Man i love you so much, your story always touches me because I suffer from loneliness and depression, I even feel like I don't exist in this life... but compared to your story, I feel like you've seen more hard times than I have, so I hope to be as strong as you and be in a better place one day, thanks
When did he say he wanted clout? He made his channel to help those that are in his position he was 30 years ago. And clearly you haven't seen his in depth videos, TED talk, or anything related because his story was not one that he could have just made up.
I cried when I listened to your talk. You are a great person. Blessings to u and your beautiful family. Blessings to your friend who helped u in your time of need. Live long and prosper my brother.
GIGACHAD 🗿👑 Hey, you should bring that true friend of yours to your videos sometimes. You and him are our inspiration to be true bros and true friends, and ofc being a nice person. I wish you and your family and your friend a happy long life. Keep going ahead 🗿
Yeah I just had my final nail in the coffin. Your talks are a flame in the darkness for some of us. I would have paid a millions to speak to someone who had gone through it like I did, but I am glad I heard it.
Hey, Aaron. I found your story from Jordan Peterson's podcast. You don't have to respond, but I am very glad you shared that. It hit really, really close to home for me. I know you get that a lot as have I, but really it did. I am 20. When I got out of it, I was 18. However, no one believed me nor did anyone I talked to understand me. It was always that group you talked about that relished in the rebellion sort of deal. There are a lot of us in the dark who need to hear your story, and I'm sure you know this but what you said really helped. I have never had someone to be able to relate to nor have someone on the internet be so real. There where so many parts of your story, though having variation of course, happened to me. I have never heard someone go through the same thing. It is honestly really spooky. I don't even know where to begin, I am absolutely flabbergasted. You speaking about this is very brave, and you need to keep being as honest as possible because you are saving lives right now. I genuinely thought I would never find someone who I could relate too, thank you.
I am also really happy to hear what's going on with your life now. You deserve it man. I honestly, don't think I will be alive much longer. I have been ravaged by PTSD and memory loss. As of late I have, as you spoke of, embodied that hatred I had for myself. For me, I was like you said in that mode or what not during the tribulation. However, as soon as I left home, it was like a nuclear fallout. It is so crazy to hear about you being into books, arts, and intellect, I was sort of the same, but when I left home, it was like my identity stayed with it. Since then, I have been very blessed, but I have ruined all my relationships. I had never really left home all that often and got bullied at school harshly for being fat and stinky, and same clothes that didn't fit. So, since I was born, we had also moved constantly. I had adapted to the constant cycle of wake up to screaming, people overdosed on the floor, beating, go to school and be beat bullied there, go home and be tortured, repeat. So, when I left, I just kept struggling to fit in with the moving world for more than a few weeks before I broke character.
I usually just troll or express different personalities or what not online, it doesn't feel real to me and I just don't care, but holy nuts you fucking listed out some things in my life that no one ever has. -You said this one thing, something like. You were playing games, mom's getting beat, defend mom, she attacks you, then go back to playing like nothing happened. Or get told there going to do something crazy to you then go back like nothing happened. -> Dude, I kid you not that was how it was for me. I would play my games, mom/dad busts open my door, something fucking crazy happens, then go back to playing video games after or day after. I could go on and on, but it is difficult to talk about. -You said, you finally decided to get help and they brought your mom it. -> Dude, children services would be around when I was younger and I go the whole, they are trying to break us, there evil, don't let anyone talk to you like that, dont tell them what happens, ect, ect and we always avoided them or my mom would lie about it. When I was 16 I reached out and told them everything that happened in detail as much as I could. Then they would come and talk to my mom and be fooled. I usually slept on the floor with piss and rats and ect, but before they came she would pay someone to clean it all. There's more. -I could go on and on about the things you said and how similar it was. This is nuts. There are like 20 more points of the top of my head, I am not trying to say im like you, but holy shit I have never found someone even close to the similarity! Let alone spell out points in my life like wtf.
These past weeks, I quit my job and just gave into all my addictions, Porn, Junk Food, Lazy everything. I just accepted that was me, because I am struggling to remember my life everyday, and I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. This past week I have been cutting my arms everyday trying to slit my wrist and procrastating. I recently learned about the Juglar Vain and I was about to cut that but I found your story. I believe in Christianity, and knew I was going to hell, but I knew I deserved it, but also I would have to give an account and I would see my whole life, and thats what I want, I want to know I wasnt crazy and that it really did happen. But then I heard your story and now I know someone who understands. I am probley still going to kill myself today becuase I have ruined everything unless I can go to prison and just be able to sit there and be fed. But this was very valuable to me. I also knew three women before I left that where going to simlar things but I had to leave, man if they heard your story it would be insane. I wish I could help them like you helped me.
I still can't get over how similar what you said was to my life, and the fact that you didnt do what your parents did as in crack and drinking because you couldn't understand why, dude What The Fuck, That is latterly what I did. Like we have to talk man, I will honestly pro long my death a day to wait, I think you might be dumbfounded too. This is nuts.
Hey there, I randomly found your channel and recognized you from the Ted talk video. I just wanna tell you that your story is just so inspirational and I'm so happy you're still around here, inspiring everyone. The world needs more people like you!
40 nor 50 should be mid life crisis! Start detoxing, do some fasting, start working out at home... You CAN do this! Notice you made it through these past 4 years... Who would've thought we would be getting shut down 4 yrs ago now!
Hi Aaron, just saw your interview on Jordan Peterson, and just wanted to tell you how much I got inspired by who you are today after growing up like that. Please continue to show vlogs like this about your life so we could continue to see the way you continue to live bright and loving life despite going through the darkest series of shit. Side note, hope someday we could see mike on your channel too!
Hey man, where can I get info on cost for you to come speak at my local schools? I’d love for you to come and want to pitch to the school boards about setting up a time to have you come talk. Your message is a powerful one that I feel every kid needs to hear.
Thankyou for sharing your story. Thankyou for modeling healthy boundaries (I watched the Jordan Peterson episode before this). Thankyou for the example of acknowledgement. I will need to keep that idea in mind.
I saw your ted talk video, then I saw your comment on said video, and now I'm here. Glad to see how much your life has turned around! It makes me happy to see that you've been taking care of yourself and inspires me to do better because you did. People like you make me feel like I can do anything. Thank you for exisiting.
Hi, maybe a dumb question, but i'm just curious. You said you were listening to heavy metal in your teens, what were your favorite bands back then and do you still listen to it and like it now?
Back then it was Manson, NIN, Pantera, TOOL. Now mostly NIN and TOOL and Slipknot, not a big fan of manson or of Phil from Pantera lol But yeah I still love metal.
@@aaronstarkauthor some solid bands. I still personally listen to Manson despite the stuff that has been brought to light the last couple of years. I try to seperate the art from the artist the best i can, but thanks for the reply dude!
I want to give you a million hugs. And Mike too. God’s abundant blessings are upon you. Thank you for receiving them and then passing them on to future generations. 🙏🏻
hey man, i just seen ur ted talk speech, i want to do one and my school is organising a ted talk, what are some tips to get over the fear of speaking to a crowd. Ur story is truly inspiring and the courage it took you to get up there and talk about your story is so incredible, and i want to know what it took you to gain that courage, thanks. Much love and support here!
Hi Aaron, I've been following these videos for a while now, after hearing about your story a couple years back. There were aspects I could relate to in my own life and took me out of a dark period. Real grateful for the work you do
Hey Aaron. I was considered a threat to others via assessments such as the "Threat Risk Assessment TRA" through the school system and frequently isolated from other kids as young as 10 years old. I have never committed an act of violence in my life. More often than not, i was disrupting our lessons by making the entire class laugh. They used my recreational interests in the macabre and the supernatural in order to help categorize me and my words as threats of violence. I know I'm not the only one, our kids are being raped in all manner but literally. I don't know if you're aware of this, but thank you for your service to society.
i got to know you through jordan peterson's interview with you. I have obviously not lived through anything close to what you've gone through, but i struggle with alcohol addiction and your story and the way you share gives me hope. Thank you so much for your candidness. Really, thank yo. Know that you're helping so many people with your story, and we can't thank you enough
Hey Aaron, i know the question of worthfulness in my own life. Its a question i couldnt find a definitive convincing answer to. I couldnt until i really got to know God. It might be a strange comment but i want to share it because it gave me soo much. Becasue of my faith im certain about my value and that im worthy. Its an amazing feeling and i hope that you can find it aswell. Good luck to you with your depression. I wish you all the best.
<3 I just was watching you on Mr. Peterson, and man do I have so much respect for you!!!! you are such a beautiful warrior person, I probably went through 20% of what you did, and honestly I dont think I would have been able to handle more, neglect is the worst nightmare... I have soooo much absolute respect for you, you are a very cool amazing person, and im so happy you are finding love and belonging, you are loved and you belong!!!!! mad respects man! ^+^ +1 subscriber and absolute supporter!
Thank you, for your words and being brave enough to share. I can relate in my own way, and you have given me new tools to fight my own struggles. Thank you kind sir.
