“i wish i could forget you” | a fresh start playlist 

"id rather be alone because the fear of someone leaving is greater than the fear of meeting new people"

i left people 13 different times. They are all still haunting me in my memories. I wanted to become a better person in a way. Sometimes I just want to be with them but i hurt them and they hurt me so i have no choice but to watch them from afar as we all better ourselves

I miss them so much. I gave them all the love i could possible feel and even give to another. I told them everything they knew things my own parents didnt know. I loved them but they never loved me that way. I miss the nights we stayed up talking and laughing. I miss the mornings we'd wake up together. I miss their voice saying "I love you" throughout the day. I miss their face, personality, and energy. I miss how they would make me feel when I was around them. I miss making new memories that i'd keep forever with them. But after all this love i gave, They never gave the love back. I love them and I miss them. I hope they're doing good without me because im not doing good without them.

101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. dancing when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity

I've had several love, and all of them weren't mutual. After that, when I was in a new class, I met a girl there. I really liked her, and I decided that I should try to make friends with her, because then I had no friends in class. I wrote to her under various pretexts, such as "what's the math homework?". I smoothly began to ask how her day went, what kind of music she likes, what hobbies she has.... we started communicating more often. all this time I couldn't figure out if I liked her as a friend or as something more... After all that has happened to me, I'm afraid of falling in love, so I don't understand how I feel. But I just did as my heart told me. I said that I liked spending time with her, and that she was the best person I met that year. she told me that too. a year and a half has passed and for some reason she began to move away from me, ignore and communicate with others, not noticing me, as if I were an empty place. I endured, but then I asked her what was the matter. she evaded the answer, and said that she would tell everything later. I was waiting... and waiting... and waiting.... and suffered every day. as a result, I decided that it was already stupid to expect something and I blocked her in all social networks. summer came, the final exams were over, and I began to forget her a little, not to think about her every fcking day. but she wrote to me (I forgot to block her on one social network). she wrote that she thought we weren't right for each other, but she reviewed everything and... "let's start all over again?" it was very bad for me to read her message, I didn't want to react in any way to let her know what it was like to be ignored. But I couldn't help myself. I briefly wrote how bad I felt and that I didn't want to start all over again. my rational part understood that nothing would work out, but my heart wanted to say "yes, let's start from scratch" So I said goodbye to her... it was the dead of night, so I had plenty of time to throw out all this... pain. but I didn't feel better in the morning. again these thoughts, from which there is no escape. no music, no videos, no walks helped me stop thinking about her. I went to university, everyday routine and new acquaintances helped me fill my head with something else. I was recovering a little, but.... a couple of months ago I met her on the street. I won't wish the feeling that I experienced to anyone. it's like a sharp stab with knife right in the heart. all my efforts to forget her failed again. after a while, I met her 2 more times, as if fate itself was mocking me. it still hurts me, and in the evenings it's just unbearable. I hope it will pass soon.... I hope I'll start forgetting her this summer when I'll sleep and walk a lot. *i wish i could forget her*

I say I want to forget them but in reality I just want to forget the feeling I had the day he left. We were so happy, at least I was. I did so much for him and he and I knew it wouldn't last as long as we would've wanted it to. The pain sometimes feels worth the happiness I felt when I was with him

Hey there! As you soak in these words, let the radiant vibes of positivity flow through your being, uplifting your spirits for a fantastic new day. Embrace the boundless possibilities that await you, and let the sunshine of optimism guide your every step. May this day be filled with abundant joy, remarkable achievements, and delightful surprises. You've got this!

I really do need a fresh start

I do wish I could forget him, but I know I need to remember him for the better, or else it might just happen again. I'm glad I know the signs now.

It's my birthday (may 8.) One year ago today I was with someone I loved. My mental health declined and I couldn't be there for them. They promised me for two months that they would wait for me. They didn't. I eventually got enough courage to block them. It's been almost 6 months since we last talked. It still hurts. Sometimes I look through the old pictures but I can't today. Today is probably worse than when our one year would've been. This is the worst I've been in months.

My uncle really pissed me off and he just made me so so upset and I feel like I just been different bc of how he treated me- ty for the playlist btw!! 🖤🖤🖤

Honestly I keep thinking I should just disappear from the people in my past it’s like it haunts me, I’m a whole other person with Those people I hate that person I cower in fear every-time my anxiety gets so bad with them I can’t even fully trust them with the fear they will use it against me .

I left a backstabber a few years ago now and very sometimes i still think of them, i try to think its for the best we apart though, sometimes i think what would it be like if we where still friends sense i always supported them and said hi almost everyday, talked, listened, and liked them as a friend whole heartedly, they where my 2nd childhood friend so it hits kinda different then if it was another, (i still got my 1st childhood friend and shes awesome)

Great playlist i love it

I knew it would be amazing when Francis Forever played

I started a new life, without her, she wanted to re-become friends, she thinks she has another chance just because I said yes, but I'm only going to talk to her at school, she ruined my life, and i hate her for it, but i don't care, i dotn feel anything when I look at her, there's nothing there

(sorry for complaing but-) I wish I could just move to some other country and never come into contact with my family or my current friends again. I love my friends dearly, they're amazing, but I'm too dependant on them. I feel like I need a fresh start. Besides, they know something about me that I desperatley need to let go. I want to date boys, have friends I don't need to rely on, I don't want to be single forever just because there are barely any other gay girls where I live. I want to get married to a man in a church, even though I know I could never love him. I want to be normal. I wish I could've spent my childhood having sleepovers with other girls and talking about our celebrity crushes. I wish I could spend long nights thinking about a cute boy I saw at work. I wish I could've asked my mother how to do my makeup because I wanted to impress a boy in my class. I wish I could see myself in the female main characters of romance movies. But I know this isn't something I can change about myself. I hate it.

Perfect playlist 😍

Thank you dear ^^

I'm switching schools this year, i'm so happy to be able to start again

Being with you was such a dreamy possibility but I have to let you go, we are oceans away now, we won't see each other ever again, you have to forget me, you probably already did. I convince myself very poorly that when I remember you it's just because you're still thinking of me, so I push the thought far away. You won't see me again. If you were to see me again anyway, you wouldn't recognize this face, because the one I left you with was one with hope glinting behind the sadness and short hair. Since then I never stopped feeling like Rapunzel, still trapped, still helpless, still scared, still wilting. Still a coward. I should've kissed you. I should've been a bad person and kiss you when you told me you liked me. But I did not want to make you think I was feeling something I could never feel. I did not know myself. Maybe I was too obvious, maybe you wanted to guide me, maybe I did not need you and just needed time and I did the right thing. I'm sorry I can't keep friends, and specially sorry I had to meet you at that time when you were so vulnerable looking for distractions and comfort and a familiar face. I'm sure I look nothing like that one abusive ex you had. (Still not sure what you even wanted me to say to you when you told me that. Still not sure what you wanted me to say when you told me you respected other people's privacy as if it was a great feat. See why I would have never dated you? Get out of my head) I am not the type to take advantage. I don't think you ever realised that. Probably ain't even more than a memory gathering dust at this point, that's for the best. Sorry I couldn't be your girlfriend, sorry you couldn't be mine, sorry we never really matched. I've dreamt about us, the rose garden again, but in summer, and kissing, but that was years ago, and that's not really you, is it? The world spins so fast, it's sickening. I have to let you go but you're so f-cking sticky, get off me, get out. You moved on, why don't I? Stop thinking about me. Quit thinking about me. We're oceans apart already, get out of my head. Leave me alone. My body got away but my mind apparently didn't. I want to get away. I want to get away so much

best playlist 🤨

MICHIRU MY LOVE

god playlist

Wheres the background from?

he-he cheated on me. I wish I could just forget him