I broke down crying so much last night, just slowly realizing how my sight is. I’m just glad I came across your videos. After being told that there’s no cure, googling on the update trial and such-I just refuse to believe that this is it. I hope you continue to update us, much love from El Paso Tx.
Have you learned of the drama triangle , of victim rescuer and bully , if we stop the triangle and dont switch roles and continue the problem . Its better to try and step out of any of these roles asap especially the most manipulative role which is rescuer .
I’m legally blind and it’s very frustrating because people don’t realize how little I can see. When I use my cane people get upset. I started volunteering at my daughters school because I use a hugely magnified computer screen. But it’s exhausting working with the disability and then fighting to still be a member of the world.
Yes, it can be so misunderstood but it’s so great to be able to educate people because most people don’t even realize the challenges that come with it. Bringing more compassion to the world is always my go to.
Thank you for sharing your truth so vulnerably. This video was super eye opening (no pun intended). I hope this message reaches everyone who needs it. Loved the video!
So true! People assume I’m making excuses and I don’t want to work or drive or I’m lazy. Recently my condition has gotten a lot worse and so this has been on my mind a lot, because I tend to take people’s words to heart. I’ve come to the conclusion there is just something about human nature that causes people to be harsh towards those with disabilities. This is helping me to not take it so personally as I’ve come to see everyone with any kind of disability is sometimes treated rudely. But like you said, my greatest strength is compassion. Also resilience and gratitude, I’ve learned to see the value and beauty in life even if I’m in quite bad pain or unable to move from bed. Now that I’ve grappled with this concept, I need to grapple with my feelings of being a burden.
I have autism and a bad ankle from an old injury so I understand where you are coming from. That's why I don't judge people for what they do or how they act unless they are obviously doing something illegal. I don't stare, I try not to gossip, and I try not to judge. And honestly ignoring people who are talking about me or staring at me has saved me in a lot of situations. Just ignore and be kind unless they get physical. Keep it up girl <3
Will it get worse over time? I hope not. My hearing was badly damaged, but it is thankfully not getting worse. Everyone has personal challenges, true. The worst for me is in when I'm in a social setting, someone says something or asks me a question, I don't understand them, so it makes me look like an idiot. I avoid certain situations in my work and social life because of it too.
I get it 💯 my body ( from my neck down my spine to my bottom crack ) can’t get away from the pain ~ procedure after procedure ongoing now since 2010 and my family and some friends don’t understand how or why I can’t do so many things as I once did. So I understand your perspective and agree 👍 thank you
That's very true. I myself deal with RP, so i can relate to & feel every sentence that you share. Not being able to show or express to people, even our closed ones that what we experience in our daily life is actually the worst thing that could happen. I've been accused & judged of it many times, but it is what it is. You are not alone in this.
I worked w a detox professional it was a lengthy program. After my experience i also went to get detox certified and I write custom detoxes for individuals. I’d be happy to chat with you more.
I have the same disease. I came to know about it september last year. Till then i have been really upset as i saw some dreams breaking. I live in Pakistan and just going to graduate. I feel a lot of problems like when you go inside home from sun. You are just senseless what is going around. And night vision ooh it's bad really bad. As a boy who has to take responsibilities of the parents and family soon, It is hard. I just do not want to break their trust on me and i will find a way to deal with it. Taking some supplements and adapting a healthy lifestyle but yeah it is all about how you deal with it mentally. The biggeast challenge is the mental challenge. And also i dont know if i would be able to be with the love of my life with this disease. I really love her for 3 years but with this disease i dont know she will be with me or not and also if she agrees would i be able to be a man that gives her every happiness in life. Oooh its a lot to digest but fingers crossed and lets hope for the best. To everyone with any disease just put a smile on your face and say to that disease look i am defeating you.
Sending you so much love and grace as you navigate. You can have it all. Don’t fool yourself into thinking you can’t. You are divinely perfect and this can be healed through everything we have within us.
I guess RU-vid told me I needed to see this randomly today. Not to trauma dump but the loss of my dad to suicide and when my ex wife left our marriage were huge transitions that have taken forever to be able to be ok with. Still deal with some toxic relationships bc of my fears about being alone, but being aware and accepting of your faults and still trying to push through means you still care, and that’s ok. Thanks for the video
I’m so happy to hear my journey can help shed light on your journey. We are all experiencing similar but different things at some point in our lives. Sending you love and grace.
I am not sure why they were visually impaired; but I had some legally blind co-workers at a call center once that told me they could see with their 3rd eye on psychedelics and that they dreamed in color. They road the bus to work and a few times I gave one a them a ride home and he confided in me. A memory from my former life in Austin Texas worlds ago, like I was an entirely different person then. 👁
That’s so amazing and not surprising at all. Right up my alley! I had a spiritual teacher tell me one time when your senses are less in one area your third eye sees more clearer then others. Makes sense. Physically if someone is blind a lot of times they train themselves to hear more sharp. We pick up other strengths.
I had to stop doing freelance web site design this year , due to c5 - c7 cervical stenosis very severe possibly causing paralysis in both arms soon if I didn't stop working on the computer all the time to make ends meet. I plan to do some websites for myself to offer services that don't require so much data entry and mouse work as web site design and QB bookkeeping does now; You are brave and strong to re invent yourself. 🫀I started working from home when I got the ventricular tachycardia diagnosis. You can alter your reality and health with your light body torus field, go girl ! I am going to reinvent myself into infinity. Take care! 👼
The most challenging thing is wondering who a person might depend on if they become disabled; if the people in one's life now are not that reliable to begin with it's not a secure feeling. It's my worst nightmare and I think you are wondering that same type of thing yourself. i have done home health care for very lonely disabled home bound people and our co dependence got us through a lonely time together! Prayers for your eyes , health and life.
Well it's not for everyone; but I have released the idea of a single 3 dimensional life span and woke up navigating the probable immediate timeline shifts of this counterpart personality to attempt getting to the upgrade vantage point that I am reaching for. Since 2015 I have been really going for it in this manner with weird success and I too had some pretty scary health issues that are being gradually alleviated in surprising ways I could not have expected . Expect unexpected miracles I would say dear Jordan. In a prior timeline I already died and am space trucking on this new one! I am up-leveling to avoid sudden cardiac arrest and upper body paralysis. It's working so far, but I did pass a few exit ramps.
I think you are doing wonderful internal work but give yourself a break for being a human being with normal needs. I break down and cry and then get a second wind again. I distract myself from loneliness and a lack of reciprocation from non magical people by doing my own form of prayers, miracle magic ritual workings and communing with animals and Immortals, but I would not recommend it for everyone. Works best if you have lived in the woods for years and work from home, go to town once a week. Not for everyone! Take care of yourself and let your natural gifts come forth sister! Can you see the New Earth shining through yet?
I think you are getting a last look at the life you had before it changes fast; be glad you didn't get thrown out of your entire frame of comfort reference all at once. Fasten your light body seat belt and steer in the direction your want your new life to go. If you ever want to steer down I-35 and then go east on Tx. Hwy 71 at Austin to Bastrop, let me know if you want to go for a walk on my Lost Pines forest land that burned down and grew back in a new timeline trajectory after 2011. Take care in the Big D, you may find a new place to fly soon. All my support to you as I am older single woman not willing compromise spiritual quality of LIFE! It is worth it; you have a spirit team unseen! 👼Just think of all those low vibe people you would have to shake off in order to change your life if they were clinging to you right now! 🙀
Oh i did get thrown out all at once. Financials, health, love life, friends.. all gone right at once. You seem to be right up my alley. I love all the support in your comments. Thank you for your feedback and support.
I too have Retinitis Pigmentosa. And I've know for some time. But as changes continue to occur I really get into a funk. And when I finally get so down in the dumps I have to tell myself that I could be hit by a bus tomorrow and I would have spent today not doing things and feeling terrible. I kinda equate that to your message. I worry so much about the future and I don't even know what that is going to be.
The nature of the ego is codependent. There is no codependency in a relationship or friendship etc. It is a projection. What I hear is self hate and unworthiness. Codependency is a symptom not the cause.
You are one of the most self-aware codependents I've come across. I think that's a really good starting point, since most are stuck in a delusional form of denial. Tim Fletcher, I believe, gives the best explanation and breakdown of what codependency is. I have a lot of the same traits, and have been working hard for months, years, trying to heal. This is a lifelong struggle, I believe, but I think trying to heal is far better than doing nothing at all, or living in denial.
After being separated for 9 or 10 months from my ex and son has taught me it is time to work on myself for myself now . I think I subbed because of your thailand videos as I intend to go there asap ( when the house sells ) . Glad to have subbed to you I feel like it is definitely a synchronicity
I think that community is overrated because you ultimately give time and energy to others, with it never being reciprocated. The harsh reality is that social media and technology have made people develop short attn spans and become self-involved. So they just talk about themselves and vent about their own problems. So even though you're surrounded by friends/support systems on the surface, you still wind up being alone anyway.
I agree with a lot of this. We are firstly in community with ourselves but most people never touch that part of themselves so they think they have community but in reality they don’t. I’m personally trying to touch the place of me that builds community within me first. Thank you for sharing your perspective. 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Look at it as “learning”…. Not struggling….. learning has a more positive connotation…. Our mind takes the word struggle as a negative. Keep as much positivity in your life as possible…. Even in thoughts…. 3 years into my journey now… it gets easier as you go…. Integration will happen when it happens… allow things to flow… everything happens with divine timing….. but yeah… what a journey….. ha Sending love.. gratitude.. and hope.
@@Jordanxrise honestly… I am still taking it day by day… some good.. some not so good. The difficulty is that, we now see the world differently… and to find those that share our respective path, makes it more difficult.. trust your intuition…. It’s your higher self.. remember… there is NO “timeline” for when you arrive where you are meant to be.. abandon that thought… it only pushes back energetically at the Universe…. Delaying what is to come…. If you want.. ig.. Royal.Rife it’s me…. Don’t know if anything I said helps… I hope it did.
I hear you Jordan - “ meeting yourself where you are at “ is so important . I have had times where all my comforts have been removed, where God has asked of me to rely on Him completely and I have had to let go of all the securities that I was holding onto . May you receieve all that you need to become who & where you are meant to be 💕
I’m so happy and proud of you that you were able to find help this way, but to anyone who is intensely struggling and hurting, there is a deep power in seeking and receiving therapy and medication to avoid hurting further or getting worse. Don’t be afraid to ask for help EVER EVER, if you feel things slipping into a dangerous place. You are WORTH the help and support. There may be a point where you will no longer need those services but don’t suffer in silence or deny your pain because of the negative and often misinformed stigmas around mental health services.
Totally agree. I’ve had my fair share of therapists at different points in my life. Meditation has been the most affective practice me for. My story isn’t everyone’s.
