Im the youngest and i go to the same school as my older sister until she recently went into highschool,all her teachers expected me to be perfect like her,'such a shame...youre sister did ____ and a bunch of other ..better things..' Or 'such a dissapointment,your sister exceeded expectations and then theres you....' Im SUCH a dissapointment,I wish i would dissapear,not get ubducted,not get murderd or go missing,just to dissapear,i was never there,never existed.
POV: you're the youngest child that everyone thinks has it easy and is a selfish brat, and everyone tries to humble you when really they're just being plain mean to you. Plus they make fun of you when you act like an actual child even though they get mad at you when you act like mature>>>
POV: Your the oldest child who has to live up to their parents expectations of them while setting the bar for their young siblings while simultaneously taking care of them!
im the oldest and the younger child always gets all the attention... everyone has their own problems. some maybe not understand what i feel but im always left out and called ''ungrateful'' when i cry or im mad its always ''u have a roof over ur head'' ''whats ur reason to be so unhappy'' school is the reason. ok school. literally. the reason i hate myself the reason i wanna die sometimes. and when im crying my parents say 'aw poor you' LIKE U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW HARD I TRY U DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL U DONT KNOW U LITERALLY DONT KNOW. AND SHE USED TO CALL ME HER BABY WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT. NOW MY BROTHER GETS ALL THE ATTENTION I USED TO BE HAPPY I USED TO LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH MY FAMILY I USED TO LOVE SCHOOL I USED TO LOVE MY SIBLINGS NOW ITS ALL MY FAULT. IM BROKEN NOBODY SEES IT NOBODY CARES BECAUSE ''IM SUPPOUSED'' TO BE THE ROLE MODEL FOR MY YOUNGER SIBLINGS. BUT NO. ITS NOT MY FAULT I HATE MYSELF AND I APPERANTLY HAVE DEPPRESION. OK MOM IM HURT AND BROKEN AND IM TRYING HARD. IM REALLY TRYING. OK? I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE.
POV: You have autism and your dad used to hit you even though you didn’t know how to control urself or ur actions due to the lack of therapy. No wait..EVEN THERAPY DIDNT UNDERSTAND. SO YEARS LATER THEY SENT YOU TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL FOR 7 MONTHS!!! EVERYTHING THEN WAS HAPPY AND ME AND MY DAD GET ALONG NOW….but I never feel comfortable around him….
I’ve been wanting to tell my mum about how I’m Trans and I’m afraid that she’ll be disappointed if I do bc I’m the only girl she had bc I have 4 brothers and the only thing she mentions when she talks about me is that I’m the only girl and I’m starting to feel like a burden bc of it and my brothers just ignore the fact that I clearly get upset when they say things like “SHES a GIRL!” Anytime someone misgendered me (I have very short boyish hair) I just feel like a black sheep of my family and it’s honestly so draining and I just want to scream :(
Me too, but it's with my father instead of a mother, he's christian, she's not, even tho they don't want me to be trans even tho my dad wanted a boy and my mom loves me being a girl, I rlly love being a boy, I don't like my real name so my friends call me Lucas/Nico Volk Conley (my two best friends last names "adopted school parents") hopefully someday I can live with them, when someone calls my real name I don't answer, til I'm called my preferred name by my friends..I relate to it, I get how u feel
True bc we’re forced to live up to all older siblings expectations and higher and get called spoiled when we get things we didn’t ask for so we didn’t get called spoiled but we get call spoiled anyway is the fucked up part
Im the oldest and i had to watch my little brother go to school for the first time it broke me because hes only 4 and he was crying so hard i felt so bad because school broke me and i think its gonna break him too...
It's shitty, I'm always getting blamed for, even if I do something that bad. He thinks I'm heartless and he doesn't know I have feelings too. I cry in the bathroom loudly bc of him..she's more spoiled then me, younger and more little, my momma doesn't act like my father and i always yell and cry to my father to let me go home with her even if he has full custody of me, I'm 16 now. Once I'm 18 I'll live with my friends, they're rlly nice but my father says that they will leave me but my friends stick around and help me with my problems, they're like my real family. I have a lot of trauma, ruined childhood. But my friends help me even if I don't need it. They're my actual real family
