So... No work for 10 years, Mom lost to ALS, having to rehome my cat because, yes, he may be bonded to me but he likes the outdoors more... If these are tests of faith and I'm supposed to be thankful for them, well sorry but I'm not
I am begging you not to trust jesus all you sad and broken hearts. God enjoys your suffering. He is a fraud and a liar. A sinner after his own definition. I am allowed to say this because this is exactly what I experienced, like so many others. I wasted my best years, trusting him with my honest heart while others godless around me received everything. Do some research on Google how many people worldwide hate God and write their storys down in different forums. Misotheism is real. People come to Christ because they are in pain, but this is the beginning of the end. He will give most of them the missing part to complete heartbrake. Whenever a positive testimony comes up, everyone praises the Lord, but totally forgets about those who really got left behind. Gods word in the Bible is manipulative and lying. It is just a thing to keep the dream alive the dream of God helping you when you need it like your Bible says. It is such a joy to read the Bible, but it is not the reality. I had a lot of things when I believed that this was a sign from God or now I have to Holy Spirit or whatever but believe me it is just in your mind. Mostly. Don’t want to judge those to experienced different. But He watched my little heart, trusting him like a good father, and he carefully listen to everything I asked him just to spit in his hands and think yeah I will give you the biggest pain you can . at the end of my trust I was suicidal homeless and full of loss. And notice this was not a test or something. It never turned better. Apart from that a few things cannot wait, just because I got no one has ever seen claims that he has the perfect plan and the perfect timing. “Seek me with all your heart….will find me“ means nothing else but interpretations of „signs“ as such from God, i had a lot such encounters but NOTHING EVER CHANGED, it is all in humans mind, lies to keep the dream and wish alive a loving being takes care of you. WRONG. Jesus absolutely doesn’t love everyone. If you don’t want to take it from me, take it from those who also comment under all the positive Jesus testimonies and more. I brought more effort up than anyone else I know to meet him, but I was not even able to one single little blessing or even an answer when I asked for the truth. After ALL THIS WHAT SO MANY BELIVERS GAVE GOD THEY COULD AT LEAST BE WORTH SOMETHING, A little little mini Blessing. I will not be under his sadism any longer, just death. Thats what i want. Praying 100times a day only made me insane. I got mad trying 100% to speak perfect and feel if God really hears me. Sometimes i think i have hallucinations, asking myself if he is really existing-I wanted to turn away from this world, but I had so many questions and there are 1000 reasons not to believe in his “love”. But no, he is pure sadism he enjoys it people who could have a positive impact in this evil word suffer from Loveness, depression, and loneliness. That gives him comfort. so many people commit suicide every day and he looks away they all do deserve love and warmth. At some point, I asked the devil to show me his kingdom, even if I don’t wanna have something to do with him .but yeah, I’m slowly beginning to think that all this is just existing between my ears. How to avoid hell if you don’t understand? I asked God multiple times what is right in his eyes, but there was an NOTHING. The Bible is manipulative, I had goosebumps every time I read this book because it gave me so much positive hope. But that’s the thing it’s just hope and not reality. Whenever something positive happened in my life, which is not often the case I immediately thanked God. That is who loyal I WAS. Me, but not him. I don’t know why he enjoys to tell us fairytales about his love, but look around and see. One person who got saved by God there come many many more who received nothing. So many believers have everything and get more every day without doing muchfor God. The perfect plan God claims to have, is also one of a lot of excuses, so is also the thing with “test of faith”. In 95% this test rests until you die. I am not a childish guy who is just disappointed in God because he didn’t receive what he prayed for- God lost me because he didn’t even keep the smallest thing. What is the god if he doesn’t want to answer me? I want to learn about him and love him, and he rejects me? Please don’t give me quotes from the Bible. I have read it, and I know what it says. Everyone who reads this comment deserves a home, loving hugs, and mental peace. if you ask spiritual enough, what you should be the other things like money or arguments and forgiveness doesn’t have big impact on you. Thats God. The quiet one. People in Holocaust prayed- not worth saving (?). Someone has a broken heart- God does nothing. At least could give those souls something (like he claims, delivering the heavy loaden what their souls need). Again, wrong. I have the free will but God only helps me if i play his will ? If he doesn’t want to give me the smallest gift in my heart, and i pray him to k*ll me- not even then he responds. Like, it is ok if I don’t get because you willshall be done- but the paint is too big like this so please kill me. Jesus is like “nope, suffer on earth or take your life your own”. Thats so sad. And evil. The devil is not in charge for god ignoring prayers.The “test of faith” is just a lie to keep the dream alive. The dream of what is not real: An answer of God, the knowledge that he IS REALLY THERE and love. He could say yes, you will be happy cause you believe in me. I reward you finally. But he doesn’t. I slowly stop praying. Waste of time and hope. He likes our pain. Anyways- take care and i wish you all the LOVE OF THIS EARTH ❤
Growing up, I witnessed my parents go through these stages. They were married for 52 years before my mother passed away in 2010. They always put god first. If there were any unresolvable issues, they would consult with our religious leader.
You cant be tested for so long.... i can go and move on now... they made me a surrogate. I sleep alone. Ive been to many mental clinics. I have hardly any money and ive walked alone. Ive been isolated for years and ive been a surrogate. When i myself would like to have children. And im humiliated. And facing demons and the devil and been hurt by everyone for years. Its enough now.... ive had enough. I need to move on now
First five I thought you were on to something they seem fairly accurate and logical. Not going to toot my horn and claim my iq is that high, but I definitely love to complain and I'm in mensa.
Amen ❤ praise the lord he is the king and is so good . Dear lord , please protect me and the person watching or reading this comment . Open all the good doors for me and close all the bad ones I trust you with my life heart and everything amen. Praise the Lord.❤
1). I'm chatting to a girl online but I'm asking if she's genuine and if she's the one God wants for me, the circumstances are very awkward because of where she is and my current situation, so I keep saying to myself if it's God's will then I know he can make it happen, I'm asking him to take control of the situation as I have faith and trust in his plan, if it's not meant to be yes I'll be hurt again but it'll be understandable because of the situation, so I wonder if he's being silent for that reason. 2). I'm guessing some of the giants in my life is the project I'm working on as I'm trying to become an indie developer working on a game and I want to create media along with the loneliness I'm facing. 3). A few weeks back, I lost months of my work as I foolishly tried to use some free software called Disk Genius and clone my SSD's because I wanted to perform a dual boot of windows 10 and 11 but I wanted to have plenty of space that's why I got a new m.2 which was faster and double the storage of my previous one, but it was such a hassle as my pc kept on blue screening on or bsod that I couldn't be bothered and ironically I just installed windows 11 on it, I had gotten a faster one and wanted to have my work on it as I was trying to think ahead if I upgraded my motherboard with 2 m.2 ports and or got a powerful enough laptop as Unreal Engine practically needs the power of a star to run it😆, so after I got the SSD, to cut down the story I cloned the main drive I had my main projects on to the new one and cloned my C drive to the old drive my main work was on, but I don't know if it was because I kept getting the bsod and as a result went I opened the epic games launcher it was showing I had no projects, so when I checked my main drive my work was on was blank, I nearly cried but a couple of things helped me, first I luckily had some copies of my work on an external hard drive and I was able to copy that to my main SSD, and second, at first I didn't want to start so much of that work again but then I remembered the story of Job in the bible and I laughed to myself and thought he went through far far far worse, he lost everything, so I was able to pick myself up and continue, all I lost was a few months of work so I tried to recreate what I lost with some of the levels and the metahumans to out went to but it did help me out in the end as I believe I was able to find the reason for the bsod. 4). A few years ago before the pandemic I was trying to become a writer and I thought I got a publisher to help me with my book at the time but I was warned about certain things to look out for one being they shouldn't ask for money upfront which they did so I had to decline their offer, and one of the friends who warned me she's an author herself, I decided to send her my manuscript and the feedback got me to take a break from it, then I heard about the game Bright Memories and about how it was developed by one man, I also heard that he had no programming experience and he used just blueprints and that gave me the courage to have a go as I was just fooling myself with trying to become a author as I have autism and I tend to struggle with reading a lot of text sometimes and I always wanted to become a game developer and create my own media. 5). I've been alone and single for a very long time and it just feels like I won't find anyone as the women in my area often act like Karen's and rejected me like crazy, I've said that you could get probably a hundred or more different programmes like popular cartoons, TV series films, songs ones were one or more characters have a famous catchphrase like bug's bunny saying 'whats up doc,' Homer Simpson said 'Hmm, donuts' or 'D'oh' and every other line him and the others characters said in the Simpsons, every looney toons character say their catchphrase etc, you could play every single episode of each of those media over a billion times and you still wouldn't get close to how many times girls and women rejected me using their favourite catchphrase pulling out their *boyfriend* card like a cartoon character using hammer space to pull something ridiculous like an anvil from their behind, or as ridiculous and as much BS as something like when Abu uses hammer space with the magic lamp in this scene here link ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-GI27mX1BHvk.htmlfeature=shared (but if it's film it has to be a line said multiple times in it and not just once) this also refers back to the end of point 2. 6). I commented so many sins which I'm trying to get away from and it's not to go back, I even felt such anger for so many years as I'm constantly targeted by malicious people and the anger of number 5 which was like trying beat up Bruce Banner and him holding back the other 🟩 guy, from Karen's and their relentless boyfriend cards to other discrimination like with George Floyd, people seeing you 🟫 and having what feels like relentless hatred towards you being in a psychiatric hospital being under a negligent doctor who refused to accept that I have autism and just said he's evil, plus she was probably good friends with the likes of David Duke from the BlacKkKlansman.
Columbus's mistake was more so a tragedy for the American Indians who lived freely off the land before his raping n pillaging ransac invasion. I really wish they'd stop teaching the false history makin' these fools out to be the good guys...n most ppl don't even know the truth! Owell, this still shows just how much making a mistake changes so much in everyone's life thereafter...deep stuff indeed
Why don't you just look at the message that the video is sending instead of going on some rant trying to push your agenda. Also, unless you lived around 1492, you don't exactly what happened. You need to relax. Have a cup of chamomile tea. It's very good and good for your liver.
