Reminds me of someone I used to like. She was amazing. I fell in love with her after a few times of meeting. We shared a lot of similarities. We become friends, and trusted each other. I trusted her so much that I admitted to her that my family is Polish, she respected that and admitted her family was Portuguese-Japanese (even though those aren’t heavily discriminated). It was a year later, I wanted to come clean and tell her I liked her. But at the time I had many fake friends. They pushed me into making it weird. afterwards she never trusted me again. I miss her. I never had a friend like her. But I don’t really wanna date her any more. I don’t even know if she’s my Christian denomination (catholic).
Every breaking wave on the shore Tells the next one there'll be one more And every gambler knows that to lose Is what you're really there for Summer I was fearlessness Now I speak into an answer phone Like every fallen leaf on the breeze Winter wouldn't leave it alone, alone If you go If you go your way and I go mine Are we so Are we so helpless against the tide? Baby, every dog on the street Knows that we're in love with defeat Are we ready to be swept off our feet And stop chasing every breaking wave Every sailor knows that the sea Is a friend made enemy And every shipwrecked soul knows what it is To live without intimacy I thought I heard the captain's voice But it's hard to listen while you preach Like every broken wave on the shore This is as far as I could reach If you go If you go your way and I go mine Are we so Are we so helpless against the tide? Baby, every dog on the street Knows that we're in love with defeat Are we ready to be swept off our feet And stop chasing every breaking wave The sea knows where are the rocks And drowning is no sin You know where my heart is The same place that yours has been We know that we fear to win And so we end before we begin Before we begin If you go If you go your way and I go mine Are we so Are we so helpless against the tide? Baby, every dog on the street Knows that we're in love with defeat Are we ready to be swept off our feet And stop chasing every breaking wave
(TW) This song was hard to swallow but it is filled with lots of memories, good and bad. Rant warning. So years ago during quarantine, specifically October before covid really started. I was at my friends and her and her family had a party for halloween. We met this person, ima call him G. We hung out and had lots of fun, traded our discord tags. G introduced us to his friends J and GR. We all had a discord group chat and we would stay up all night in call talking all the time joking around. We were really into mcyt as well. I started to gain a crush on J, and i made a move on asking him to be my "platonic valentine" by uh.. a dream meme. Saying something like "i wanna steal your heart like i stole your disc." The rest of the friend group knew i had a major crush on him besides him. Anyways, i ended up confessing my feelings and he felt the same we started dating. We both loved the song Heat Waves.. and we both read Heat Waves together. We would always make each other blush and flustered by the "i wanna kiss you so hard that you forget your name" and "i burn you? You melt me." Our friends would joke about me being dream and J being george. Anyways so we met each other for the first time in my town. We went to the playground blasting this song. Anyways skipping all the good part and moving to the last half of the relationship. J ended up being confusing, saying how it isn't going to work but then saying sorry and he wants me. It was an endless cycle. I spent over $500 on him by buying him a new pair of razor kitty headphones and taking him to Six Flags. Our birthday was 2 days away from each other so Six Flags was a birthday trip for both of us. We were in line for a ride and he tried to break up with me, but then held my hand and kissed me on the ride. Also i forgot to mention, he was my first time. I grew a unhealthy obsession of him. He emotionally abused me and he manipulated me. I grew so emotionally unstable that i was harm myself by the slightest inconvenience. He would call me horrible names, force me to do stuff for him, and control me. He ended up getting me pregnant and left me. The breakup was so messy, i tried to end game myself. I had to deal with the pregnancy by myself and i ended up having a m!scarr!age. I gotten so depressed but i couldn't help but still love him. I was still so obsessed with him, no matter how badly he hurt me and manipulated me. I would try to find him on social media, i made an account to try to contact him (he blocked me at this time). He told me he failed to realise i was messed up from the start, called me nasty names, but then told me he loved me. I ended up going to the ward for trying to end game myself countless of times and harming myself. It took me 4 years to finally get over him. Currently, I'm in a really great and healthy relationship with an amazing man and he helped me with addictions i developed from the trauma and got me sober, he helped me heal from the trauma, and help me get over J. I haven't taken my antidepressants for months, my severe depression went away and I've been happy about my life. The scars on my body just reminds me that I am a survivor of the most horrible time of my life. Throughout those 4 years, I couldn't bear to listen to this song again, but i finally did and I am glad I did. This healed the very last part of hurt I held onto, and encouraged me to make my story be heard. Thank you for tuning in :)
I will never forget replaying this game without a memory card during the last hurricane that hit NY. I remember just beating the last boss on his story line, and my brother unplugged my gaming console and my game cd somehow got scratched.. As a christian, you gotta admit, Gamma's story is of sacrifice and resonates with the story of christ in a eerrie way. This song hits the feels.
Words are not enough to express my gratitude for this beautiful song. And now that you had made it better, I sincerely thank you for making it better. Have a great day.
