Joyce Schaffer || 17 || from the Netherlands || addicted to vampire diaries and making vids || favourite couples are Damon/Elena and Emma/Hook || i love to make videos for people, just aks me! 1K: 1/06/2017
I remember from dating Sean is that love can go to waste and it burns and crashes and besides love is weakness from all of the pain and grief and heartache and bing heartbroken like you feel very numb and depressed that's how I felt I don't get any nightmares anymore and sometimes I still few nightmares about what happened in my past and all the flashbacks I've been getting recently and it took me hours to move on and not obsessing about it anymore
I think the hardest part is when you love somebody so much that there is not a thing that you wouldn't do for that person or thing you wouldn't give up for them but ultimately you find out you mean nothing to them.
Currently crying over this right now.. every lyric hits home in a way that makes me feel like I’m not alone and that it’s made for me. Another song to add to the list that’s ever made me feel like this.
I just made it out of hospital for someone that I trusted and he almost killed me with a mix of street drugs he had mixed up and made me take and 3 different type and then made it seem like I do drugs I'm on probation and take drug test and they never found anything of those drugs in my surprise drug test or classes I went to once a week. He said I was I tried overdosing myself with my own meds that I been taking and they drug screen said no it was a mix of fenny and heroin and percocet and benzons he stole from my prescription bottle. Then I went into shock and was overdosing he lost it and had to call 911 and they told him to take all diamonds off and anything jewelry so if we would have to shock her it could do more damage. Well here he left with my jewelry and money and they made him walk home good I was on life support ventilator and shocked me 6 times and gave me narcan and still none responsive so I rush to hospital and breast bone was fracture from cpr. They put me in coma bc I was not in responding. He didn't tell my daughter or family members or a friend to call them and let them know I'm up and down and we might have to fly me to another hospital not looking good at all. 5 days and nights go by I final out of coma and still on ventilator and stuff and could not feel my right side of my body I could write down who and what I remember my daughter lost it and they said we r surprise to see her write a little bit he told ppl I'm a drug addict lol. False negative news buddy u r they one that beat me up before we went in front of a PFA HEARING AND THAT WAS THE MORNING WAS AT 930A.M ON THE 10TH TO GET IT FINALIZED BUT I END UP IN HOSPITAL U FOUND ME OVERDOSING AND WAITED ANOTHER HOUR AND SAID I WAS FIME IT WAS A SMALL GRAMDMA SEIZURE BC I SUFFER FROM THEM AND U WAITED TO SEE ME BLUE AND DEAD NO OXYGEN OR BLOOD TO BRAIN AND HEART NOT MAKING SENSE U DIDNT WANT ME TO GO TONTHAT HEARING SO U TRIED TO KI//ME SORRY IM A WALKING MIRACLE BC I HAD THE AMOUNT THAT I SHOULD BE DEAD AND OR IN AN AFTER CARE HOME FOR GOOD IM ONLY 42 YRS OLD I HAVE LIFE LEFT IM WORKING HARD TO GET MY RIGHT SIDE STABLE AND MOVING AGAIN N HOPEFULLY I WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL TAKES TIME THEY SAID. BUT PLEASE PEOPLE GET HELP IF U R IN AN UNSTABLE OR A CONTROLLING RELATIONSHIP WITH AN ABUSIVE MAN OR WOMAN AND REMEMBER DON'T FEEL PITTY FOR THEM THEY ARE THE CAUSE OF THE MATTER AND WATCH FOR RED FLAGS IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN AND MAYBE IN MY CASE ALMOST DEATH BED. THERE IS HELP DONT BE AFRAID TO WALK OR RUN AWAY FROM IT KEEP YR HEAD UP AND GET YRSELF HELP AND FOLLOW THRU AND SHOW THAT U R NOT GOING TO ANOTHER VICTIM OF THEIR SICK TWISTED MIND GET OUT WHEN U CAN.
I am the girl behind the mask. And it's killing me day by day this insecurities, fear of people looking at me the way I look at myself. People realizing I am nothing but a sad soul. I really can't remember the last time I was happy wholeheartedly. Pretending around people like I am. No one noticing that this girl is dying day by day. Always being in my room whole day, with the constant fear of people hating me for the way I am.
Idk if I want to continue or get help. I want to skate and go to prom and graduate and see my favorite band in concert and I might lose all that if I keep going but.. Idk I just feel too scared to ask for help because i have to eat so much more
I used to watch this while wondering why I didn't had parents that get worried about you like the ones she have. 4 years in this sh*t and they never even realized. Damn
I am since 5 years and they did not know! Do you realize what is sad is that I once told them and talked to them about mental illness and I mentioned eating disorders and even after that they did not know! Although my loss of 8 kg
I wish no one will ever know the feeling of letting the love of your life go. because it take times to know that the person is the love of your life. Mine, we were together for 4 years, and she has been gone for 9 years, and still she never left my mind.
I got trust issues because all the betrayal last relationship I got bullied someone record me to get my reaction so it was tough so it very hard now when I meeet someone new idk I can’t trust them
It's so emotional and well scripted in the movies and TV, but in real life the lying, cheating, backstabbing and such tend to make relationships impossible.
he made you to fall in love with him and when you fallen and later he made you to let go off him . He did everything but why my heart is breaking and wanted to tear and smash it. Lord I'm feeling so terrible and waiting for this to stop 👍
