I feel like crying, but the tears are not coming out. I have failed myself again. It's a huge fault in my personality. I keep failing myself even after I am given several chances. I am constantly building myself back up just to tear everything that i am building in one day. Its like I've been stuck in the same spot for the past 4 years- statoinary like a rock, only a rock may move from a gust of wind. I am not progressing in anything even though I have everything between my hands. One day it will be too late to change anything and that day can be any day from now.
Progress can happen in many ways, and it often goes unnoticed, especially during moments where you feel like you've regressed. Remember that, in life, lost progress is rarely the same as being reset to square one. All the time you spent between the two low moments counted for something, and will continue to count as you resume making progress once again.
When everything sounds like it’s ending And the trees are all bird and bone My sidling mind Wafts its way back to you. All the miles of nothing Mean that you are closer. When everything smells like it’s over And the wings are waving north goodbye You apparate In the flipbook that the rampart makes. All the empty fields and hours Mean that you are closer. When everything tastes like winter And I warm up your memory in the motel microwave The black and white leaves Remember their bleeding gold Just long enough to sink you into me Before they coagulate Into a flurry of failing eyelids The fluorescent lights Standing sentinel, Ever-watchful For any sort of heart movement. (And still) I know that you are closer. When everything sounds like it’s ending When everything smells like it’s over When everything tastes like winter I know that you are closer. I know that you are closer.
the first time I heard I felt the ones missing me. When i find the title i understood ecerything was clears, they just remember me to forget they we re gone....
