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I work in a warehouse for a major nonprofit, I have no choice, I have3 yrs until retirement, everything hurts all the time, back, hips, arms wrists, they say of it's only 40 pounds lol, I wish it was that, I hate my job, but it pays well and unless it kills me, I can stand it for a couple years
I get a thing called agitated depression where I don’t sleep well with insomnia and feel agitated with how low I feel and don’t know where to go or what to do. It gets scary because I get so low in mood
You are a handsome, young and smart man. As the other post suggested, try to change the first ten minutes of your day. Take a pen and paper and every day add something you like to see in your life.
No working with your father is NOT the end of the world. Holy Lord, you are still so young. You are young, smart, well spoken🌹🌹. Try to find a job cleaning at the hospital or a trade college. You are still very young and you are very smart🌹🌹.
I'm 19 and I feel the exact same way in a somewhat similar situation. Trust me, a lot more people feel pathetic about this situation than you think like holy fruck. Not on you though. Stay safe. These feelings usually arise when I'm just getting out of bed. I haven't found a way to deal with them, but I think it might be a new norm. oh no. I think this is not only a you problem, but anyone would say that. Don't take my word for it, but I think this is a systemic problem I believe, associated with Maslow's hierarchy of needs. All the doomers and gooners and perhaps groomers are literally the worst aspects of society in terms of these needs not being met. L + ratio? Yeah I guess, but just remember that, for now. Also, one self-quote of mine that applied to me when it came to loneliness. I'm not you, but maybe this is for you to see for yourself if it applies the same: *"Many people don't have their loneliness satiated because they don't help satiate others'."* And yeah, we're doomed. *_Guitar rift_* (edit: I still struggle with loneliness as of writing this. But I touched based with someone on discord. Perhaps it'll go somewhere)
Hey, how’s it going, just passing by to let you know you’re not alone, there are many of us, you are not fighting this alone. Hang in there, I can relate to all you’ve said, stay strong. Peace
The best way to deal with depression is sit out in the sun more read books 📚 if that’s what you like not sit in the dark to long and don’t worry about what other people think about you I no how you feel I’m autistic it’s just as hard for me than it is you
Life is what we want to be, do or have. We can change it anytime. Not what others want to be, do or have. Be aware that now the environment is getting complicated and complex. It means it is now difficult to maintain good relationships, it means those you think they are your friends are not your friends over time, those that are your friends will abandon you when they have other interests like marriage. Those you think they can help you are not permanent helpers like your father. Like Groucho Marx once said, “marriage is a three ring circus, engagement ring, wedding ring, suffering. Let me ask you a question. Have you ever dream of putting all your effort, finance and time to get married to exchange for endless daily problems and stress that will provide you with health problems and reward you with a shorter life here on earth? Things are different these days. The best way of life is to remain single and live alone. Know that your best friend is always with you anywhere you are at any time. USE your third resource always. It is the god that resides in your heart and genes. It is in the form of pure energy. It is very loving and friendly and without any religion. Treat it as your best friend. Go to a quiet space or room, sit comfortably and close your eyes, do not move. In your mind call out to it from within you and keep repeating for a few minutes and in your mind let it know what your problems are and ask for assistance. Do it as if you are in a therapy or in a meditation session. It response in many different ways, like create coincidences for you, creat unexpected good news for you, but you will know and recognise when it respond. For example you may find yourself surfing u tube videos and you do not know why until much later. This god in us told the author, Neale Donald Walsch, “when you love yourself, you are loving me, when you embrace yourself, you are embracing me.” So do not forget to love yourself always regardless what you experience in your current life. Should you decide to accept the god within you as your best friend, your whole life will start changing for the better. 😊🎉 ,
It's liberating once you realize all you'll ever have is yourself. Your dream of finding someone who understands you, well, they will die, most likely before you do. You'll then be left with yourself again. Accept yourself so you're not relying on other people to accept you. It's obvious what you're struggling with, surgery can't fix it, it's not the most important thing in the world. Let it go and get some sun, breathe, stop fighting against the universe. It will all lead you back here anyways, no matter how hard we all try.
Never be sorry man, it's not your fault but it's your trash parents fault for creating you without your consent. I HATE my parents for creating me and putting me in this existence when life is TERRIBLE. Don't let any of these rich people or ''happy'' people fool you in thinking life is ''amazing'' when it's not. They are all fake and they are all drug addicts or just acting that way. Even lots of rich people and celebrities self commit delete themselves. This is why I'm an Antinatalist and people need to stop having kids. Nothing will get better and don't repeat this meaningless cycle of SUFFERING. 💯
Brandon, Great to see you again! Blessings to you and your family. Wishing the best for you! You're going to go far with your life. Peace may abound for you. Take Care of yourself Brian God Bless
God bless you. You seem like a thoughtful and kind young man. Value yourself. You deserve it. Put yourself out there and fake it until you make it! Reach out to your dad. Reach a peace. He and you may never see it eye to eye but be the person you want to be. Join an exercise club or other club. Put yourself out there. It will happen. You will find your people. It takes time.
Watch Rocky. I'd never seen it until recently and had written it off as hokey but it really struck a chord with me. Rocky lives in a similar lonely situation in the movie but he triumphs in the end. It really made me get out of my funk and start weight lifting again. I know a movie recommendation isn't a very insightful comment but genuinely it's an uplifting one. Take care.
If you wanna talk, we can trade discords or something. Im currently in a shift of habits to improve myself bc I hit a rock bottom mentally a couple months ago. I felt when you said that you don’t have the best role models. I love talking things out and sharing goals and achievements and supporting so if you wanna talk lemme know. If not, I hope everything turns for the better for you. There has to be a storm before the rainbow. Metaphorically and literally lmao
I know what you mean man the 90's JOCKo Willinic has too much meat on his head being an 👽 Super Soldier to care about us pin heads without screaming PUUUUSHUP 2...3....4 and Mr JorDADian Peterson just cries .. and calls us Lobsters 🦞 ... its a cruel world.. sucha cruel whirld ... these privileged turquoise people ... ga dang.... sigh 😣
Sometimes you have too keep your head down and take whats given to you . When you do things that promises you made too yourself start with something small go with consider what to do and keep asking for help.(Light)
Hey, so just know you aren't alone in this there are many people that face a similar situation and feel the same way! It's just about finding that right group of people. But if i may give some advice from my story, i struggled with depression and anxiety most of my life and when i became physically ill, i had a whole new perspective on life, when i used to not want to be alive. When you realize your time is limited, you want to be able to enjoy your time. It's about being able to see your life as beautiful even if it seems hopeless and finding ways to slowly overcome the feelings of helplessness step by step. I wish you the best of luck!
Hey, I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling. Seems you’re wanting to change and grow given you’re sharing. I went through major depression from like 16-22 and didn’t feel “normal” until I was late 20s and a lot of self work. Even in my 30s it was still hard but way easier . Negative times can linger but it’s still possible to live pretty well. Main thing I realize now is , I shouldn’t have blamed myself at the time so much and focused more on myself and my needs vs self blaming … also should have focused more on healthy living and also finding a good therapist vs spending time with toxic friends and smoking etc. I’ve also realized friends even when healthy are hard to find. If you can find an activity outdoors where you’re able to chat with others that will really help, or some easy job that you’re able to get some interaction. After my depression I went back to college and worked an easy job for a year … so was easier to relearn stuff as I felt so out of society and get momentum. Now I like surfing a lot since it’s sort of social and in nature and helps to get out of head. Nature is really healing. Doing something creative or engaging with art also helps a lot, or whatever is something you feel is you . One other tip I’ve learned is : listen to what you are saying like you would another person .. then think what youd tell that person You keep saying you want more social interaction but also that you’re tired of waiting and you want to do things for you. What’s cool is you are actually doing it by making some videos so you’re changing. The pressure to be a “man” is real and is messed up in some ways . But seems you’re past caring about that in a sense which I think is healthy. I have a good career and marriage now and honestly social pressure is always there in some ways … often work is way too much and feel draining and life often is lonely .. but as get older realize I can be pretty happy doing things I enjoy and have authentic meaning to me and it’s empowering. If you can live with family some to get back on feet that can be a real gift so long as it’s not making things worse. I had to do that and many people men and women have .. I don’t think women are necessarily that different. Anyway, your vid resonated with me and reminds me of younger self. Hope you can hang in there as things will get better. If ever need a chat just message.
I feel you. I used to have a pretty big friend group. I used to be pretty social. Too many bad relationships and betrayals made me a hermit lol. Now i just go to work to push through it and go back home. Work is the only time I'm out of the house, when I'm home i just hang out with my dog and play video games cuz the contemporary violence makes up for the lack of adventure in my life lol
Thanks for opening up, its not easy but youre not alone. Your feelings are heard by many. Youre helping People by showing your real self its precious. Dont feel ashamed to be honest and for needing human connection its only normal. I wish you the very Best
