thank you for sharing your personal story. it is very beneficial to understand teh details of the practice. we often forget that behind every practice, it has a personal story to the path. when we start the journey, we think everything is cosmic . once we know the definition of enlightenment. then we cut through so many unnecessary steps and wasted so much time on non meaningful activities. nothing goes to waste. all these unnecessary steps make us wiser because we walked that path and we will be able to offer advice. it definitely improves my understanding of my practice. may everyone benefit. omx3