Hope that everyone here is well. Please be safe and remember that people care about you, even if it may not feel like it at times. If you are feeling troubled, maybe professional help is the answer, or talking to a trusted friend about what you are going through. Wish you all the best.
I've seen them live a few years ago in Dublin and they've never come back, I can't wait for when they do, I'll be right there again. When a band like this means so much to you, seeing them live is such a nostalgic and euphoric thing and I can't wait to feel that again.