Thank you for expressing the importance of writing in a journal. I have been doing that for years unlike your special method of multiple books I only use (yes I am somewhat OCD) Top Flight Wired 3 subject notebook. I enjoy on my days off making coffee, sitting with my cat and writing in "my book". I agree just the physical act of writing is like a meditation and it appeals to my creative nature. I only use Sharpie ultra thin. The books I order on Amazon and whatever color they send is a concern but sets the mood. The new one beginning Aug 6 is Orange😊
Hmm good subject but what about maybe a gray area where a place in one's Life and circumstances kind of "forces the hand" (is that a poker phrase?) and dictates your path aka decision?
@@AlchemyOfInteraction I started college eager to be a Journalist. I didn't know what kind really I was just happy to be a college student working on my degree in Journalism. My parents had divorced when I was an 11th grader in HS. My Mom kept the house which I lived in while attending college and working a part time job. After 2 years she wanted out of the house and sold it. I couldn't afford my own place so I moved in with my Grandmother. I was looking for an apartment My Mom moved into a 2 bedroom condo for her and my younger brother. I still tried to go to school living with my Grandmother and working a full time job. But Life happens and I left school. I ended up moving in with my younger cousin who only wanted someone so she could save on rent. The story gets better after that. I just wanted to show that some decisions are forced on a person. I tried to go back to school two times. But like you said that other option is "closed off". It just didn't feel right. But I have done new things and traveled so much and even now I am working on new creative projects.
@@qwertyu30 I’m still confused at what point you were given a decision to make, though. If you had no choice but to find new housing, that wasn’t your decision. Deciding to find a new place to live would have been the decision- to find a new place or to not. Both have consequences.
@@qwertyu30 “you can’t live here anymore” wasn’t your decision, but “i can find somewhere else to live or i can not live anywhere” was your decision to make.
I feel you. I never had a father and my bio mom was more interested in doing other things that I can't speak on here, but I definitely learned from her mistakes. The two parental figures I was blessed to have in her place, my grandparents are both passed on now, but taught me such valuable lessons. My grandpa was loving and compassionate, he was also unwanted and mistreated as a child so gave me unconditional love. My grandma was tough and definitely abused me, but I forgive her bc I understand she also was unwanted, never had a proper example and was doing what she was taught she had to do. I ended up a teen mom like my own mother and decided in that moment to break those cycles. To never let my children experience what I did. I'm grateful for all the lessons, good and bad. My kids are all in their 20s, doing far better than I ever expected, especially with a narcissist father and me just giving from my heart like my grandpa showed me. Having been so wounded from lifelong traumas (that I'm finally trying to heal) I never imagined any of us would be this well off, even though I'm not great, they are flourishing. I gave them the tools they needed to survive this crazy world, and that unconditional love moved mountains for us all. I feel my grandfather in everything I do bc its all from the heart and he was my greatest example. Life isn't easy but I've learned everything is a blessing or a lesson, and even the lessons can turn into blessings if you make them something positive. A simple feeling of a teenage girl not wanting her baby to feel the pain I had was the catalyst for 3 different people to lead extraordinary lives (more if you consider the siblings I helped give the same) that wouldn't have been possible if I hadn't been so angry and resentful. I turned that pain into something beautiful and helped create something amazing. I'm an odd one, now I'm grateful for the suffering bc it motivated me to be the change, to be the person I needed and in doing so, found my true purpose. Every painful moment has the potential to turn into something beautiful. You just have to feel strongly enough about it and make it happen for yourself, even if you think it impossible. Miracles happen every day, if you believe. I found out how to give myself the love I was never given bc we all are worthy and deserving of happiness, whether you were given it/allowed to have it before or not. We all deserve to live a life of love and happiness with peace in our hearts. When you learn to love yourself that way, its a whole new story and its beautiful... <3 Love & blessings, and *hugs* to everyone who wants one! <3
I'm really sorry for you and the pain you have endured, i hope you'll be okay and have the power to overcome it 💪🏽 Crying doesn't make you weaker,it helps to express yourself when your mouth can't do this, you've been strong for a long time so crying isn't a bad thing. Cry, wash away your tears, stand up and keep going, it's not easy but you can do this 'cause you're a warrior. May God help you 🙌🏽
Dude I can feel your despair😢. It truly sucks when things aren't the way you imagined. Im so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels, regardless let go it's over🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
@@AlchemyOfInteraction Whatever it was you thought is over. Add it to the mixture then, so on and so forth. I'll ask you a question? What do you think alchemy is?
I don't know whenever I force myself to do something it is always a bad experience. You can't force yourself to suddenly enjoy your ex s music. There is something else at play here. No adapting needed. It is ok to not like your partners music I was young and new and just falling into this and that. A person I met played a country song they loved by Garth Brooks I think. Even then I knew this person was not right for me. A kind of soft musical red flag. It is ok to use music as a litmus test.
I listen to almost any kind of music. It was just dudes voice that bothered me, but it was a personal choice i was making to be obstinate. They are a pretty good band, honestly.
Maybe first step is to find out what company the Life Insurance was held. As a kin I am sure you could get some information there. Forget about those aunts. I have relatives on my Father's side who were wealthier and I know that feeling. But I trust Nature...or the Nature of Being. Karma some would say. Old folks:"what goes around comes around"...I guess sometimes we are left to just trust that. Which I am totally ok with.
I can understand your anguish. My Dad's death was "fishy" too. I didn't want anything. But the night he died his wife, not my Mom, called her son before she called 911. They were known to have fights a lot. He was cremated but at the showing under the make-up was an obvious bruise on his forehead. When there is a death Family changes, they get greedy. Not sure what you can do.
I enjoy your videos so much. What about cups? I have already diagnosed myself as a damaged puzzle piece. So has my sister. We grew up with an abusive Father and a cold German mother. But it turned us into women who can take care of ourselves. Problem for me is Love. If someone starts to think they Love me I push them away as soon as possible. See? Damaged puzzle piece.
I posit that you are a whole puzzle in and of yourself. Some pieces might be a little frayed or faded, and other people might have put some pieces of their own that don’t belong anywhere in your puzzle. You’re still a complete and beautiful puzzle. When you learn to cherish each piece of your puzzle and where it’s been, it will be easier to accept real love. Just remember a lot of people don’t cherish their own pieces and will project their ish. Learning where your puzzle starts and theirs ends is v important 🩵
Er like a tshirt I had created on Amazon I wear sometimes in red font on the front " #whawhawhat"...and on the back in lime-green font "consider the source"...I created it to wear at work to well target a problem person. But I like it because it helps me take the high road and move on.
So helpful. I have been wanting to busk with my electric violin for a long time. I am wired to keep myself safe so this is a challenge. Your Tarot said it all. Thank you.
