I first listened to this song remembering clearly that it had first come out 3 months ago. Now nearly 7 years have gone by. Doesn't matter if anyone reads it, but just the fact that I can get this out. This song is special to me. I listened to this when I was at my lowest point of my life in high school. I was stressed and swamped with school work, and would regularly every night listen to this to fall asleep, and sometimes just stare at the ceiling for hours as this played on loop wondering if it was even worth living. In my junior year of high school I met this girl. We didn't get along sitting next to each other, but for whatever reason I kept talking to her, and so did she to me. I was excited for any form of human contact as she was my first friend I ever made in high school. I would listen to this song, and then think of her for the rest of junior year of high school. We talked a lot during the summer break and we got together in a relationship, and I was happy. I was ecstatic. Things were good at the start, and then overtime things fell apart. I was only in that relationship for 3 months, and after she broke up with me I wanted to die. Nothing seemed worthwhile. It wasn't sadness, but a lack of anything, just emptiness. I thought she was the one, but I was clearly wrong. Another girl tried to hit on me after the breakup, but I absolutely felt nothing there was no instant repair to my state of affairs. I was close into getting into another relationship shortly after that breakup, but I decided to not pursue it, and I'm glad I didn't I was not in any state to be with anyone else emotionally. I miraculously am still here genuinely thinking I would be dying at a younger state of my life, but I am still here. It took 3 years for my heart to be repaired emotionally, but I'm glad I took that time and didn't spiral into relationship hopping. I finally met her. I've met someone who's now with me, and the best partner I could ask for. Even in a heartbreak please take your time for yourselves because the last thing you want is to throw baggage in another relationship you have unresolved. Most importantly make sure to love yourself. I was crushed from that breakup because I did not love myself, but after taking the time for myself in those years I was not in a relationship learning to love myself became extremely important. My life is currently better than it's ever been, and I'm more than happy to be in the position I'm currently in. I would read countless stories at the time years ago from everyone else who talked about meeting her or who talked about not giving up, and they were right. Even if you don't meet her you've met yourself and yourself is wonderful. I had to comment something as this video means something to me, and I've always wanted to contribute in some form or fashion to this community. I've been in a dark place, and if y'all have been too or are currently in one. I promise it gets better. What a beautiful music video with a beautiful community. I hope only the best to anyone who reads this.
I liked it better when we was low-key Now you tellin' all your friends that I'm different, ain't the old me Takin' these drugs, I'm 'bout to O.D. Can't tell me that you're loyal or you love, gotta show me Locked up in pain and you my co-D For all the time that we waste, we gon' need some matching Rollies Girl, would you ride if it's a stoley? Girl, would you ride if it's a- look
