any comprehensive study on this CHEMSEX? Kindly thanks and appreciate for this sharing
I met and was getting to know this guy the other day. Crystal Meth came up in conversation, and I pummeled him with questions about it left n right. I've always been curious, but never met anyone who does use it, until now. Last night was my first time smoking meth. I've never done drugs before, so, this was an eye opener. I don't know what it is exactly that I was supposed to experience, but, I didn't feel high in the slightest. It did boost my sex drive, that's for sure. But it also totally messed up my sleep. I couldn't sleep last night, no matter what I tried. So after several hours of being WIDE AWAKE in bed, I said "screw it", got out of bed and just started my day at god-awful-o'clock. My new friend's coming over again today, so at least I have somebody to keep an eye on me. I feel like screwing everything right now.... LOL!!
I got caught up in the chemsex scene for a very short time. I have a couple friends who recognized what I was doing and the direction I was going in. I credit them for helping me get off the crystal meth before I was completely addicted to it. I'm watching my neighbor go through this now, and it's such a shame watching him go from a healthy, good looking man... to a shell of who is his now. Sad.
Wow, you described my experience with meth so accurately. From the self loathing an feeling ugly, to immediately finding myself attractive and sexy and adventurous. It's the only time I've ever felt that good.
I was referred to a service in Brighton by THT just to be told I didn't have a problem... I can only guess it was because I didn't look like their usual clients.
RIP….David, could you share what Kindle of cancer was? Could we prevent it somehow? Any particular cancer affecting chemsex ussers?thank for sharing all of this.
I think he knew he was ill and it was terminal as he released a documentary about his life a few weeks before his death called hu.mans. It was probably HIV related. It's terribly sad and he left us way too soon at the age of 54.
