Tell yourself that your remix in sped up I really listen to it every moment: when I go to high school, when I make scenarios, when I’m all alone etc.. please NEVER DELETE YOUR VIDEO (in addition with deku behind >>>>)
That feeling of loosing track of time on a rainy day not worrying about anything. But loosing interest on a number of things because you are exhausted, hoping to wake up better next time. Some how it was all a dream.
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you It's strange what desire will make foolish people do I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you No, I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) No, I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) With you With you (This world is only gonna break your heart) What a wicked game you play, to make me feel this way What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you And I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) No, I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) With you The world was on fire and no one could save me but you Strange what desire will make foolish people do I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you No, I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) No, I don't wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) With you (this world is only gonna break your heart) With you (with you) (This world is only gonna break your heart) No, I (this world is only gonna break your heart) (This world is only gonna break your heart) Nobody loves no one
this song makes me feel like if i were the world and if the world was me. like i'm stuck looking at a mirror despairing two versions of my self , self hatred and self acceptance. one influences hate and harmful urges and seeks revenge whilst the other seeks success and a better environment. around me now imagine being in a box and the floor , roof and walls were mirrors what would that display , nothing ,it would be insanity , your actions will have no reason or cause , you will fully be funtioning on impulse.
Jesus loves you man! Him and His word are my go to whenever I feel as if I’m at a dark place. I used to love going to music tho. I love music, always have, always will, which is why it was the perfect place for me to go when I was depressed. Music releases something in us that we can’t really explain, but it just touches a certain part of us that relates to the emotions we’re currently feeling, but that’s not always a good thing. I would always go to depressing, sad, existential music that made me feel something. Something that was ethereal, atmospheric, gut wrenching, and just sounded really good to me. But it’s not sustainable, and it never truly helps you or your situation. But now I go to Jesus’ Word! And trust me, it’s so much better! A verse I love is Philippians 4, which says ““And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” In the same way that music would give me, and I’m sure gives you, this false sense of peace or closure, Christ tells us that He will give us TRUE peace that we can’t comprehend or understand, and that’s what gets me through those dark places now. I hope what I said resonates with you in some way, I’ll be praying for you man. I sincerely recommend checking out the Lord and His word, He seriously loves you. John 3:16 says ““For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” Jesus went so far as to dying on the cross for our sins, I know it seems quite odd, it’s a wild concept. But since humans sinned in the beginning of the earth, the punishment for sin was death, which used to be atoned for with an animal sacrifice. But it was always only temporary because animals can’t commit sin due to them not having free will, but Jesus was fully human and fully God with a free will and chose not to sin, and chose to die on a cross as atonement for ALL of our sins, for your sins. I highly encourage you to check out my Savior Jesus, He’s great. I love you man, and He loves you more :)
