thank you SO MUCH!! i listened to this once yesterday and the very next day I got to be totally home alone for the first time in months, fastest results i’ve ever had ❤
I hate how my grandma drags me everywhere, gurl im not your slave so whats the point? I deserve the whole house to myself and take a break from these narcissistic people.
i need my mom to leave the house cause im attempting to skip skl, ill update!! update this worked before, but im skipping again and need to get inside cause my clothes are soaked cause of the rain. and a hot bath and hot chocolate would be perfect.
It works.... def.... I just remind this channel and thought I need to share my story for who came here and myself. I never tell this story anyone but I think I need to share my story for who came here and myself. It will be very long story... my younger sister has several mental disorder like bpd, Bipolar and something more(I can't remember. maybe I can remember If I get some times, but I don't want to cuz reminding makes me down to pain.) she is... I'm not a doctor or therapyst but I reconize very long times ago that she had some problem. she already had symtoms of her nowaday metal disorder since she was very young. but I'm also young and my family was broken. so we loose the golden time... honestly, when I was kid I didn't thought she need to see a doctor. I just thought she just weird... after I go college far from our hometown. I realize our family is not that much good I used to think. the distance gave me the sight. that times she drop out highschool and just beinging in house. she was like social withdrawal, hikikomori. so I argued my parents let her came here. they easily sure of it. cuz they think she' s so pathetic. but also let her being PaThEtIc. cuz they love her even that is not right way. My english is not good enough explain whole timeline. whatever, they literally make her disoder more severe. so I decided to take her by myside. I thought I can make her better.... ealry days of our houseshare, she seems like getting better. but it just a month only. time after time, she going more worse. but she still not give up her life. she pass the highschool graduate exam and enter in college, meet psy doc every weeks, so I also not let her alone. I tried so much... one day, when she said she cannot go to lecture cuz she dind't have a shower, I showering her instead her. after that day, she do not had a shower till I showering her. from some time, showering her is become fixed to my job. I know its weird, but I thought that's my duty that days. I literally do anything good to her and she wanted to me.. but she just drowning more and more. This year she started deny to meet psyco doc and stop talking. she never answering others even me. in fact, she do not talking others without me since some years ago. even though she still can understand and listening. after I found this channel. I just playing every sub on this channel. whatever, 'what's the worst that could happen?' several days ago, my parents decided take her.. I felt my limits already but I cannot give up her till several days ago. cuz even she makes me pain she's my little sister, my famliy. and my parents cheering me for her care. I thought It was me choose all the things so I need to stand everything. but suddenly, I realized that's not my duty. my parents send me some money monthly for her cares but that's too cheep and not enough to feed her... she need food more than averages.. sometimes I tell them I feel bad becuz of her, they answered me they are deeply understand me. she based with me but sometimes back to hometown cuz they miss her. so they say they also knew my feeling very much. I apriciate it. several days ago. she facing the failure all lecture of this semester. cuz she didn't attend lectures too much. The prof of her, they knew her disorder so they gave her chance but she didn't take it. now, she has 5th failed semester.. I told parants she kick the chance. they told me... 'can you meet the profs instead of her?' I was feel like something burning my lungs. it was my patience.. I immidiatly off the phone. and very next day. father called me and say 'it's not that much hard. stop whining go ahead like older one. ' I filnally decided left her. I thought someday she can be better. but I never see the hope. while she with me, she only passed 5 lectures in 5 semester, and off the semester 2 years, and before the entering college. 5 years flied.. yesterday I found a new house, I never expected my parents will apologise to me and prepayment all the rent. and also they decided to take her. this channel came to me just right time, Thanks a lot... otherwise I just left my life with the think 'i failed, I messing all..' i I still have a bit of confuse and anxiety, but now I can see the hope. thank you.
+ I started listening sub about a month ago. I didn't focusing only this sub, I just played daydream's whole sub once in a day till 7th day and forgot. Cuz my work was busy.
