My name is Rianne and I make art videos. Sometimes I cover songs and do the illustrations and other times, I post speedpaints. Thankchu all for visiting~! :3
This April 2024 I’ve told one of my closest Aunt that I trust Dearly. That I’ve been Dealing with Anxiety issues & Anorexia since I was a young kid & Teenager. I also have a Disability called Cerebral Palsy.
You know, i always wanted comfort and hated hurt. But then I learned comfort comes after hurting. And now every time I want to feel comforted, I know I have to be hurt first. And the more I hurt the more comfort I will receive. And sometimes there is quite pain inside me that is not obvious to those around me, who could provide comfort. So to make it obvious for them I hurt myself. And the more I hurt the more comfort I gain later. So it gets addictive
I watched this back when I was younger, I didn’t really understand it but sometimes back then I would starve myself every school day and eat after I get back home because I was scared of getting a stomach ache in school. I became skinnier but I was still normal weight. Years later, I started doing that again 2023, stopped, then started to starve myself for another reason, orthorexia. I’m getting better but it’s still suck to me, I haven’t told anybody yet but I will soon to my therapist tomorrow
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥ Not my words Im just passing this around! :) From a stranger on the internet to anybody reading this,I AM SO PROUD OF YOU Don't give up ❤
The brutal paradox of loving someone who is self-destructive is that the person that you love and the one hurting the person you love are the same person. And you can't fight the disease without hurting the host. And you feel so god damned helpless. I've made my friends feel like that sometimes when I self-neglect. And I'm sorry.
I'm obese and it's mainly due to a hormonal disorder and bad genetics. I usually end up eating once a day, I'll feel hungry and just keep putting it off and then I realize it's dinner time and I eat then it's too late in the day to eat anything else. I'm aware of it, but I didn't realize until recently that I was chewing gum to make myself less nauseous when I'm hungry during the day so I'm able to put it off longer. I see and hear people making jokes about overweight people needing to put down forks. It’s dehumanizing to have my struggles be simplified to such a stupid notion that weight is only caused one way. I've always eaten less than my siblings who are nowhere near my weight. It's so frustrating and I just want to scream.
RU-vid's hitting personal now. 😅 But seriously, I wish it was as simple as just *choosing* to eat. With ARFID, I never know for sure if my body will reject the food. I'm at the point where I'm seriously considering getting a feeding tube implanted, but that comes with its own problems.
I understand that. We also wish it was as simple as telling people to eat and them deciding to eat. But unfortunately, not all of us are doctors and not all of us know how to directly help other than remind our loved ones to "please eat". Because that's the only way we know how. I hope good things come your way and your situation gets better <3
Sorry for my English. 2 years ago i watched how my younger sister daying becouse she didnt want to eat. It was terrible pain for me, my family. No metter what i talked she didnt understand what happening with her and still starved yourself. God saved her and she s still with me, i m thankful. Hallelujah! But i just want to say every one of you who doesnt want to eat - please eat. You' re hurting us. We want you here. God bless you all my dearest.
Over six years ago my boyfriend at the time sent this to me in an attempt to stop me from being anorexic. I started to not eat as much lately and went through a breakup and the fact this song showed up is sweetly strange.
As someone who’s been restricting an insane amount lately, this hit a place I did NOT expect it to, I literally just started crying… job VERY well done
I like this video. I like this song, and the art that goes with it. I myself am a masculine aligned nonbinary individual and I have ARFID, and this song is vague enough that I have something to relate to, as well as your characterization. Well done.
My friend sent this to me a few days ago. She's had the same ED as.me but she's older and is trying to explain the long time health affects. I dont know. I want to care but I can't bring myself to
As a 13 Year old Trans female this song really made me sad and one of my new friends told me about nicole and I really thank her for that In July-October when my bmi was as low as 11 I really should of known this song, It would help me, Because my mind was gone, It was hard and tiring to walk and my whole life revolved about how skeletal I was and calories, But I was ‘Never skinny enough’ I almost died In September due to my anorexia getting so bad and I looked like an actual skeleton, (30.5-31.5kg 161cm) And people were laughing at me and Some people were shocked about how skinny I was. But on September 26, My mom told me She would take me to hospital her self if a carried on like this, so then I started binging EVERY DAY for 6 Months and I really fucking hated my life and often wanted to die because of my extremely low self esteem. Now I am 60-70kg and I really hate my body, But I am Sadly ‘Happily’ Out of my binging phase and I am in control and can finally start starving and not binging again. In December 2019 I was 27-28kg at almost 150cm and i Had to be TUBE FED, Which was so mentally and kinda physically painful, And i wanred to throw up in the toilet, But they locked it for 1 Hour after I had each fortisip. Then I was in a mental hospital for 3-4 Months, It was the HARDEST TIME OF MY LIFE. And some of the other children there were very nice. So please if you can, DO NOT STARVE YOURSELF. It is very dangerous and you can even DIE. And the hospital was so fucking painful No matter who you are or what you look like, YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND PRETTY, Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise ❤️ And I have a transphobic dad who doesn’t accept me as a girl sadly, And he makes my life harder
@@stranger592 Hello, thank you for wondering how I am doing! I am 15 now, and I still have cycles in which I bige and restrict, and I still feel uncomfortable about my weight and want to lose weight.
@@iesroo idk why but our stories are so similar and Im sorry you still feel that way. I know just one single comment from a random person on the internet doesn't really change anything when you've been feeling that way for years but food is necessary for you to live, and I want you to live even if you don't. We don't know each other but I hope you know that you're worthy of love and affection regardless of how much you weigh. You deserve to take up space and eat what you wanna eat. Eating doesn't kill you but not eating does. I hope you feel better someday <3
i have a friend named isabelle and i swear she has anorexia she refuses to eat and never feels hungry and she passed out a couple of days ago because she didnt eat for three days and i almost cry listening to this
I’m pretty sure I heard that at some point of starvation your body starts to eat itself for food it’s been denied. I never had a starving problem myself. Food is so yummy I can’t resist the flavor of it for too long. My problem is that food is too yummy it’s hard to resist. Yet remembering that my body will eat itself before completely starving is scarier to know. The lengths bodies will go to hang in there is impressive and scary. I really hope everyone with an eating disorder gets help and recovers. This animation is so cute and the song so sad but I can’t help but listen to it sometimes now that I found it.
This animation is so beautiful!! It means a lot to me and many others. You're amazing and tysm <3 Also, does the bunny have some certain meaning to it? I could just be overthinking it, but I'm just curious if there was one ^^'
I thought this might have been for anorexia and I wanna inform people that anorexia is NOT just you dont like eating myself and many others love eating but sometimes we dont enjoy the food or the interest is lost in it and all sorts of things! Yes anorexia is sometimes "I need to be skinny and perfect" but other times its "yes I like food but I lost interest in it". *TAKE IT FROM ME DONT START STARVING YOURSELF CAUSE ONCE YOU START YOU DONT WANNA STOP!*
I feel that the worst part of anorexia is the fact that it stops hurting after a while. And eventually, no one notices how skinny you've gotten. And your bones start to become so noticeable. And the saddest part is it's almost like you can't stop. You eat when someone forces you but later you know it'll hurt you. No one understands why you do it or where it came from. And all you can see yourself as is ugly and fat. But for me when I look at my body even with how skinny I am, I still see or believe I’m ugly and fat. And yet no one has really stopped me or even noticed it. And sometimes I don't even mean to not eat, I just don't in the end. But I really like this video and art it's beautiful and the song is really nice to listen to.
You don't need to eat big portions, a spoonful is a big leap from where you are now. Start small, then build up from there. With the support of both your doctors and parents, you'll be able to beat this illness. I believe in you!
