Makes me think about sitting on the beach side In Ambergris caye during the Covid-19 BS looking at the waves crashing into the reef asking mylife is this it…why….😞
This song is heartbreaking for me in a specific way… it reminds me of all my childhood memories and the fact I can never return. Specifically a memory of Toys “Я” Us and my state of depression I fell into when I heard it would close for good…. As a child, I was very imaginative and happy. I was autistic and most of my life was very sad due to mood swings. I did things to distract me from the harsh days of school. Sometimes I would draw animals. I loved all of my plushies of animals too. But Most of all, I loved my plush giraffe from the Dallas Zoo. The first plush I ever remember having and the 2nd one I had in my life. I loved Geoffrey the giraffe the most. Whenever I didn’t have Chuck-E-Cheese, Video Games, or Disney World, Toys “Я” us was a place to distract me from the horrors of school, and other things. Unfortunately, as a kid, I went to Toys “Я” Us only ONCE in my entire life before it closed for good in my country (The USA). I was in pieces distraught at the news… I only had time to buy ONE SINGLE TOY from the store before I heard the news it was closed for good a few weeks later… Now I imagine the ghosts of the toys wishing they were bought, roaming around, wandering, hoping someone will end their misery…. I guess I just had to grow up. No one can stay a Toys “Я” Us kid forever…. Goodbye to the carefree days… goodbye to life constantly being an adventure, goodbye to sharing laughter while we played…. Goodbye to times when my innocence never died…. Goodbye to my times without depressing crying fits in my room, I will remember the simpler days and miss them dearly…. EDIT: I’m all fine, I just get moody when writing about this stuff. No need to call a helpline or anything. I have no wishes to K!LL myself with a n00se G*n or anything like that.
We're all here for everyone else. We love everyone here. It's ok man.. Things were great back then, you've gone through some rough patches.. believe me... rough.. But things will get better. Keep pressing on. Respect those who deserve respect, they'll show it back to you. Keep doing what you love. You got this.
