A very sweet representation of bitterness, grief and yet... peace. Like I'm lost in this world. And will always be. I don't belong here. But I'm at peace cuz I'm saved by His grace. I just need to... endure it. Endure the weight of this world
Perdieron la fe los de Jerusalén? Si Dios quiere vivire como Matusalen El Padre solo nos pidió nunca lo olviden El Creador es uno solo como no lo ven Satanas me tiene miedo , le puse a correr Le obligaron a mis negros a una nueva fe Pero el desierto en la cueva el ángel Gabriel Le ha recordado al mundo como debe ser Millonario o vagabundo sométete En este mundo de mentira soy E.T
Two days ago was my college wide celebration for the end of the semester, everybody was partying and everybody got really drunk. Including me. It’s been a rough go for me at college, the work has been too much and there’s a lot of shitty people at my college who’ve tried to hurt my friends, so it’s been tough. I’ve constantly been thinking if this will all be worth it in the end. At this party, I was feeling pretty shitty because of how tough these last two years have been. My friend noticed, and he asked if I was ok. “At the end of last year, I said I needed a break. It’s been a whole ‘nother year Ian, and I’m still waiting for that fucking break”. After I said that, I cried more than I’ve cried in my entire life. This song makes me think of that exact moment
With all of the noise and chaos in my mind, this really kept me centered.... Aphex Twin saved me from my mental turmoil and I'm grateful to be here to this day.
This music is how I feel when the emptiness and meaninglessness of life take over. So I go outside in the forest, accompanied by the sinister greynessbut, knowing that I'll remain alone, in my sadness castle...
I had a dream last night. I was sat in an exam hall with an around 100 people. She was sitting next to me. I apologised for everything. She smiled at me and said it’s all going to be okay. She started crying. The hall started to flood from her tears. I kept trying to say sorry but she wouldn’t stop crying. But she wasn’t sad. She was happy. Then we all started drowning. I then woke up from the drowning and was in a playground - swinging on a swing. I hope you are out there. Take care
