This is such brilliant writing. I get that she's describing a psychotic episode or something along those lines, but it eerily sounds like she's describing a sudden awareness that she's surrounded by video game characters.
@@tarvoc746 She has a dissociative identity disorder and in this case it caused her to act a violently because she wasn't in full control of her actions basically she like went on autopilot and when you add her stress to that she didn't know how else to react.
@@theproffessional9 I wasn't trying to diagnose Mae, I'm not a psychiatrist. My point is that her dialogue can be read in two different ways precisely because it's presented to us as part of a video game. In my case, the dialogue actually did kick me out of the immersion for a moment. I was like: "Holy shit, that's what I'm doing right now, I'm just looking at shapes!" - I think this reading is further backed up by the fact that she herself starts having this experience for the first time while playing a video game.
i love this game so much. i love the characters interactions with eschother and the world they live in and how everyone struggles and deals with problems differently and the art style and the atmosphere everything in this game is perfect i desperately wish for more content related to it
@@theproffessional9 the khajits do not hate elves LOL in fact they are their allies. rest assured that it is more likely to see a khajit beating up a human than an elf of course if we talk about a strong khajit of course because they are at the same level of physical strength as elves and humans the elves in the elder scrolls are not like those in the lord of the rings. the altmer and dunmer at the level of physical strength are at the same level as an imperial or breton (another myth that the community invented is that the dunmer are stronger than the altmer this is false they are only more agile and that is the only advantage they have in physical strength they are equal) the races that are physically stronger in the lore are the nordics, redguards, orcs. The type of Khajit we play with (the Cathay) do not stand out in strength, they stand out in stealth more than anything and the extra damage is due to their claws, not their physical strength.
Nate could hate him hard, but can choose not too. Captain Zao could choose to hate him as well but cannot do so after going through that for 200 Years.
I've been thinking about this problem I've been having for years where everything just feels fake and I remembered this game from years prior and... Wow. This describes my experience pretty well. Except it's not that way with people, I think. I see people like I'm supposed to and some animals and stuff too, but with everything else, it's different. It's like there's this fog that's in front of me all the time and it makes nothing feel real. Everything is static, or if it's not, it just feels like some set piece. It's like someone put it there and it just acts the way it's supposed to. Like a prop in a video game. And sometimes, I just want to break it open to confirm that it's real. If I lived alone, I'd have stab holes in all the cupboards and walls just to confirm that they really exist and there's stuff there. It's almost every object. The walls, the chairs, the trees, the grass. It feels like I could just walk over and touch it, but it's nothing but plastic.
Nate: Yea, you know I'm really pissed off about my son being taken from me, but you nuked the US like 200 years ago and that doesn't both me at all. Everyone: Seriously?
There is nothing to plunder here... except for thousands of pounds of steel, lead, precious metals, missiles, computers, screens, and other miscellaneous items. 💀
I only found out recently that Khajiit's unarmed claws actually do more damage than the Argonian's claws. I figured they would have been the same, but it appears the devs gave the edge to the Khajiit!!
Most important message in that dialogue to all psychologically ill people : You are gonna make it. As someone with a psychological disorder and someone who is going to be a psychiatrist i can confirm.
seeing other people in these comments struggle with this makes me feel a lot less alone. i didn't even know it was something people considered themselves to "struggle with". i just thought i had been granted a glimpse beyond the veil of reality and now i had to spend the rest of my life living with eldritch knowledge not meant for man to comprehend. but it's like, yeah, maybe we're NOT meant to think like this. maybe you're supposed to be able to take some stuff for granted, view some things as more than just the shapes they're made out of, because otherwise what even is life.
Zao's fate was worse, than death. He suffered for 200 years, very, very much, saw all of his crew turn in bunch of ferals. I am surprised he is still sane. I don't say he didn't deserve it, but still. And now he wants to go back to China, he knows China is also destroyed by the American nukes, but he has no hate, anger for this. Just a desire to do something good for his homeland. Most of all i blame corrupt governments, pursuing their selfish goals and not giving a shit about the world, such as American and Chinese, and filthy, corrupt corporations such as Vault Tec. Those bastards are much more responsible for the apocalypse and suffering. I let Zao go, he already paid for his crimes.
This year, I was a junior in high school, and I had the exact same feeling Mae had, and for long periods of time too. It was terrifying looking back on it. I couldn't get anything done and I had this crippling sensation that I wasn't real and that in fact nothing was real and that everything was just a construct in my head, something my brain couldn't compute anymore. I didn't really talk about it to anyone except my long distance girlfriend who couldn't help me and it was honestly kind of hell, almost made me burn out and fail my year. I hope that if I get that feeling again, I'll talk to someone about it. but it's always kind of hard to know how I'll be reacting during one of those epsiodes, so I'll just pray for me to have the good reflex I guess
The story of Captain Zao, just like that of any other pre-war military ghoul is sad. The navy he served in doesn't exist anymore and the country he fought for is long gone. He has been stuck on his submarine for 200 years, forced to watch his crew turn into drooling zombies. Every time he looks through the periscope he sees the devastation brought by the war and he is torn by guilt of having taken part in the destruction of the world. He has no idea what happened to his homeland and his family, all he wants is to go home, find the truth and die peacefully. The war is over.
